I sat next to Tony in the back garden. It was still unreal that he was actually next to me. 7 years. 7 years I haven't seen him and now here he is.

"I still hate you, you know." I stated. I said it in a playful tone but meant every word. I still can't get over the fact that he left me and never came back after he promised. I know he feels guilty but still, a promise is a promise and I take them seriously. He sighed and looked down at him lap, suddenly finding it more interesting.

"I'm sorry, I really am. I wanted to come back to see you, to take you away from it all but life just got so crazy and I never had time to myself to do anything so it was near impossible to come see you." He explained trying to make me understand his reason.

"So you didn't even have one day, not one day free in 7 years to see me?" I asked agitated. "Just admit it Tony, you forgot about me, did you?" I wanted to know. "It's okay if you did, the past is the past." I added. I was making him feel guilty, good. He needs to feel it after what he did.

"I didn't forgot you, I could never forget you Liv, you were my bestfriend, hell I lost my fucking virginity to you, do you really think I'd be able to forget you that easily?" He ranted.

"7 years is long enough.." I mumbled. He let out a frustrated sigh. He grabbed my wrists and spun me so I was facing him.

"I fucking loved you Liv, loved you. I couldn't have forgotten you, I just got so caught up in the new life I was living that I just let go of my past." He said, looking me straight in the eyes. He does have beautiful eyes if I'm honest. No, stop, just because Tony is back in your life doesn't mean you can forget about your boyfriend. I mentally sighed at myself.

"You didn't love me, Tony." I sighed.

"I did, Liv. I wanted to marry you one day.. but I guess things change.." He trailed off.

"Yeah, I have Jaime now, your bestfriend and I really like him, I haven't been this happy since well, you." I admitted. He looked at me with a weak smile.

"I have a girlfriend now too." He said. I don't know why but I kinda felt sad when he said that.

"Really?!" I asked shocked but happy for him. "Who's the lucky girl?"

"Her names Grace, been together for about a year now." He smiled.

"I'm happy for you." I said and I truly meant, Tony deserved happiness.

"Thanks Liv, I'm happy for you and Jaime too, he hasn't been this happy since his ex." He added.

"So I've heard, I wish he'd tell me what happened.." I sighed.

"He will one day, it's just a touchy subject for him." He explained. I nodded understandably. "So how's the family then?"

"I don't know." I shrugged my shoulders. "I haven't seen them in a good 5 years." I said. He looked shocked.

"Wow, I honestly thought you wouldn't leave." He admitted.

"Why? They made my life a misery after what happened, they hated me so what's the point in staying somewhere where I wasn't welcome." I said. He looked at me in sympathy, I hated it.

"They didn't hate you, they just didn't know how to deal with the situation.." He tried to make me feel better but honestly it didn't. I just stood up with a sigh.

"I don't want to talk about it, can we just go back?" I asked. I didn't want to be reminded of my past.

"Sure." He said and we walked back into the house.

"You took your time." Vic said as we entered the lounge where all 3 guys were sitting in. Jaime didn't even look at me, I knew he was annoyed but I didn't want to tell him the truth, not yet anyway.

"Sorry, just catching up." Tony said as smiled at me. I smile back weakly and walked over to Jaime.

"You okay?" I asked as I sat beside him. He just nodded, wrapped an arm around me and pull me close to him without saying anything. I sighed at the fact he wasn't speaking to me but the fact that he's still hugging me, that's good right? "I'm sorry if you're annoyed, I'll explain everything later." I said to him, loud enough for him to hear. He looked down at me and nodded.

"You don't need to be sorry, I was just jealous I guess, you both seem so close." He sighed. I really didn't want to tell him the truth now. If he's jealous because I hugged Tony, how will he react that I lost my virginity to him? I didn't want to think about it right now but since Jaime is my boyfriend, I have to be honest with him, about everything, I hated lying. Maybe if I'm honest with him, he might tell me about his ex girlfriend, I'm dying to know what happened.

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As soon as Jaime dropped me off back home I knew he wanted an explanation so I told him to come inside.

"So will you explain to me how you actually know Tony?" He asked wanting the real reason.

"I didn't lie, I did know Tony from high school. He was my best and only friend I had. But when his, well I guess your band got signed, he was going to leave me with my family that he knew I hated." I began to explain. "Well um, the night he told me that he was going, we agreed to lose each other virginity to each other." I finished. I waited for his reaction.

"Wait what?" He asked confused. I sighed heavily.

"We lose our virginities to each other Jaime.. but that's the past now, it doesn't matter."

"Of course it matters, you lost your virginity to my bestfriend, I may not have known you then but.. I don't know, it still hurts." He sighed and walked away.

"Jaime, where are you going?" I asked desperately, I didn't want to end the day like this.

"Home, I just need to think." He said and left. I just stood there dumbfounded, what just happened?

I sat there for about 10 minutes after Jaime left. No, I'm not going to leave it like this. I stood up, grabbed my keys and drove to Jaime's house, he's going to listen to me and we're going to talk like 2 adults in a relationship.

I knocked on the door as soon as I arrived at his house. He opened the door and looked shocked to see me.

"I'm not leaving it like this Jaime, we need to talk properly." I said and invited myself in.

"They're is nothing to talk about." He said.

"Yes there is, I need to explain everything to you. You're my boyfriend and you deserve to know." I explained and sat down on his couch. He followed suit and sat beside me.

"Okay, explain." He said and waited for me to begin.

"So I told you about Tony, but I didn't tell you about my family." I took a deep breath I didn't really want to do this but I needed to. "When I was younger, I had the perfect family, a lovely mother, a great dad and a caring older brother and sister, we were the perfect family in others eyes." I
began. "But one day, when I was around 8 years old, my dad was driving me to ballet class and that's when everything changed forever." I could feel my eyes watering at the memory. Jaime noticed and took my hand in his.

"It's okay, you don't need to explain now." He said but I shook my head.

"No, I need to." I said and took a shaky breath. "When my dad was driving, I was being a normal 8 year old girl, I was singing along to Disney songs that were playing. I was over excited and tried to get my dad to sing with me. He kept saying no because he needed to concentrate and me being an 8 year old, I got annoyed." I felt the tears run down my cheeks at this moment. "I began to scream and try to get my dad's attention, he snapped and took his eyes off the road to shout at me, but in that second he lost control of the car and we crashed into another vehicle. My dad dead in the collision and my family blame me for his death to this day, it's my fault that my dad is dead and my family hate my guts." I sobbed into Jaime's chest as I was finding it hard to breathe.

"Hey, calm down and breathe, it's okay." He said soothingly. His tone of voice immediately calming me down.

"I-I'm sorry." I sniffed wiping the tears away from my eyes.

"It's okay Liv, it's okay." He repeated and kissed my temple.

"No, it's not, I killed my dad." I cried as the memories flooded back to me.

"It wasn't your fault, you were just a little girl Liv, don't blame yourself." He said sternly.

"My family blame me, they hate me and don't want to see me ever again. I had to live in that house with people not wanting me around for years until I could move out and live by myself." I explained with more tears.

"But it's okay now, you don't have to see them anymore. You have me, Tony and all your other friends who love and care for you. You don't need them, you have us Liv, and that's all that matters now." He said wiping the tears away with his thumb. I just sat there and smiled. How did I get so lucky?

"Thank-you Jaime." I said and kissed him softly. "You mean more to me than you will ever know."

Notes

I can't believe it's nearly been a week, I'm soooo sorry but I've been really busy and never had time to update it but hope you like it!

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