Two Wrongs Don't Make It Right

I sat at the counter of the store with my lyric book open in front of me. It had been a couple of days since I had told Tony and I still hadn’t talked to Austin. I knew I needed to, but I was dreading it. I didn’t want to hurt him no matter how bad he had hurt me. I picked up my phone.

[b]To: Austin 3:54PM[/b]
[i] Meet me at the coffee shop by the store? We need to talk[/i]

[b] From: Austin 3:55PM[/b]
[i] I’ll be there in about 20 minutes. Just finishing up some things at the studio.[/i]

I sighed this was it. I knew that after today anything between Austin and I would be in the past. I was starting fresh with Tony. I looked down at my book and read over the lyrics I had just wrote.

[i]’You know I love you, I really do
But I can’t fight any more for you
And I don’t know maybe we’ll be together again
Sometime in another life
In another life.’[/i]

I smiled to myself. The words fit so well with what I was feeling. I knew that I couldn’t be with Austin anymore and if things had happened different maybe we wouldn’t be in this situation. Maybe in another life we would have worked out. Writing lyrics really helped me deal with everything that had happened to me from Austin to shit in my past that I never wanted to talk about.

I stood up and said goodbye to Jennifer before leaving the store and going to the coffee shop. I was scared to see him. He was sitting at a table when I walked in. He stood as I approached the table.

We sat in an awkward silence for a couple minutes, neither one knowing what to say.

“Listen Austin…”
“Autumn I’m glad you wanted to meet.”

We both began to say at the same time. We laughed uncomfortably.

“You first.” He says.

“I’m sorry I didn’t call you sooner. I have been really busy lately. The fall lines about to come out and my band have its first show with Pierce The Veil 4 days down in San Diego. So I have had a lot on my mind. I’ve thought about what I want lately and I have finally figured it out.” I tell him. He nods motioning for me to continue. “Austin you know I care about you, I probably always wil..”

“But.” He interrupts frowning.

“But I can’t do this. I can’t go back to you and possibly get my heart broken again. I know you say it won’t happen but how can you be sure? How can you be sure that you won’t run scared again? I need someone that I can trust and that I can count to be there when things get tough.” I explain.

“I won’t I promise. Just give me another chance.” He pleads.

“I can’t Austin. It’s not that I don’t want to. It’s that I can’t. What you did I can’t forget. I’m sorry.” I say looking at him with sad eyes.

He looks at me in awe, he is in shock from what I just told him. I stand and lean over to kiss him on his cheek.

“Goodbye Austin.” I tell him and walk away not looking back. I know if I had I wouldn’t have been able to do it. I would have gone back to him. Had I looked back I would have seen the broken look on his face and the teas in his eyes. I heard him slam his first against the table as I walked out of the door. I let the few tears that had gathered in my eyes fall. I hastily wiped them away and kept walking.

[b]Austin’s POV[/b]

I screwed everything up. I thought that after the other day there was a chance that we were going to fix things. I was wrong. My heart shattered at her words. She kissed my cheek and walked away. I was in shock. I didn’t want to believe that I had lost her.

I slammed my first against the table as the tears I had been holding in slid down my cheeks. I stood up and walked out of the shop. I had fucked up to the point that there was no fixing it.

She was gone. She may have been doing what she thought was best for her, but I didn’t know what to do without her. She would have my heart no matter what.

She was the only one that I wanted.

Notes

I will be using a lot of The Veronicas songs for Autumn's band. This one is called 'In Another Life'.

Only 2 more chapters :)

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