Ghost In The Mirror

I stormed through my front door, still pissed at Ryan, and Josh still hot on my tail. I've had a few hot tears roll down my face during my short walk home but that's to be expected when Im angry. As weird as it sounds, I cry a little when Im pissed.

"Tarra stop!" Josh yelled at me. He had been trying to calm me down since we left the campus. I walked as fast I could home without jogging. I completely ignored every word Josh had been trying to say to me for the last twenty minutes to calm me down.

That's the thing though. I don't want to calm down. I need to be angry. I need to let this all out. I haven't been angry since my parents died and I need to let out all this pent up emotion. I can't bottle it up anymore. I won't do it.

"You said you were coming home with me. I agreed to that. I never agreed to have you try and calm me down so back the fuck up Josh and let me be pissed." I growled, stomping into my room.

I picked up anything within arms reach and threw it. I threw my wallet, a lamp, that surprisingly didn't break, my hamper. I even managed to tip my dresser over. I blindly grabbed something ans started to throw it until I realized what it was.

It was a photo album. It has all the picture of six flags that mom took. Seeing the picture that was on the cover made me lose it. It was the picture that caused the wreck. It was the one I said was my favorite.

I fell on my floor and let it all out. I cried, harder than I ever had before. Josh came in when he heard my nerve wracking sobs and pulled me into his chest, whispering soothing words.

"It'll all be ok." He cooed. I had the album clung to my chest like a life line. Josh pried it out of my hands and opened in. He looked through a few pictures before realizing what it was. "This is that trip you were telling me about today." He murmered.

I nodded into his chest and cried even harder. "They're gone! They're never coming back! They're gone!" I sobbed, choking up on half my words.

"No baby, they'll be back. They're just on a business trip." He replies, trying to sooth me, only to have an even louder cry rip from my throat.

"No! They're dead! They wont ever come back! They're gone forever!" I croaked. Josh gasped from under me, probably ahocked from what I admitted to.

"Tarra Im so sorry." He says and his arms constrict me even closer to his body, not that I mind.

"I ran away from Virginia as soon as I got out of the hospital! I can't go into foster care Josh! I can't be a good friend to Ariel because I don't want to go! I can't leave you Josh! Don't let them take me away!" I cried, wrapping my arms even tighter around him. They can't take me. Josh wont let them.

"Baby, no one is taking you anywhere. I promise, ok?" He states. I nodded into his chest. "Come on. Let's clean you up." He picked me up off the floor and carried me into the bathroom. He sat me on the sink and patched up my hands that hand somehow managed to get cut. He wiped the make up off my face that was ruunning down my cheeks then went back in my room and came back with a pair of shorts and a t shirt. "You change and I'll go clean up." He kissed me then disappeared in my room again before I had a chance to argue.

I put my previous clothes in the washing machine along with the rest of my dirty clothes then went to my room. Josh had everything cleaned up for me and was waiting for me to get back. He opened his arms for me to climb back on his lap, which gladly did. "Im sorry for yelling at you." I apologized.

"It's ok. You had a lot on your mind. You still do. You just need to get some sleep." He softly demanded.

"Will you lay down with me?"

"Of course." He nodded. I crawled under my blankets, josh following close behind after discarding his jeans. He has slept over so much that he's comfortable sleeping like that by me, and Im ok with that. I cuddled close to him, reaching up a bit as he leaned down to kiss me. "Everything is going to be ok." He whispered, his breath fanning my lips. I planted oone last kiss on his lips then rested my head on his chest and falling into a well needed sleep.

Notes

Well then, Josh knows! Damn! Comments on this chapter? I would really appreciate it!

Thoughts on what might happen next?