Two Wrongs Don't Make It Right

The day of the show was here and I was a mess. I didn’t know if I wanted to throw up or cry, or both. I ran my hand through my hair for the thousandth time. Tony came up to me and rested his hands on my shoulders, trying to keep me in one place. I had been pacing.

“Babe relax. You’ll be fine.” He says in a soothing voice.

“Yeah you guys are going to be great.” Vic chimes in.

“Thanks guys, just super nervous. I want them to like us.” I tell them.

“They will. We are going to kill it.” Levi states excitedly. I wish I had some of his enthusiasm right now.

“I’ll be side stage the whole time. I promise.” Tony whispers as he hugs me tight.

The door opens and one of the tech guys tells us it’s time to go on. My stomach flips. I turn and grab Tony’s hand and begin walking toward the stage. I can hear the crowd talking excitedly. I jump up and down a few times to get the nerves out. The lights on the stage dimmed signaling for us to go on. I turned and hugged Tony. He gave me a soft kiss before pushing my lightly toward the stage.

I grabbed the mic and the lights came up. Before they were fully up and I couldn’t see I looked out at the crowd. There had to be about 350 people here, maybe more. They cheered and I smiled. This was it! This right here was going to prove if I had what it takes to do this or not.

“How are you doing tonight San Diego?!” I screamed into the mic and the crowd got louder. “well we are Through The Looking Glass and we hail from Huntington Beach California. We are so stoked to be here tonight. This first song is called ‘Take Me On The Floor.’ I hope you like it.”

I walked over to the small keyboard set up and I started to play with the guys. Right before the vocals came in I pushed the programmed button so it would play it on its own. I rushed to the front of the stage and sang out over the crowd.

[i]’The light are out and I barely know you
We’re going up and the place is slowing down
I knew you’d come around.
You captivate me; something about you has got me
I was lonely now you made me feel alive
Will you be mine tonight?’[/i]

I looked over to side stage and Tony was smiling widely at me. I winked to him and continued to sing. When it ended the crowd roared with excitement. We had a very different sound from Pierce The Veil but to see their fans react this way it made my nerves disappear. This was so much different than preforming with Kellin. There was so much more to lose, but they genuinely seemed to like us.

We played 4 more songs before I grabbed my water downing the rest of it and turning to the crowd once more.

“So I would like to give a special thank you to the guys of Pierce The Veil.” The crowed screamed and I smiled at them. “They graciously let us open for them tonight and we can’t begin to tell them how much we appreciate it. So give it up for them!” I yell and they go crazy again.

“Unfortunately this is the last song we have for you tonight. I hope you guys being her with us ‘cause I know we sure as hell enjoyed playing for you. This song is called ‘Heavily Broken.’” I tell them “I wrote this song a couple weeks back and it is really near and dear to my heart. It’s a little slower than what we have played for you tonight, but I want everyone that has ever been through a really rough break up or life experience to raise their hand.” I raise my hand and block the lights. I smile at the amount of hands that are in the air. A roadie brings out 2 stools for Jeremy and I. Cory and Levi leave the stage as we sit down. Jeremy starts to play. “This song goes out to all of you.”

[i]Everyday I sit here waiting
Everyday just seems so long
And now I've had enough of all the hating
Do we even care, it's so unfair
Any day it'll all be over
Everyday there's nothing new
And now I just try to find some hope
To try and hold onto
But it starts again
It'll never end

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do
I'm heavily broken
And there's nothing I can do[/i]

I sing from the heart letting every emotion I had been feeling over the last month and a half flow through the word and out of my body. It felt amazing to let go. Cory and Levi had rejoined us again right before the chorus kicked in.

[i]Almost giving up on trying
Almost heading for a fall
And now my mind is screaming out
I've gotta keep on fighting
But then again
It doesn't end

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do?
I'm heavily broken
And there's nothing I can do
And there's nothing I can do

Feels like I'm drowning
I'm screaming for air
(Screaming for air)
Louder I'm crying
And you don't even care [/i]

I stood from my stool and walked over to the crowd and kneeled in front of them. I sang my heart out; I was giving them my all.

[i]I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
(What can I do)
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do
I'm heavily broken


I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do
I'm heavily broken[x3] [/i]

As I finished my voice cracked on the last note from the tears in my eyes. I stayed where I was as the music faded out.

Notes

Song is 'Heavily Broken' by The veronicas.

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Josie

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