One Shots (completed for now)

Over the weeks, I've been cleaning out my room and house. My mom told me that Nana and Papi are going to take her in, get her to rehab and counseling.

It would be good for her.

so we have to clean everything out take pictures and blah blah blah.

At first my mom wasn't too open with me and the idea of traveling selling clothes with Chris. But after I told her I wanted to pursue my music career and this would be a great way for me to jump start it by getting the life, she agreed.

After a two hour long explanation and debating.

But Chris and I have been Doing good. after that little fiasco, I was really embarrassed. This is how it went.



"Oh my god." I said after I pulled away, realizing what I just did. It was so stupid!! How could I be so dumb? He'll think I'm really creepy and oh my god!! He won't want me anymore.

"No, it's okay." He said and laughed a little. "I don't think you're creepy." He said chuckling to himself and my whole face when red when I met his eyes.
"I am so sorry, that won't happen again. I was really out of line..." I started but I trailed off when he leaned back of his elbows and started to laugh.
"This isn't funny!! I'm apologizing for my dumbass actions.!" I said and he just leaned his head back and laughed even more.


"Normally people only apologize if the person they did it too didn't like it." He said and my eyes went huge again.
How am I falling for this giant blue eyed person? Is it because he was one of the only men that treated me with kindness that I'm falling for him? And I'll drop anything at the first signs of affection.
I mean hell, he probably will forget about me one day on tour and go off with all the chicks who are a lot prettier than me. I mean, that's how it always works right? Find a girl until one fits your needs better than the last?

My mind began to cloud up with all of its questions for Chris. "No, luna listen to me. Focus on me. On my voice." My chest was heaving from all these questions. I couldn't breath.

No not now anxiety!!

"Hey luna. Luna." Chris said but I couldn't focus, all I could focus on were his lips on mine.

Wait, when did he kiss me again?

I dont care right now. all I care is that his lips rings are rawing out mine. He moves so his body is on top of me and he holds me. He doesn't caress my sides, just holds me.

His is hand is on my cheek while the other is supporting his body so he doesn't crush me. I part my lips slightly, so he Will have to fight to get all the way in my mouth.

And that he does.

his tongue fights with mine, but I quickly give up to my inexperience. But once his tongue runs over the roof of my mouth, I'm a moaning mess.


So for that he pulls away.

"I'm sorry, just I couldn't get you to focus so I did the best thing I could." He said guiltily, but for that I smile and close my eyes leaning back.
"It's okay, I-I- liked it." I said finding my confidence in my words. "Good, I try. "He spoke cockily and I shake my head while he rolls off of me.

"Well, I guess I better go wake up my mom," I spoke and quickly left he room smiling my guts out.



So yeah, that's how it went.

But I can't also feel like I'm missing something. Like I need something. So after putting everything (witch isn't a lot, a coffee table, a couch, small dinner table ect.) I do a walk through my room and bathroom and made sure I got everything. So once I sweep into the bathroom, I see my box sitting there.

I open it, knowing very well what's in it, but I never looked at it until now.



It was my friends suicide letter.

I open it and read it. What got me inside was a monster.


-Luna lux.

Oh my luna. What am I going to do without you. Life wasn't the same when you walked in. Oh god how dramatically it changed. But for the good. You made it really hard to leave and I'm so Sorry. Words can not describe how much this will hurt you, but I know very wel that you will not be in my shoes. Ever. GEt help. Find a boy do something, just don't end up like me. Please. I'm watching over you and if you ever try to end your life, i will kill you myself. Maybe not, but I will do whatever I can yo safe you and I will have to die before I see you hurting yourself. And right now, I'm gone. But don't do it anymore.

I love you my moon.

-joy


and then it was done, a few simple words telling me that I shouldn't do what I am about to do, but I do it anyway. my heart aches for the release and I shakily pull myself together.


i take take out pills that I had put in here and swallow them all with a gulp of the sink. This seems so wrong.

"What am I doing!! I don't wanna die!! I'm just getting out!" I scream, but I'm already dizzy. I fall to the ground in a heap, trying force out the whole twenty anxiety pills with my fingers. I reach for the toilet but I don't feel my arms, and I'm drifting.
"Hey Chica, I forgot my-" I hear and then I hear yelling, but my eyes are so heavy, they feel like bricks.

"baby, wake up!!" He said and I feel my chest heaving, throwing up what I couldn't just a couple seconds ago.
My eyes slowly open and I see Chris holding me, crying. "Oh my god what were you thinking!! I could have lost you!!" He said and pulled me to his chest.
"don't you ever do that to me again!! or I swear I will kill you." He said crying and I clutch his shirt, crying into it with him. I felt his hot tears on my face.

"don't you ever leave me Luna Lux Maraion. Ever." He said then he kissed my forehead.

Notes

OKAY SO ONE SHOTS ADE DONE SORRY GUYS ILLY ALL THO

AND SECOND OFF I do not promote self harm and suicide. I have suffered from both and I use my experiences to use plots and stories. Please come to me for help if you ever need it. I swear I will always try to be there for you.

and third, I have been MIA because of sports. Last weekend I had a volleyball tourney and last week was hectic because I had to get all my missing work in and it's the end of the semester. And I have been having basketball after school, but now that that is done, I am or hope I am going to update more illy all