Here's a Story, Just Bare With Me...
O.G. Loko
[Ellie’s POV]
“In the letter you said you didn’t want to know what the kisses meant to me at that time. Do you want to know now?”
I sighed, there was no way I was getting into this now. “Can we talk about this later? It’s kind of late and I’m tired from flying.” Nice one, Ellie. That was probably the worst thing you could have said.
“What’s wrong?” He asked as a frown appeared on his face, he sounded hurt and he was getting frustrated.
“I’m fine.” I felt bad for lying but I didn’t really have a choice. I mean how was I supposed to explain everything to him? It’s not like I can just say: ‘Well, I’m being stalked by my asshole of an abusive ex and if he finds me and sees me getting close to anyone he’ll kill them. That’s why I’m being a bitch to you, I love you and I don’t want you getting hurt’. No, that would make everything more stressful. Alan would make me tell him everything that he’s ever done to me and I really don’t want to talk about it right now, I’m too tired for this shit.
“Don’t bullshit me Ellie,” he snapped, “are you really stupid enough to think I’d believe that?”
I blinked a few times, trying to process his outburst, before I stood up and made my way to the room I was sleeping in, knowing that if I stayed and retaliated it would lead to a massive argument. I walked through the door, leaving it open to let him know I wasn’t mad, when I felt his hand lightly wrapping around my wrist before he hugged me into his chest and kissed the top of my head.
“I’m sorry,” he mumbled into my hair, “I didn’t mean it.”
“I know,” I whispered, “I’m not angry with you.”
“Please tell me what’s wrong,” he begged, “I hate seeing you like this.”
“I can’t.”
“Why?”
“I just can’t,” I sobbed, “I’m sorry.”
“Can you at least tell me why you’re pushing me away?” His voice was strained. I looked up
and saw he was crying. It hurt me to see him looking this broken, and it killed me to know I was causing his misery. I knew I was doing what would hurt him the least, but it didn’t mean I felt any less guilty.
“I really don’t want to talk about this now; can I just go to sleep please?”
He didn’t reply, he just ran his hand through his hair – something he always did when he was stressed – and began to leave. I walked over and stood in front of him, placing my hand on his chest.
“I didn’t say I wanted to sleep alone, Gingie. Stay, please?” I gave him my best puppy dog eyes in the hope that it would stop him from leaving me alone. I’m not sure whether it was my pouting or calling him ‘Gingie’, but he seemed to cheer up and responded by throwing me over his shoulder and running out of the room, laughing his head off.
“Alan, I’m going to kill you! Put me down!” I yelled, trying – and failing – to contain my laughter. He ran across the living room as I kept protesting, saying things like: “Dude your ass is in my face, pull me up a bit” or “your shoulder is so fucking uncomfortable”. I was only ignored, so I tried to get him to reply by asking him where we were going. It was a waste of time though, he only spoke when he ran into his room and I was thrown onto his bed.
“I prefer my bed,” he shrugged as I stood on my feet, “it’s comfier.” He shot me a playful smirk and grabbed my hips pulling my body to his so they were touching. He kissed my cheek softly and dragged his lips to that spot just by my ear, his hot breath on my neck. “And quieter” he growled in a husky voice that was sending me crazy.
“Well this looks intimate.”
Alan and I shot our heads up to see an amused Austin stood leaning against the doorframe smirking with his arms crossed over his chest.
“I heard lots of yelling so I thought I better check it out and make sure nobody is getting murdered or something like that. I didn’t see anyone in the rest of the house so I came here and now I realise it was just you two,” he winked, “You looked like you were having some fun there.”
[Alan’s POV]
“You seriously have the worst fucking timing ever,” I laughed, “And stop looking so proud of yourself.”
“If either of us needs to look proud of ourselves it’s you, Ashby.”
“You really couldn’t make this anymore awkward could you?” I regretted those words as soon as they left my mouth – of course he could make it more awkward and judging by his raised eyebrow that was exactly what he was going to do. He stood up straight and walked through the gap between me and Ellie – winking at Ellie and mouthing a ‘get in there’ to me – before lying on my bed and looking at the ceiling, arms stretched out and hands behind his head.
“So are you two a thing now then?”
“We’re just friends.” Ellie insisted. I know we weren’t an item, but hearing her say that so convincingly was just a blow to the head. I guess Austin saw my face fall because he was now sat up and the smirk was replaced with something more serious.
[Austin’s POV]
“Ellie, can I talk to Alan alone please?”
“Yeah, I think I heard my phone go off anyway so I’m going to go and check it.” Once she had left, I got up and closed the door before walking over to Alan.
“What the fuck is going on? That didn’t look like ‘just friends’ to me.”
“I don’t know,” he sighed as he ran his hand through his hair, “You know better than anyone how I feel about her. Every time we get close like that she remembers something and pushes me away. It’s really getting to her.”
“What is it?”
“I don’t know; she won’t tell me. Whenever I ask she always changes the subject.”
“I thought she tells you everything?”
“So did I, but she won’t tell me this which means that whatever it is it’s really stressing her out.”
"What are you going to do?"
"I don't know".
Ellie knocked on the door and asked if we were done. Alan said we were, and she walked in smiling but it didn’t reach her eyes. I looked at Alan and he could tell something was off too. I grabbed my phone and began to write:
From: Austin;
To: Ginger Princess;
Whatever it is bugging her I think it’s something to do with whoever just text her.
I stared intensely at him until he heard his phone go off. He read it and began typing, and not long after he had finished, my phone buzzed.
From: Ginger Princess;
To: Austin;
Same, would it be bad if I waited until she was asleep and then looked? I normally wouldn’t but I’m really worried about her.
From: Austin;
To: Ginger Princess;
Normally I would say you need to respect her privacy, but she looks really troubled. Just for your own sake make sure she doesn’t wake up and see you on her phone because you’ll blow your chance with her if you do.
He looked at me and nodded, letting me know he got the text. I let out an involuntarily yawn, so after I had said night to Ellie and Alan I went back to bed.
[Alan’s POV]
“Who was it that text you?” I asked, ensuring it sounded like I was curious rather than concerned.
“Nobody that’s important.”
“Okay," I said, not wanting to push the subject, "Do you want to sleep now? It is pretty late and we’re both tired from flights and touring and moving.”
She nodded and we got changed, before getting in my bed.
“Get the fuck over here now Miss Brown, you’re too far away. Gingie wants hugs.”
“Make me” she winked.
I said nothing, but went over and got on top of her, my hands resting on her waist, then grinned down at her.
“Don’t even think about it.”
“Too late” I yelled, before I started tickling her. She started laughing uncontrollably and tears were forming in her eyes.
“Alan…stop! Please!” she giggled.
“Never!”
“I can’t breathe, I’m gonna pee myself.”
“You know that doesn’t work on me, Ellie.”
She started wriggling underneath me, then I felt her legs kick mine out sideways, making them give way to my weight. I put my hands either side so I didn’t fall on her, and just looked at her; she was the image of perfection.
“You’re so fucking beautiful, Ellie.” I said, leaning in and placing my lips on hers. She pushed back against my chest.
“Alan I can’t.”
“Yes you can. You need to stop worrying about everything; don’t let your thoughts ruin this for you.”
“It’s not that easy.”
“It may not be easy but I know you can do it. Please just let yourself be happy for a while.”
She didn’t reply, so I kissed her again. She hesitated, but gave in and wrapped her arms around my neck. I grinned against her mouth and deepened the kiss, running my tongue along her lip. She removed her arms from my neck and pushed me back, breaking contact.
“Ellie-”
“Shut up.” She put me into a sitting position with my back against the headboard, before straddling me and reattaching our lips. My hands wondered up and down her body as our tongues fought for dominance, with mine eventually winning. I kissed along her jaw and down her neck, nibbling and sucking here and there leaving marks, and she let out the sexiest moan I’ve ever heard before pushing my head away to remove her shirt and grinding her hips onto my crotch making me dig my nails into her hips and groan in pleasure. My fingers danced up her back before settling on the fastening of her bra and removing it – my hands immediately moving to the front and playing with her breasts. I flipped us over so she was on her back and kissed her lightly, moving down her chest from her mouth and making sure to bite and suck a nipple on the way down. Her breath hitched in her throat as I slid her underwear off with my teeth and started rubbing her clit.
“Fuck, Alan stop teasing me” she moaned.
I chuckled lightly, before moving down and pushing her legs apart. I kissed up her thigh and licked around her entrance, causing her to buck her hips which pushed my tongue deeper into her wet core.
“Alan, I n-need you. Please.”
I went to my nightstand and pulled out the square foil packet, ripping it open and sliding the condom on in record time. I hovered above her and began kissing her neck before slamming into her without warning, making her scream my name. I lifted her legs onto my shoulders to go deeper and thrusted into her feeling her tight walls close around me, the sound of slapping skin and moans of pleasure filling the room. My thrusts became harder and faster, Ellie screaming beneath me when I hit her spot; her body jerking up and down. She bit her lip and I could tell she was close.
“Cum for me baby” I growled into her ear. She screamed my name as she climaxed sending me over the edge and making me release myself into the latex.
Once I’d disposed of the condom, I crawled back into bed and pulled Ellie to me, kissing her lightly on the lips.
“Ellie, can I tell you something?”
“Of course you can” she smiled up at me.
“And you have to believe me when I say that I’m not saying this because we just had
amazing sex” I grinned, grabbing her hand and intertwining our fingers.
“Okay, go on.”
“I’ve wanted to say this for so long, since we were 13.”
“Just tell me” she laughed, playfully hitting my chest.
“Hmm, I’m not sure if I should now I think about it.”
“Alan Anthony Ashby I swear to god if you do not tell me I will gouge your eyes out with a spoon and pour acid down your throat.”
I looked her in the eyes and kissed her softly.
"I love you."
“In the letter you said you didn’t want to know what the kisses meant to me at that time. Do you want to know now?”
I sighed, there was no way I was getting into this now. “Can we talk about this later? It’s kind of late and I’m tired from flying.” Nice one, Ellie. That was probably the worst thing you could have said.
“What’s wrong?” He asked as a frown appeared on his face, he sounded hurt and he was getting frustrated.
“I’m fine.” I felt bad for lying but I didn’t really have a choice. I mean how was I supposed to explain everything to him? It’s not like I can just say: ‘Well, I’m being stalked by my asshole of an abusive ex and if he finds me and sees me getting close to anyone he’ll kill them. That’s why I’m being a bitch to you, I love you and I don’t want you getting hurt’. No, that would make everything more stressful. Alan would make me tell him everything that he’s ever done to me and I really don’t want to talk about it right now, I’m too tired for this shit.
“Don’t bullshit me Ellie,” he snapped, “are you really stupid enough to think I’d believe that?”
I blinked a few times, trying to process his outburst, before I stood up and made my way to the room I was sleeping in, knowing that if I stayed and retaliated it would lead to a massive argument. I walked through the door, leaving it open to let him know I wasn’t mad, when I felt his hand lightly wrapping around my wrist before he hugged me into his chest and kissed the top of my head.
“I’m sorry,” he mumbled into my hair, “I didn’t mean it.”
“I know,” I whispered, “I’m not angry with you.”
“Please tell me what’s wrong,” he begged, “I hate seeing you like this.”
“I can’t.”
“Why?”
“I just can’t,” I sobbed, “I’m sorry.”
“Can you at least tell me why you’re pushing me away?” His voice was strained. I looked up
and saw he was crying. It hurt me to see him looking this broken, and it killed me to know I was causing his misery. I knew I was doing what would hurt him the least, but it didn’t mean I felt any less guilty.
“I really don’t want to talk about this now; can I just go to sleep please?”
He didn’t reply, he just ran his hand through his hair – something he always did when he was stressed – and began to leave. I walked over and stood in front of him, placing my hand on his chest.
“I didn’t say I wanted to sleep alone, Gingie. Stay, please?” I gave him my best puppy dog eyes in the hope that it would stop him from leaving me alone. I’m not sure whether it was my pouting or calling him ‘Gingie’, but he seemed to cheer up and responded by throwing me over his shoulder and running out of the room, laughing his head off.
“Alan, I’m going to kill you! Put me down!” I yelled, trying – and failing – to contain my laughter. He ran across the living room as I kept protesting, saying things like: “Dude your ass is in my face, pull me up a bit” or “your shoulder is so fucking uncomfortable”. I was only ignored, so I tried to get him to reply by asking him where we were going. It was a waste of time though, he only spoke when he ran into his room and I was thrown onto his bed.
“I prefer my bed,” he shrugged as I stood on my feet, “it’s comfier.” He shot me a playful smirk and grabbed my hips pulling my body to his so they were touching. He kissed my cheek softly and dragged his lips to that spot just by my ear, his hot breath on my neck. “And quieter” he growled in a husky voice that was sending me crazy.
“Well this looks intimate.”
Alan and I shot our heads up to see an amused Austin stood leaning against the doorframe smirking with his arms crossed over his chest.
“I heard lots of yelling so I thought I better check it out and make sure nobody is getting murdered or something like that. I didn’t see anyone in the rest of the house so I came here and now I realise it was just you two,” he winked, “You looked like you were having some fun there.”
[Alan’s POV]
“You seriously have the worst fucking timing ever,” I laughed, “And stop looking so proud of yourself.”
“If either of us needs to look proud of ourselves it’s you, Ashby.”
“You really couldn’t make this anymore awkward could you?” I regretted those words as soon as they left my mouth – of course he could make it more awkward and judging by his raised eyebrow that was exactly what he was going to do. He stood up straight and walked through the gap between me and Ellie – winking at Ellie and mouthing a ‘get in there’ to me – before lying on my bed and looking at the ceiling, arms stretched out and hands behind his head.
“So are you two a thing now then?”
“We’re just friends.” Ellie insisted. I know we weren’t an item, but hearing her say that so convincingly was just a blow to the head. I guess Austin saw my face fall because he was now sat up and the smirk was replaced with something more serious.
[Austin’s POV]
“Ellie, can I talk to Alan alone please?”
“Yeah, I think I heard my phone go off anyway so I’m going to go and check it.” Once she had left, I got up and closed the door before walking over to Alan.
“What the fuck is going on? That didn’t look like ‘just friends’ to me.”
“I don’t know,” he sighed as he ran his hand through his hair, “You know better than anyone how I feel about her. Every time we get close like that she remembers something and pushes me away. It’s really getting to her.”
“What is it?”
“I don’t know; she won’t tell me. Whenever I ask she always changes the subject.”
“I thought she tells you everything?”
“So did I, but she won’t tell me this which means that whatever it is it’s really stressing her out.”
"What are you going to do?"
"I don't know".
Ellie knocked on the door and asked if we were done. Alan said we were, and she walked in smiling but it didn’t reach her eyes. I looked at Alan and he could tell something was off too. I grabbed my phone and began to write:
From: Austin;
To: Ginger Princess;
Whatever it is bugging her I think it’s something to do with whoever just text her.
I stared intensely at him until he heard his phone go off. He read it and began typing, and not long after he had finished, my phone buzzed.
From: Ginger Princess;
To: Austin;
Same, would it be bad if I waited until she was asleep and then looked? I normally wouldn’t but I’m really worried about her.
From: Austin;
To: Ginger Princess;
Normally I would say you need to respect her privacy, but she looks really troubled. Just for your own sake make sure she doesn’t wake up and see you on her phone because you’ll blow your chance with her if you do.
He looked at me and nodded, letting me know he got the text. I let out an involuntarily yawn, so after I had said night to Ellie and Alan I went back to bed.
[Alan’s POV]
“Who was it that text you?” I asked, ensuring it sounded like I was curious rather than concerned.
“Nobody that’s important.”
“Okay," I said, not wanting to push the subject, "Do you want to sleep now? It is pretty late and we’re both tired from flights and touring and moving.”
She nodded and we got changed, before getting in my bed.
“Get the fuck over here now Miss Brown, you’re too far away. Gingie wants hugs.”
“Make me” she winked.
I said nothing, but went over and got on top of her, my hands resting on her waist, then grinned down at her.
“Don’t even think about it.”
“Too late” I yelled, before I started tickling her. She started laughing uncontrollably and tears were forming in her eyes.
“Alan…stop! Please!” she giggled.
“Never!”
“I can’t breathe, I’m gonna pee myself.”
“You know that doesn’t work on me, Ellie.”
She started wriggling underneath me, then I felt her legs kick mine out sideways, making them give way to my weight. I put my hands either side so I didn’t fall on her, and just looked at her; she was the image of perfection.
“You’re so fucking beautiful, Ellie.” I said, leaning in and placing my lips on hers. She pushed back against my chest.
“Alan I can’t.”
“Yes you can. You need to stop worrying about everything; don’t let your thoughts ruin this for you.”
“It’s not that easy.”
“It may not be easy but I know you can do it. Please just let yourself be happy for a while.”
She didn’t reply, so I kissed her again. She hesitated, but gave in and wrapped her arms around my neck. I grinned against her mouth and deepened the kiss, running my tongue along her lip. She removed her arms from my neck and pushed me back, breaking contact.
“Ellie-”
“Shut up.” She put me into a sitting position with my back against the headboard, before straddling me and reattaching our lips. My hands wondered up and down her body as our tongues fought for dominance, with mine eventually winning. I kissed along her jaw and down her neck, nibbling and sucking here and there leaving marks, and she let out the sexiest moan I’ve ever heard before pushing my head away to remove her shirt and grinding her hips onto my crotch making me dig my nails into her hips and groan in pleasure. My fingers danced up her back before settling on the fastening of her bra and removing it – my hands immediately moving to the front and playing with her breasts. I flipped us over so she was on her back and kissed her lightly, moving down her chest from her mouth and making sure to bite and suck a nipple on the way down. Her breath hitched in her throat as I slid her underwear off with my teeth and started rubbing her clit.
“Fuck, Alan stop teasing me” she moaned.
I chuckled lightly, before moving down and pushing her legs apart. I kissed up her thigh and licked around her entrance, causing her to buck her hips which pushed my tongue deeper into her wet core.
“Alan, I n-need you. Please.”
I went to my nightstand and pulled out the square foil packet, ripping it open and sliding the condom on in record time. I hovered above her and began kissing her neck before slamming into her without warning, making her scream my name. I lifted her legs onto my shoulders to go deeper and thrusted into her feeling her tight walls close around me, the sound of slapping skin and moans of pleasure filling the room. My thrusts became harder and faster, Ellie screaming beneath me when I hit her spot; her body jerking up and down. She bit her lip and I could tell she was close.
“Cum for me baby” I growled into her ear. She screamed my name as she climaxed sending me over the edge and making me release myself into the latex.
Once I’d disposed of the condom, I crawled back into bed and pulled Ellie to me, kissing her lightly on the lips.
“Ellie, can I tell you something?”
“Of course you can” she smiled up at me.
“And you have to believe me when I say that I’m not saying this because we just had
amazing sex” I grinned, grabbing her hand and intertwining our fingers.
“Okay, go on.”
“I’ve wanted to say this for so long, since we were 13.”
“Just tell me” she laughed, playfully hitting my chest.
“Hmm, I’m not sure if I should now I think about it.”
“Alan Anthony Ashby I swear to god if you do not tell me I will gouge your eyes out with a spoon and pour acid down your throat.”
I looked her in the eyes and kissed her softly.
"I love you."
Notes
So I updated again to say sorry for being crappy :3
Drama :o
*Abusive ex
*Argument
*Interrupted by an awkward Austin
*What are the texts about?
I APOLOGISE FOR THE SMUT I HAVEN'T WRITTEN IT BEFORE AND IT IS HARDER THAN IT LOOKS (pun not intended).
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P.S I will love you eternally if you understand why I put this as the title ;)
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I love this please update soon :D
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