Two Wrongs Don't Make It Right

Sitting on the plane home all I had to occupy myself with was my thoughts. Why? The word had been running through my head since it happened. Chloe was so angry at him, I knew the first time she saw him she was going to give him a piece of her mind. I didn’t want her to, but she going to protect me as best as she could.

I bit my lip as the plane landed; it was always my least favorite part of flying. We slowly exited the plane and I headed to get my bag. I hailed a taxi and gave him the address, soon we were heading home. It was going to feel so empty the next three weeks without having Chloe around.

I made a small meal and only picked at it before I eventually threw it away. I walked toward my room and started to riffle through my bag for something to wear to bed. I stopped when I saw one of Austin’s shirts. That was all it took for me to break down. I put it on and curled up in bed. I pulled out my phone to call Chloe but stopped when I saw I had 46 missed calls and 22 texts from Austin.

I knew looking though the texts wasn’t going to help, but I couldn’t help myself. I needed to see what he had to say Most of them were ‘I’m sorry’, ‘Please call me’, and ‘Please don’t leave me’ texts. They only made me cry harder. I typed in Chloe’s number and hit dial.

“Hello?” It wasn’t Chloe, but I knew that voice anywhere.

“Hey Vic.” I say softly.

“Hi love. Get home safely?” He asks me.

“Yeah, I just crawled in bed. Where’s Chloe?” I reply.

“She’s sleeping. Between driving, worrying about you and being pissed off at Austin she didn’t get much sleep after we got here. So we set up with booth and she is catching some z’s before the gates open. How are you?” He tells me.

“I was fine until I found one of his shirts, then I broke down. To make it worse I read all 22 texts he sent me.” I say.

“Oh Autumn, why?” He questions. I can tell by his voice he’s frowning.

“I couldn’t help it. I am an emotional cutter. I can’t help but make myself feel worse. I don’t want to talk to him, but I want him here to hold me. I don’t get it Vic, why did he do it?” I choke out as I start to cry again.

“I can’t tell you honey. The only person that is going to be able to answer that question is Austin, and he may not even be able to. I am not going to tell you to call him, but eventually you’re either going to want answers and talk to him or you are going to not want anything to do with him. Only time will tell.” He explains to me. I nod my head even though he can’t see me.

“Thank you Vic. Tel Chloe to call me when she wakes up. I am going to try and get some sleep.” I tell him. We say goodbye and I put my phone down. As soon as I do it starts to light up. A picture of Austin and I at the hockey game pops up. I answer it but don’t say anything.

“Autumn? Are you there?” His voice sounds hollow and empty.

“What do you want Austin?” I whisper.

“I need to see you. Please meet me. I need to explain.” He pleads.

“There is nothing to talk about. And unless you are in California; it is impossible for me to meet you. Not that I even would after what you did. I went home.” I tell him my voice cracking again.

“Why? Autumn I need to see you.” Austin says. I know he’s got his fingers in his hair and he’s crying. I an tell by his voice. Not that he has any right to be the one crying.

“Goodbye Austin. Please stop calling me.” I say pulling the phone away from my ear as a sob rips through my body. I hear him yelling at me to stop. I hit the end call button and throw my phone against the wall, not caring if it broke.

Why did he get the right to be upset? I was the one he cheated on. Why did he get to call me and demand to see me? It made me so angry. If I ever wanted to talk to him he would have to wait until I was ready. And if that time ever came I would come to him. I curled into myself and cried harder. Eventually I fell asleep.

Notes

Sorry its been a couple days since I updated. I got sucked into a story and was so unmotivated to do anything but read lol.

Well her you go. there will be another one a little later today. And possibly more tonight if you guys are good and give me lots of feedback ;p

Love you all <33
Josie