I just got mad at Austin and I'm off my face right now. Someone brought up about him 'raping' me. He started apologising again. And again. And a g a i n. I told him to stop because really I jut want to going forget about hillier and him apologising about it over and over isn't helping at all.

Not just that, why are people getting like.. Involved? Last I checked that night was between me as Austin. Nobody else. I don't give a fuck what anyone thinks. I know he didn't mean for it to happen and I'm trying to get over it. People bringing US into topic is fucking irrelevant. Especially when it's something that's actually quite personal. REASON NUMBER 72783 ON WHY PEOPLE ARE FUCKING STUPID.

I also trashed the room. I don't think I'd have gotten so angry just.. I've been holding my anger in recently to try and be a better person for Austin. But I guess I just.. I couldn't hold it in this time.

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Austin just came over and guess what he brought for us?!?!
C H I C K E N
it's like he knew chicken was my favourite thing ever.
I asked him why he brought the chicken, but it came out sharp and rude when I asked him because he quietened down and lowered his head. Which made me feel awful but, at this point I was on my comedown and was just getting to the point of not ring so angry anymore. I apologised and then he said he wasn't even hungry. So we both just had a few bites of the chicken then set it down and didnt eat it.
What a waste of a poor chickens life. :(((((

I also won something for Austin on a claw machine. (Apparently when I'm high I like to go to the amusement place????) but anyway it was like... And octopus? And it was punk and had four tentacles. He really loved it and named it Squidgy. Then he asked to cuddle and we did - with Squidgy in between us and I think we just fell asleep after that.

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