Ghost In The Mirror

Sitting in the hosital waiting room is more painful than waking up in one. Maybe it's just the circumstances that I've been given at the moment.

I was crying into Austin's shoulder hysterically. Just last night I was laying in bed with Josh talking about which movie was better; Friday The 13th or Nightmare On Elm Street. Now, he's in an operating room being worked on so he can live to see another day.

Josh was hit by a car while walking home. The doctors said that his left lung collapsed, three of his ribs are shattered, and his arm is broken. The doctor said the procedure on his lungs would take about two hours and then they would try to put his ribs back in place so they would heal easier and so tey wouldn't puncture any vital organs.

Every one is sitting in this waiting room, hoping that he will be ok. An hour and a half ago, everyone was crying. Even Alan and Austin, two people that had only just met him.

That's the thing with Josh though. He can't just walk into your life without making impact. He's so full of life that it's hard to imagine him gone. He means so much to everyone. He's the life of the party. You can't be around him and not have a good time. No matter what, he'll make you smile, even on your worst days.

"Family of Joshua Balz." A doctor announced. The whole room stood up. "Parents of Joshua Balz." He corrected himself. Everyone sat down but the two people I would assume to be his parents. They walked towards him then they all started talking.

Austin wrapped and arm around my waist and held me close to him as a few stray tears left my eyes. "Josh'll be ok. He's strong." Austin assured me.

"Who is Tarra?" The woman I assumed to be Josh's mom asked.

I let go of Austin and walked towards his parents and the doctor. "Im Tarra." I informed them.

"Josh is asking for you." She said kindly. I nodded then the doctor signalled for me to follow him.

He led me to Josh's door and stopped me from going in so he could say something. "Josh is very weak right now so be careful. You have to remember his torso is severely damaged."

"Yes sir." I nodded. The doctor moved out from in frotnt of the door and let me in.

I opened the door slowly, not yet ready to see the damage done to Josh. The door fully opened and the sight before brought tears to my eyes once again. He was hooked up to a bunch of IV's, he has stiches lined up through the middle of his chest, he has a cast on his arm, cuts and scrapes all over his face, he's extremely pale, he just looks terrible.

I shut the door behind me and made my way to the side of his bed and sat in the chair next to it. He opened his eyess and turned his head a bit so he could see me. "Hey baby." He said, trying to smile. He winced a bit but tried to hide it. I noticed though, and it made me feel horrible.

"Hey." I replied, trying to fight back tears. It didn't work though. They were spilling faster than I could wipe them away.

"Don't cry. Everything is ok." He assured me. I was sitting on the side that his good arm was on. I grabbed his hand and held it in mine.

"You're hurt." I stated, choking on my words.

"Im fine." He retorted, trying to smile again.

"No you're not." I shook my head, squeezing his hand without hurting him.

He sighed. "Come here." He demanded. I leaned closer to him but not as close as he would like because he said, "closer,". I moved closer to him until my nose was brushing against his. He kissed me gently and smiled a small smile again. "Im ok." He whispered. "I promise."

I nodded then sat back down. His parents came in the room shortly after. "Im gonna go. I love you Josh."

"I love you to." He said. I got out of the chair and went back to the waiting room where everyone else was still sitting. I reclaimed my spot by Austin and put my head on his shoulder. Tears started flooding my eyes aain and I wouldn't do anything to stop them.

The love of my life is hurt. I wont leave his side until he's better.

Notes

New chapter!
I've made you guys wait to long and Im so sorry. I feel like crap for that.
Ive had a lot going on lately and I just havent had time.
Comment though, please!