Austin POV

And after a day of knowing Alan, there I was, laying on his bed with him in my arms and his ginger hair all up in my face. But I didn't mind, not at all. Like I said, if something was really worth it, I would eventually do it. And right know this was worth it, it felt good. The tension between us was very high, there was a huge amount of chemistry as we were staring into eachother's eyes. Shit, I know this really sounds like a cheesy romantic movie, but all I can say is, it was intense.
I thought he was going to kiss me and I was ready to give in, but I got the urge to feel him close to me, so I pulled him into a hug, making his face get buried into my neck area. His lips slowly touched the skin on my neck, where he pressed a gentle kiss. I shivered but didn't say anything, I just hugged him tighter. I never wanted to let go of him.

''I have a confession to make.'' I said, gently stroking his ginger hair.
''Okay, I'm listening.'' He replied and looked up at me. A second later his big green eyes met mine and he was patiently waiting.

''I don't really know how to put this… It's weird, this feeling… This never happened to me before, so I don't have a clue what it is…'' I was hesitating, but then I convinced myself I should be honest from the beginning. So I just said it.

''I've had this weird feeling in my stomach ever since I've met you this morning…'' Then I just stopped talking, I was spechless.
He sat up, so did I. He was looking at me, then he looked to the side and buried his face into his palms. He looked back at me again.

''Look Austin… I haven't been completely honest with you.'' He said.
It freaked me out, because I like him. I was just hoping he won't blow me off or something.
''I have to tell you something. Just know, I haven't told anyone at school about this and you must promise me you won't either, okay?'' He said.

''I promise Alan, I will never tell. Shoot.'' I said, feeling how my palms were already sweaty and cold.

''The reason I don't get along with the girls is… well… I'm not into them like that. I like guys.'' He said and looked down.

The best word to describe how I felt at that moment would probably be… hmm, surprised.
''You do?'' I said.


''Yeah… I was just really afraid to say anything, because we get along so well and you're the only one at school I actually hang out with. So losing a friend is not an option for me right now.'' He said.

''So that's all I'm good for, huh?'' I joked and pinched his cheek.
''Oh come on, you know that's not what I meant. I like you, so yeah…'' He blushed and it was so adorable.

''Oh, and the thing you were saying before I cut you off…'' He continued. ''It's probably something else, because someone like me would never be good enough for you…''
I couldn't believe that was coming out of his mouth. If only he'd known how much I like him and love being around him. It was an instant click.

''Why would you say that? I don't think I've ever clicked with someone, ever. But I did with you.'' I said and pulled him into a hug. His ginger hair was all up in my face again but I loved it.

''Do you really like me?'' He asked, I could sense some insecurity in his voice.

''Yes, Mr. Ashby, I do. Even though it feels weird because I've never liked a guy before, I don't care. I love being around you and fuck it, what happens, happens.'' I said.

''That's really sweet and yes, spending time with you is awesome. You're so understanding and nice, I feel like I can talk to you about anything.'' He said, wrapping his arms around me a bit tighter.

After my mother died I started looking at things in life differently. I decided I would live for today. You never know what tomorrow brings or what could happen. So if I like Alan, why wouldn't I give it a try if I can and if it makes me happy? I don't ever wanna regret anything anymore for not doing it, I'd rather learn from my mistakes. I know I will eventually make some, everyone does.
Alan was so sweet, like a little ginger princess. Haha, the nickname suited him perfectly, well the ginger part at least. The princess part was to tease him.

''Hey Alan, I wanna ask you something.'' I said with my serious voice. I could see it in his eyes that he got a little scared.

''Yeah?'' He said. We were again sitting up, facing eachother.

I kept my straight face on and then said:''Can I call you ginger princess?'' I burst out laughing and he just punched my shoulder and buried his face into my shirt.

''Hahaha, I'm so sorry, you should've seen the look on your face. Got you there.'' The he started laughing too and we just couldn't stop. It was hilarious.

''So, I'll take that as a yes…'' I said and tickled him.
''Sure, whatever, just keep a low profile at school, I don't want everyone calling me that.'' He said, still laughing.

''Sure thing princess.'' I said and winked at him. He grinned and pulled out his tongue, making a goofy face.

And all I wanted to do was kiss him.

Notes

And here it is, chapter 7 of my Cashby :)
I actually hand-wrote this last night when we had no power because of the blizzard.

Hope you like it, title credit goes to Mayday Parade :)

Enjoy, let me know what you think, comments are very very welcome :)

Much luv!

- D