Strength in Numbers

I'm no one, and that's exactly how I want it. Here, in the crowd, in the mosh pit, where no one knows my name.

No one knows me.

God I wish I could stay here forever.

"Thank you guys!" No! "We love you all! Thank you for a great show!" Austin screamed.

The crowd roared. As the guys of Of Mice and Men bowed. I tried my best to just look at Austin, but my gaze crossed with Alan's. I could see the disgust in his eyes when they met mine. My stomach rolled as I felt sweat drip slowly down my back. I need to get out of here. I forced myself to look at Austin as he beamed at me.

"Meet me backstage after the show. We'll grab a beer and I'll talk to the guys tonight, ok? Don't freak out Silver," my thoughts echoed Austin's words from earlier.

As the crowd dispersed I made my way to the backstage area where the guys where congratulating each other on another great show. Rick, the guard smiled at me as I passed. I tried to return the friendly gesture, but it just reminded me of the reason Alan and most of the other band's members were disgusted with me.

"Sil!" Austin cheered when he saw me. He ran over to scoop me up in a bone-crushing, sweaty hug.

"Ew, Aust! You're dripping with sweat!" I laughed.

He just beamed as he set me down. "I'm just gonna grab a quick shower on the bus and we can go."

I nodded. "Meet you at your bus in twenty?"

"Then we drink!" he cheered running off.

I laughed. It was so easy with Austin. He didn't judge me, he didn't try to get in my pants, he was just my best friend.

"Slut," Alan coughed as he pushed past me.

I looked down and bit my lip, trying my damnedest to not cry. Any illusion of happiness I'd just had from that moment with Austin was gone as if it had never been there. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Tino, Phil, and Aaron quickly collect there things and go, without a glance in my direction. I sighed and turned to walk to the Of Mice tour bus.

"Are you ready to drink til you pass out, Sil? Cause I am so fucking ready!" Austin screamed running out of the bus. I tried for a smile, but it didn't come. He sighed. "Aw Silver, what happened?" He insisted again when I shook my head.

"Nothing, someone just said something." I shrugged.

"It was Alan wasn't it?" I bit my lip. "FUCK!" Austin shouted. He scooped me up in another crazy hug. "Don't listen to him, Sil, he's a dick."

I nodded into his Slipknot shirt. "It's fine. C'mon, you wanted to get drunk?"

"FUCK YEAH!" he screamed deafening me.

I laughed. He made it so easy. I almost believed him...but Alan's coughed "slut" echoed in my mind.

Notes

Ok, it's kinda starting out slow, but it'll pick up! Sorry! Enjoy it anyway! :)