A Sequel to an Alan Ashby Fanfiction

Alan was sitting on the lounge, on his phone.
“Hey!” I smiled.
“Oh hey!” Alan said frantically as he practically failed about on the couch. Yeah, totally acting normal dickhead I thought sarcastically to myself.
“Why are you the only one here?” I asked curiously.
“I was a bit tired, I’ve been here for a few minutes.” Liar, “When did you get back?” He asked frantically.
“Oh I got back few minutes ago…” I lied as I smiled at him, “I’m going to have a cigarette” I stated, I wasn’t as bad with smoking as I was before this tour. After I was nearly raped by Jared I was a pack a day smoker and a 3 bottles a night drinker. Now I hardly drank and I only smoked when I was extremely upset or stressed.
“Oh! I’ll join you.” Alan jumped up from the couch, grabbed mine and his packets before heading out the door.
Alan appeared a lot calmer as we walked outside, I guess he thought that I didn’t know what he had just did.
“So… can we talk now?” Alan asked me.
OH FUCK OFF. LIKE SERIOUSLY? YOU FUCK SOME BITCH AND STILL WANT TO TALK TO ME ABOUT THE OTHER NIGHT WHEN WE…? My inner voice screamed at him.
I took a long drag of my cigarette, breathed it in and exhaled.
“Sure.” I shrugged. Alan seemed thrown off by the coldness in my voice and he fidgeted.
“Is everything okay… between us, I mean…” He stared at me.
I smiled back at Alan;
“Never better.” I lit up another cigarette as soon as I finished my first one.
“Going a bit fast there?” Alan chuckled as I was already half way through my second cigarette.
“Oh but I need it.” I exhaled.
“And why’s that?” Alan implored.
“Just this guy that I used to know, I guess. We had been talking for a few months after the tour last year and we had gotten really close and we… did stuff. But I found out a few hours ago that a week or two ago he had sex with another girl and he was just leading me on.”
Alan looked terrified, so he fucking well should!
“I just thought he cared about me and he helped break down my wall with what happened with Jared and as soon as he broke that wall down he gave me another reason to put it back up ten times stronger.” I butted out my cigarette and continued talking/lying;
“That’s why I was at the Bring Me The Horizon bus tonight, I just needed to talk to someone and I didn’t want to annoy any of you guys.” I explained. Alan pulled me into an embrace and I forced myself to wrap my arms around him. To be honest, being this close to Alan made me feel sick.
“That guy is a jerk and he doesn’t deserve you.” Alan whispered into my ear and kissed the top of my head.
Oh Alan, if only you knew how much of a jerk ‘this guy’ was…

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