100 Sleepless Nights

I woke up feeling odd, not because of the sex but because of the fact I woke up alone. Isn’t he meant to be here... I mean that only happens when it’s a one night stand and the dude wants to bail on you. I hope that isn’t the case though, I can’t really avoid him at all. Whatever the case I need to get up.

As I sat up there was a pain in my stomach. I clutched at it and groaned. “What the fuck?” I asked myself. The pain dulled down and I wrapped the sheets around myself more. The window in my room was open, the breeze flowed in and made me shiver.

As people would put it I am now offically a women. It doesn’t feel any better than before but it feels... right. I almost lost my virginity to Kellin, and I am so fucking happy I didn’t. Does it make me a freak that I had sex with a dead guy?

I heard a banging come from downstairs so I picked up my hoody and pulled it over my head. I looked around my room and found a pair of shorts and pulled them on too. The house felt so eerie tonight. And as far as I know my parents are still not home. I really wish they would just stay in more.

I climbed down the stairs and looked around. The house was in darkness. “Harleigh” I heard a whisper. I looked around.

“Hello?” I asked, not sure of who or what was calling on me. Who knows in this house.
All I could hear was some heavy breathing, nothing more. “Hi” I heard from behind me. I turned around and was greeted by a young girl.
“Hi?” I asked.

“Don’t trust him” She looked distraught. I frowned at her, she looked so scared.

“What are you on about?” I was confused. Maybe she knew what Vic done and is trying to warn me.

She looked down at my stomach and grinned. “Too late” And she disappeared.
I looked around and got scared, so I ran up the stairs to my room and closed the door.

Running to my bed and tangling myself in my sheets, I just wanted to be away from here. I began crying, and crying. Everything was going wrong and I feel more alone than ever.

I just lost my virginity to someone that I’m pretty sure I love but he isn’t here... he just isn’t here for me and I need him. It sickens me to my stomach that I haven’t even given this a second thought. How stupid am I?

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I walked through the halls of school, everyone thinks I’m a total freak now because of my outburst in History. I don’t blame them, I know I’m a total freak. I can’t even pretend it isn’t true anymore. I just want to be normal but life has other plans huh.

I wasn’t looking where I was going and bumped into someone. “Oh shit sorry” I mumbled and continued to walk away.

“Hey, wait up” I heard a female voice call after me. I turned to see who it was. She had long blonde hair and dark make-up.

“Yeah?” I asked, confused as to why she wanted to speak to me.

“You’re Harleigh right? I’m Taylor” I studied the girl infront of me. She looked like she was into heavy rock n roll, which is good because I like that kinda stuff too but there was just something about this girl. She seemed so confident and hot, okay she was fucking hot. She has more sex appeal than I’ve ever seen in a teenage girl. I don’t know if it’s just the fact I’m so confused about everything, but I definitely wanted to hang out with this girl. Just to be around her because she seems so... fun.

“Yeah, hi” I smiled. She tilted her head to the side.

“People say you’re crazy” She laughed.

“Yeah I’m beginning to think they’re right” I shrugged.

“Well it’s a good thing I like crazy then huh. Wanna ditch class and go get high?” She asked as if it was the most casual thing ever. I’ve honestly never gotten high before but the idea of
it kinda enticed me. Why not?

“Where to?” I asked. She grinned happily, knowing she had won.

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