It's three in the morning and I still can't will myself to sleep. Josh has been humming soft songs, running his fingers through my hair, and giving me soft kisses to try and put me to sleep. It isn't working. He can't sleep either though. All we can think about is the horrible event that is to happen tomorrow.

I thought kissing Josh was a good idea at the time but now I just feel like the biggest idiot in the world. Rvrryone is hurting because of me. I'm coming back though. I promised every one of them that I would be back the day after my graduation and I will keep my promise. I wont stay any longer than I need to.

"I love you." I whispered, tracing patterns across his chest. He grabbed my wrist to stop my movements before lacijg his fingers with mine.

"I love you to." He replied before kissing me. I buried my head into his chest and breathed in his comforting scent. It'll be over a year before I can smell it again.

"What are we gonna do?" I questioned him. We haven't had this talk yet. We need to. As much as I want to avoid it, Id rather get it done and over with to.

"What do you think we should do?" He asks, pulling his hand away from my hair. I sighed at his reply. I don't know what I want to do. I can't leave him but I feel like us staying together would even be harder.

"I don't know. Both options are gonna hurt." I stated. He pulled me closer to him and kissed my head.

"I know." He nodded. "I think we should at least try. I don't want to give up on us."

"I don't either." I agreed.

We laid in silence again. Josh started humming a tune that was slowly putting me to sleep. Eventually he put some lyrics behind it, making me want to stay up and hear the rest of the song. It's beautiful.

"....I am lost without you here and outside it looks like rain...." He sang. I felt my eyes drooping towards the end. "....you are the water in my lungs, we've lost it. We are all alone..."

My eyes finally closed as I cuddled closer to him one last time.

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Everyone had come to my apartment around seven this morning to see me before I left. We're all crying. Vanessa and Chrystal are standing outside, waiting on me to finish up my final official goodbyes.

"You have to call me everyday and tell me everything that happened and about all the friends that you've made! It's gonna be just like you never left." Ariel said, hugging me close.

"I promise I will." I replied. "Ill call everyone of you as much as I can."

"Good. We can't have you forgetting about us." Chris added, laughing dryly. I nodded and let go of Ariel to hug him. "Im gonna miss you."

"Im gonna miss you to." I responded.

"As soon as you get back we're all gonna have a massive party and invite only people that we hate so we can egg them." Ryan stated, making a small smile grown on my face.

"Sounds great." I nodded and went to hug him.

"And we"ll have all your favorite drinks and foods and music. It'll be the best day of your life." Opal stated. I smiled and hugged her.

"Second best." I corrected.

"Why second?" Devin pouted. I chuckled and hugged him.

"The best day of my life was the first day of school when I met you guys." I informed them all. A chorus of 'aw's' echoed around the room and everyone took part in a group hug. "I love you guys so much."

"We love you to!" Ricky shouted.

Vanessa and Chrystal walked into the tiny apartment. "Five minutes." They said. I nodded. Everyone but Josh left the room, giving me their final goodbyes before I would leave for a year.

"Call me before you get on the plane and as soon as you get off." Josh demanded, holding me in a tight hug.

"I will. I promise."

He leaned down and connected his lips with mine in a passionate kiss. "We'll be ok." He whispered.

"We'll be ok." I repeated.

"I love you."

"I love you to."

Notes

Hi! So there are only a few more chapters left. What do you guys think of that?
Imbsorry for being a shitty updater recently. School has been kicking my ass just a little bit.
Im going to my first concert tomorrow night! Im going to see a band called Avatar. They're Sweedish. My friend and I are gonna mosh until we can't feel our ear lobes.
That being said, I wont be updating tomorrow nigh, sadly. Im sorry.
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