the way I feel about you

I got back to the hotel,thank goodness that Oli wasout doing an interview. I didn't want him seeing me crying over something I especially didn't want him to know about. Once I got to the hotel room I broke down. I was on the ground crying,how can he say he loves me. He never shown it. He thinks I am a slut because the day I met Oli he thought I would sleep with him. After crying for an hour I finally stopped stood up and walked to the shower. I know I promised him and I just can't. I took out my blade and stared at it.


I got out of the shower and now my thighs and stomach was coverd in red lines. I felt bad about this,ever since I have been with Oli he has kept me clean. I carefully pulled my shirt over my head and my pants up. I dried my purple hair and added some make up. Today i wanted to go out and have fun of course with Oli. I just wanted to clear my mind of Austin and for good. I haven't talked to Alan in a while and I am still mad at him but still he is my brother. I heard the door close shut and a pair of tattooed arms wrapped around my waist. "How's my beautiful girlfriend" Oli whispered in mt hair. I could feel his hot breathe on my neck. He placed a kiss on it and I closed my eyes. Shaking my head getting out of mt trans I stood up. "Not tonight,I want to go out and have fun. Can we go to a dance club" I asked him. He pouted at first "why can't we just stay here and play" he said. I laughed and shook my head,he finally gave in.


We advised the others about going. Me and Oli got in a separate cab. We slid in with Oli behind me. We were going to a dance club Jordan had told us about. The ride was alittle long. I got a text and I pulled my phone out. Austin. I ignored tge message and turned my phone off. Oli put his hand on my thigh and slowly moved it. I can feel the material rubbing against my cuts. I closed my eyes to ignore the pain. We made it to the club and I got out. The guys had already made it and were just waiting for us. Matt N came over to me and embracing me in a tight hug. Before leaving I had texted Jasmine and Grace to meet me here. I spotted them chatting amongst themselves. I walked right up to them "hey girls" I said. They smiled at me and hugged me bith taking turns. "Hows it going we haven't heard from you for a week" Grace said. I smiled and looked over at Oli. "Yea well I was busy" I said. They looked at Oli then me"right" Grace said. "Let's order some drinks don't you think"


I had some drinks and I felt them starting to kick in. I had five shots of patron ten beers and a bloody Mary. I was on the dance floor grinding on Grace and she to grinding on me. She got a hold of my hips and pulled me near her private area. I grinded my butt on it moving with the music. I glanced over at Oli who seemed to be enjoying what he was seeing. I turned and grinded on Grace some more. He soon came to me and pulled away. "Love I think you should stop that" he said. I looked up at him and smiled "no I'm good"I said. Pulling Grace back to him. This time it was more sexual like. Oli just smirked and walked back to his seat. I saw Matt N looking at our direction to. Him and Oli enjoyed what they saw. I think I had alittle way to much drinks along with Grace.


As a matter of fact I did have to much drinks. Me Oli and Grace hald a cab. Matt N took Jasmine with him. The drinks have really kicked in my now because me and Grace were making out infront of Oli. "Um love you are making things worse" he said. I pulled back and looked at him smirking. "Why is that" I asked. He didn't say anything I looked back at Grace who pulled me back into a kiss. I pulled back again and pulled Oli into a kiss also. He wrapped his arms around me and deepen the kiss. It began getting really hot in here. Grace kissed me down my neck and Oli kissed me.


We made it back to the hotel but I brought Grace with me. When Oli opened the door I attached mine and Grace's lips together. I pushed her so that her back would hit the wall. I grinded my hips on her. Oli just sat watching us doing what I think we are about to do. I pulled her dress off and she pulled my shirt off. We made it to the couch and she laid on top of me. I moaned as she traced her fingers down my arms. Going back to reality I stopped and propped myself up on my elbows. She to noticed what she was doing and pulled her dress on. "I'm so sorry" she said. I shook my head "we were drunk and I let myself" I said. "I'm sorry but I have to go" she saidm I nodded and gave her a hug. I closed the door and turned to Oli. He just stared at me "what" I said.

Notes

You guys I might end the story soon sorry if you really liked it but I promise there will be a sequel ok,and about this part I am sorry weird I know but yea