Hi my name is Shyana Johnson, but you can just call me Shy. I leave with my mother but she is barely home because she is always on business trips, she has been since I started High School. My father left before I was born because my mom was 16 when she had me. I am emo and don't have a lot of friends, my two closest friends are Vic and Mike Fuentes who are also are my neighbors and have always been my neighbors since I was 5. I have a boyfriend named Jake and I love him a lot. I love rock/punk music and Eminem.

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I am so happy that somebody loves me. I am on my way to my boyfriends house so we can go to the movies. I got there when somebody asked him 'are you ever gonna tell her it was just a dare?' He saw the look on my face when I heard him say that, instantly tears started falling down my face and his friend smirked. I ran all the way to my house ignoring his calls for me to come back and let him explain. I actually believed someone loved me, I actually believed it. I went up to my room and cried my eyes out when Mike and Vic walked in, Vic picked me up and set me in his lap. I laid my head and his chest still crying, "shhh, everything will be alright sweetie" he said rubbing circles in my back. I started to calm down to the point where I was only sniveling and whimpering. "What's wrong Shy?" he asked. "It was all just a dare, just a fucking dare. I shouldn't have believed somebody besides you guys loved me. I just need to quit believing people because every time I do I end up hurt." "Shy if it was Jake that hurt you I swear to fucking god I am kicking his ass on Monday, he should know that you are bipolar, depressed, and suicidal, he should know not to fuck with your feelings right now." Mike said his voice cracking remembering yesterday when I attempted suicide again. I got out of Vic's lap "can you guys please let me have some alone time?" "Okay but call us if you feel like killing yourself again." Vic said while the were walking out the door. It was dark out so I went to the tree in the woods by my house that I always go to. I draw, write, sing, play guitar, and cut there.

I got to my try and climbed up to the branch I always sit at, grabbing my blade from the hole in the tree where I always keep it. I unwrapped the paper I wrap around it and started making cuts on my wrists, thighs, and stomach. 1..2..3..5..20..50..70..100..150. I had made 150 cuts, while watching the blood flow from the cuts I was thinking about jumping and ending it all when I heard crying. I climbed down the tree and walked towards the person, it was no other than Tony Perry. He doesn't talk much to me but he was nice. He had a gun against his head and he was crying, "If you die, please take me with you." I said with tears streaming down my face. He looked up and saw me, I started crying harder and put my face in my hands, then I felt arms wrap around my waist. I knew it was Tony, he walked us towards the wall of the abandoned building he was at. He sat down I put my on his lap with his arms still wrapped around my waist,I started crying even harder as if it was possible I to his chest. "Shhhh, it will be okay, everything will be okay." He said rubbing circles into my back. "Tony, how do you know it will be okay? Everybody tell me that and I end up getting hurt. I-I-I attempted suicide for the fifth time yesterday but Mike saved me. I just want it all to end." I said as I stopped crying, we sat in silence besides my sniveling. "Shy why do you want to die?" "Why do you?" "I asked first but since I am nice, I wanted to but then I thought of my life ahead me and when I was going to put down the gun you said 'if you die, please take me with you'." I didn't realize that he was going to put the gun down. "I want to die because nobody loves me or even cares and when I thought someone did it was all a big lie." I said leaning my head in his chest and holding my hands like a little kid would do when they cry or are upset. He arms wrapped tighter around my waist and he rested his chin on my head.

"Why are you out here in the woods Shy?" "I come here when I need to relax, I sit in a tree and I draw, write, sing, play guitar, or cut." I said that last part quietly, I knew if Vic found out he would be devastated. Vic didn't know I cut, he just thought I was suicidal. Tony let go and nudged me with his head witch I took as a please stand up and show me. I got up and rolled up the sleeves of the sweatshirt, blood still coming out of my fresh cuts. He gasped at them, then I pulled up the part over my stomach. He looked very shocked, "Roll up the bottom of my shorts." I said as he walked over and got on his knees. He rolled them up and started kissing the cuts. I giggled as each kiss tickled, he got up and hugged me. "Let's get back to your place and clean you up and get to know each other better." He said. It waiting for response and picking me up bridal style. He walked through the woods all the way to my front door, I unlocked it and he carried me upstairs into the bathroom connected to my room. He set me down on the counter and took of my sweatshirt, "is it ok if I take of your shorts and t- shirt? I don't have to but it will make this easier." He asked a little embarrassed. I nodded and he helped me take off my shirt, he then unbuttoned my shorts and slipped them off. He grabbed a cloth and put it under some warm water, he started wiping all the dried blood off my cuts. He put antiseptic stuff on them which made me wince, "I am so so sorry Shy I just need to make sure they don't get infected." He said looking me in the eyes. When he finished he wrapped my legs in bandage cloth stuff, and he helped me off the counter. He went in my room and grabbed a pair of skinny jeans and my black sweater with a cute turtle on it from Florida. My mom got it on a business trip, she knew my weakness was turtles. He helped my put them on, then he carried me downstairs.

He put Star Wars in the DVD player and made popcorn. He started the movie and halfway through we started talking about our live then we started naming our favorite things. "Favorite color?" "Blue because it reminds me of the ocean and the ocean is beautiful and turtles live in it." I responded looking down realizing I sounded stupid. "YOU LOVE TURTLES?!" Tony yelled jumping up and down. I nodded still looking down he lifted my chin and said "there is no need to be embarrassed, we are now friends. We may both be outcasts but we are still friends. You are my beautiful Princess Leia." I blushed and looked back down, this time he did the same.

He had to leave and I walked out to the sidewalk with him. We hugged, "Shy just to let you know, I was there when found out Jake was dared to date you. When I saw you run away crying I kicked his ass knowing that Mike would beat me to it. Anyways I was going to ask him to gang up and kick Jake's ass but I was too pissed to wait." I look him in the eyes and the next thing you know his lips crashed on mine, his grip around my waist got tighter and mine around his neck did too. We closed all the space between us while are lips moved perfectly in sync. Finally when we pulled apart gasping for air I asked, "Please stay, I don't want to be alone?" "Okay I will." He gave me a piggy back ride inside. We went upstairs into my room and I changed my jeans for pajama shorts, Tony was in a Star Wars t-shirt and his boxers. We laid down in my bed and he wrapped his arm around my waist pulling me closer. I finally found some one that actually loves me and cares for me and has same interests as me as well. I am happy that I am with Tony Perry

Notes

First chapter too my third story, I hope you guys like it. I am thinking of getting rid of Silence Isn't Always Golden but I am not sure yet but anyways I hope you guys like the story. <3