I woke up and Tony wasn't next to me anymore, then I saw a note.
Dear Shy,
I had to go home because my mother was worrying but I will see you on Monday at school. I want to get to know you more before we go into a full relationship, but if it doesn't work out I want you to know I will always love you. You are my beautiful Princess Leia.
Love, Turtle xoxo

I smiled, at least he didn't just leave me because he didn't like me. I got up and put on some skinny jeans, I walked downstairs and grabbed a monster from the fridge. I walked over to Vic and Mike's and knocked on the door. "Hello Shy I haven't seen you in so long you have gotten taller." Their mother greeted. "It is nice to see you again mamá, I came to see if the boys were up yet but I take it they aren't." She always felt like a mother to me when mine wasn't around, I mean I love my mom but when I needed motherly advice I went to Vivian. She shook her head "they're always staying up late doing god knows what, if you want you can come in and wake them up." I smiled and walked in, their dad was on a business trip so it was just her. I walked upstairs to Vic's room because he was the easiest to wake up. I opened the door a little and looked in, he was asleep on his bed wearing the same clothes as yesterday. I walked in and shut the door quietly. I walked over to Vic and started shaking him "Vic it is time to wake up" "No go away." "Will you get up if I get into bed with you." "Yes." I crawled in the bed next to him, he rolled over and put his arm around my waist and pulled me closer. He was warm so I scooted over towards him, we did this a lot and people always thought we were a couple. He kissed my cheek and rolled out of bed on the floor, I giggled. Every time I end up hurt and broken, he always makes me smile and laugh.

We we walked over to Mike's room. I knocked on the door, no answer. I pounded my fist on the door, still know answer. "Michael Christopher Fuentes saca tu culo perezoso hasta!" ("Michael Christopher Fientes get your lazy ass up!") I yelled banging on the door. "No fuck off." I opened the door and jumped on top of him so I was straddling his hips. I put my elbows on his chest and pouted at him, "But I want to go outside and do something." He opened his eyes and smiled. "Alright fine but only if you let me pick you up." "Fine" Vic walked back to his room to get changed so it was just me and Mike. He pushed me off of him and I sat on his bed, he grabbed a Pantera shirt out of his closet. He walked closer to me with a smirk on his face, he picked me up and threw me over his shoulder. He ran to Vic's room downstairs "MICHAEL CHRISTOPHER FUENTS PUT ME DOWN!" "Nah, I'm good." He said laughing. He ran downstairs and threw me on Vic's bed. They bit he ran over to me and started tickling, then my shirt went up and revealed my stomach. Vic noticed and I pulled my shirt down and sat in the corner of the bed against the wall with my legs against my chest and my arms wrapped around them. "Mike please leave me and Shy alone for a few minutes." "Okay." Mike said going back upstairs. Vic approached me slowly and sat crossed legged across from me. "Why didn't you tell me you cut? Why didn't you ask me for help?" He said with a sad look on his face. "I-I-I don't know Vic." I said with tears rolling down my face. "Is that all of them?" He questioned pointing towards my stomach, I shook my head no. I got up and pulled of my sweatshirt and my skinny jeans and took off the bandages Tony put on. He had tears rolling down his face and he walked over towards me, he kissed the scars on my arms. "I still think you're beautiful, and I don't want to ever lose my best friend." He said, "Vic! Those would make perfect song lyrics." "Oh my god you're right." He ran over to his desk and wrote them in his notebook full of songs. "Vic if you ever make it to the top please put that song on the album." "I will if you promise to stay alive and watch my fame grow." "I promise I will." I said smiling he got up and hugged me even though I was in a bra and underwear. He grabbed my sweater and skinny jeans and handed them to me. He has seen me naked before because we had an incident at my house once when Mike took my towel. I put on my clothes and he grabbed my hand, we walked upstairs to Mike. We all got outside and walked to my house, it was Sunday so there wasn't much to do. "By the way Mike, Tony kicked Jake's ass already but if you want I can talk to him because he wanted to team up with you to kick Jake's ass again maybe." I said he smiled, "I wouldn't mind teaming up with him, after seeing him make you smile yesterday I think he is a nice guy." He said hugging me, I knew he would kick anyone's ass if the tried to hurt me. He just didn't know that Oli was the biggest problem.

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*Monday*

I woke up and walked downstairs, I grabbed a monster from the fridge and walked upstairs after chugging it. I put on my black skinny jeans and a My Chemical Romance sweater. I put on my Vans and walked out the door putting in my earbuds. I walked to school early so I could think, then I ran into my biggest problem, Oli. He smirked and pulled the earbuds out of my ears, "Well, well, well, look who we've got here. Little miss suicide." He smirked "Oli just leave me alone." I said looking him in the eyes. He grabbed my wrist making me wince "what did you say love?" I looked down. He grabbed my chin and tilted my face up to make me look in his eyes. "I told you to look me in the eyes when I talk to you." He growled, I got out of his grip on my wrist and ran to the girls bathroom. Nobody was in there so I just looked in the mirror. I pulled my pants down enough to see the cuts on my thighs. I took of my sweater and looked at my cuts on my stomach and arms. Then Oli walked in, at first he was smirking then he looked like he was about to cry. I was going to pull up my pants and put my sweater back on when he stopped me. He looked me in the eye "if you only knew this is how bad you hurt me Oli you probably wouldn't say the things you say to me." I said tears rolling down my cheeks, he walked towards me and wiped them off with his thumbs. "I am so sorry Shy it's just that I like you and don't know how to tell you." He said started to rub the cuts on my stomach. I looked at his face and he had tears rolling down his face as well.

I pulled up my pants and put my sweater back on, he grabbed my hand before I could walk out the door. "Shy, I love you and I want you to know that I will always love you." I looked down and blushed, he tilted my chin up. "You are beautiful not ugly, you have perfect curves not fat, you hang out out with guys and still are a virgin not a slut or a whore, you are emo, bipolar, and depressed not a freak. Shyana Johnson, I love you." He said smiling, I was smiling and had tears running down my face. He was never nice to me and this is the nicest anyone has ever been to me. " I am sorry for being your bully, I am sorry for causing all of those cuts, I am sorry for all the things I said, I am sorry for making you depressed, please forgive me Shyana, please." He said with hope in his voice. "Oliver Sykes, I forgive you but there is one thing I need you to do." "What is that love?" "I need you to fix me Oli, I'm broken and you're the only one that can fix me." I looked down blushing. When I looked up he wrapped me up in a hug, after that we left the bathroom and went to our first period.

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After school Oli walked me home, Mike and Vic had left already and Tony was pissed that I was hanging out with Oli. On the way to my house someone tapped me on the shoulder, I told Oli to wait and brought them to a place we could talk. "Shy, how the hell did you get Oli to be nice to you?" It was Kellin I could tell by his grip on my hand, he would always wrap his hand around my fingers whenever we talked. "Well he walked into the bathroom when I was looking at my cuts, he felt so bad about everything he has done to me. He loves me Kellin, he fucking loves me. He is going to help fix me but he problem is what do I do when I like 4 guys at once?" Kellin was that one person that I talked to about problems I had. "Shy, calm down everything will be okay. You will figure out who loves you the most or the one who helps you the most." He said hugging me. "Okay Kel, I got to go but if you want to hang out some time just come over to my house." I said walking away, he nodded. I walked back to Oli and we started walking to my house, when we got there I asked him to wait he was confused but listened. I walked inside and ran all through the house making sure Vic and Mike weren't here. I ran outside almost running into Oli, falling of the porch. Oli catched me before I fell, "Jesus Christ Shy, are you okay?" "Yeah I was just making sure my friends weren't here." I said smiling, he smirked and picked me up, he threw me over his shoulder and walked inside. He dropped me on the couch and sat down next to me. We talked for hours about our lives and all the shit we have been through.

He had to go home because his mom wanted him home for dinner. After he left I got bored so I went to Vic and Mike's. Vic opened the door and hugged me instantly, "Vicky I'm bored can we go to my place and watch movies and eat pizza?" I asked giving him puppy dog eyes. "Okay but just because you give me that look doesn't mean I will always say yes." "You said that last time." I said laughing. He gave me a piggy back ride to my house and dropped me on the couch while he ordered our pizza. We started watching Harry Potter after our pizza came. 30 minutes into the movie Mike walked in and pouted "Why are you guys watching Harry Potter without me?" "Because I wanted some alone time with Vic." I said he started walking out. "Shy you need to show him, he needs to see." "Fine. Mike can you come with me to my room to get the rest of the Harry Potter movies?" "Sure thing sweet thang." He said smiling, I gave him a small smile. We walked into my room, "Mike I need to show you something." "Okay." He said sounding confused. I took of my sweater revealing the scars on my arms and my stomach. "Are there anymore?" I nodded, I had out on shorts that had covered the cuts on my thighs earlier. He walked over to me "where are they?" I pointed to my thighs and he rolled up my shorts. He had tears streaming down his face as he got up and hugged me "Shy, me and Vic will always be there for you okay?" "Okay." I said knowing he was right. Put on my sweatshirt and rolled down my shorts. Mike left me and Vic alone, we cuddled up on the couch and watched Harry Potter. After we watched the first two movies we were tired so he carried me upstairs bridal style and set me down on my bed. He started leaving until I said "Vic can you please get Mike for me?" "Of course I can Shy." He walked out and five minutes later Mike was here. "What did you want Shy?" "I wanted you here with me in my bed." I said lifting the covers up. He crawled in and grabbed my waist, he pulled me closer to him and I laid my head on his chest. He wrapped his arms around me, "Shy, I love you and I always have. I hope you like me too." He said with hope in his voice. "I do Mikey I honestly do, but I also like Vic and Oli. It is just so complicated, I hate being a teenage girl. It makes me so hormonal." I said pouting. He kissed my head and we fell asleep.

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