Two Wrongs Don't Make It Right

I was currently straightening my hair and dancing around in my underwear. Call me immature I don’t car. It was moments like this that I was purely happy. I heard knock on the door. I frowned to myself; I was supposed to be meeting with Levi to write some music so I didn’t know who was here. I threw on a pair of shorts and Austin’s shirt. Yes I still wore it, sue me. I missed him no matter what had happened between us.
I walked to the door thinking that maybe Levi had changed his mind and was just going to come over here. It still didn’t answer why he knocked though so I swung the door open.
“Levi you know you don’t have to knock. Just come…” I started to say, but swallowed the rest of my words when I saw that it wasn’t Levi. It was Austin. “What are you doing here? Actually first I want you to tell me how did you find my house?”
“I know people.” He joked but when I cross my arms across my chest clearly not amused he quickly answers. “I may have gotten it from one of the girls at your shop. I told her I was a cousin and wanted to surprise you.”
“Seriously Austin?” I exclaim. I motioned for him to com in. I knew he wasn’t going to go away. “What do you want?”
“I see you still wear my shirt.” He says gesturing to it. “I have been looking for it.”
I immediately lift it over my head and throw it at him. His eyes widen as I now stood in front of him in just my bra and shorts.
“That’s new.” He said referring to the large chest piece I had gotten done when I got home.
“I needed a different kind of pain.” I replied. “Again what do you want?”
“We need to talk.” He states sadly. His brows furrow and his eyes look up at me pleading.
“Hold on.” I say walking to my room to get a new shirt. I walk back out and he was holding the shirt to his nose. I clear my throat and he jumps.
“It smells like you.” He says simply. I bit my lip and sat down across from him. “Who’s Levi?” his voice sounded jealous, protective, and hurt.
“Not that it is any of your concern, but he is my band mate.” I tell him
“Band mate? So you are pursuing music? Good for you, I have a feeling you will go far.” He replies. And my stomach flips it made me happy that he had that much confidence in me. I quickly squash the feeling and look at him.
“Thank you. I’m not going to ask again so please stop changing the subject.” I say sharply.
“I needed to explain in person. I knew you wouldn’t answer my calls; so I didn’t have much of a choice. I needed to find you.” He said.
“I think it’s fairly clear what happened, Austin. I don’t need you to go into detail.” I tell him looking down as the images start to play through my head. My eyes glaze over.
“I wasn’t going to. I’ve had a lot of time to think over the last three weeks and I realized something. I was scared. I looked at you on that stage and realized how hard I had fallen for you. You are everything that I want and I hadn’t felt this was since I started dating Gielle. Look how that turned out, I vowed that I wouldn’t put someone through that pain. But I did and I can’t take back what I did. I hate myself for it.
“You are so amazing and I don’t deserve you. I am so upset with myself. You deserve so much better than someone that runs scared when faced with a situation they don’t know how to handle. You have every right to hate me.” He explains. When he finished there were tears in his eyes that threatened to fall.
I stand and he follows. I walk up to him.
“Austin, I could never hate you. I love you, I really do, but I can’t trust you. You were scared ad instead of talking to me about it you did the one thing that tore my heart apart. I promised myself when I started warped that I wasn’t going to get involved with anyone. I threw that out the window cause I thought you were worth it. I guess I was wrong. I need some space Austin, this isn’t going to be fixed overnight. I have somewhere I need to be. I will call you in a couple days. I state before gesturing for him to leave.
I didn’t wait to see him out before I walked into my room and shut the door. I fell against it and starting to cry. Loving him was a double edged sword and I didn’t know how much longer I could hold on before I had to let go.

Notes

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