Another Messy Ending

I woke up to Ben spooning me. It took me a while to realize where I was. Thankfully it was dark enough in the room to spare my hangover headache. I started giggling because Ben was kissing the back of my neck and running is finger tips all over my body.

“Morning,” He said with a tired sounding voice.

“Good morning,” I replied with a huge grin on my face. “You woke me up! What are you doing?”

I could hear him laughing now, “I have something for you.”

“Really? What would that be?” I said turning over so I was facing him.

Ben smirked, “Come here and I’ll show you.” He rolled onto his back and pulled me on top of him.

“Oh, so it’s that kind of gift?” I smiled, resting my hands on his shoulders. “Thank you! I love it!” I joked over excitedly.

He kissed the top of my head before he licked the tips of his fingers. He gave a mischievous grin and then he rubbed his fingers over my pussy. I smiled and bit my lip, my head dropping onto his chest. Ben put one hand on my ass and pushed himself inside me. I didn’t mean to gasp, but I did.

“Ben,” I moaned out as he started thrusting. I pressed my lips against his collarbone in an attempt to mute out my squealing. It wasn’t really working, so I just figured to hell with trying to be quiet and pushed myself up so I was sitting up on his cock. I definitely wasn’t prepared for the tingles that ran through my legs and chest. “Oh, fuck! Yes!”

“Come here,” Ben yanked my hair and pulled my face closer to his. He dug his fingers into my waist with his other hand. Our eyes locked as he started fucking me harder. My mouth hung open as he got a tighter grip on my hair. The way he stared into my eyes like he was challenging me was so unbelievably hot.

My entire body started shaking. I could barely talk so I whispered, “Oh God, I’m gonna cum.”

“Fucking do it then,” he growled. He took his hand off of my hip and put it around my throat, pulling me down by my neck for a kiss.

“Shit!” Ben continued to look into my eyes as I felt my body tense up. “Fuck, Ben!” I couldn’t support myself anymore. He literally had to hold me up by my hair and my throat until I finished cumming.

When I could finally compose myself, I crawled down the bed slowly and made my way between Ben’s legs. I looked into his eyes just like he looked into mine as I swirled my tongue around the tip of his cock. His chest began rising and falling faster and faster. I pressed my lips against the head and smiled. Then I put the tip in my mouth and started stroking his dick slowly.

Ben’s head fell back on the pillow, “Goddammit, Jenna!”

I giggled and moved my hand faster. He put his hands on either side of my head, clutching handfuls of my hair. I moaned as I sucked harder on his cock.

“I’m fucking cumming,” Ben said looking in my eyes again.

“Fucking do it then,” I said, teasing him. I stuck my tongue out, licking the head of his dick. Stroking as fast as I possibly could, I used my other hand to rub his balls. It was pretty cute when his head fell back on his pillow again. It make me smile to myself a little, but I made sure to keep my mouth open. It’s a good thing I did because he came soon after. All of Ben’s cum shot straight onto my tongue. I curled it to keep all the cum in my mouth and then tilted my head back to swallow. I stuck my tongue out again, smiling from ear to ear.

I slid back over to the pillows and laid down next to Ben. Both of us were quiet for a while. I was still recovering from my orgasm, so I know he must have been too. Secretly, I pride myself in my blowjob skills.

Suddenly, he just blurted out, “I’m so hungry.”

He laughed a little which made me laugh, “Well, I can make breakfast.” Ben gave me an uncertain look and I immediately caught on. “I’m not trying to be your wife or anything, okay? I’m hungry too.”

“Oh,” he said, sounding pretty relieved. “Yeah then, that’d be nice.”

I giggled a little, “Alright, I just have to shower really quickly first. Do you have anything I can wear to get down the hall?”

“Um, yeah, sure,” He searched around on the floor, clearly not trying to remove himself from the bed. “Here,” he tossed me his Led Zeppelin shirt.

As I pulled it over my head and it immediately became apparent that it was way too big. The holes he cut to make it a tank probably worked well for showing off his tattoos, however it didn’t work so well in the area of covering my boobs. I adjusted the shirt so it concealed as much as it could and walked to the bathroom as quietly as possible.

After I got out of the shower, I looked in what would be the linen closet only to find… zero linens. Not a towel in sight. I remembered that they just moved in and sighed as I put the oversized tank back on. Tip toeing my way back to Ben’s room, I saw that he had fallen back to sleep. I didn’t want to go through his things, but I needed a bigger shirt than this to cook in. There was a small pile of shirts on his side of the bed and a few pairs of what seemed to be clean boxers. I put on a grey t shirt and a pair of boxer shorts and headed back out to fix breakfast.

Funnily enough, the boys’ kitchen was fully stocked. They had no towels, but they certainly had a full refrigerator and cooking supplies, go figure. I pulled out eggs, bacon, and bread for toast. As I started cracking eggs over a bowl I got that strange feeling you get when it seems like someone else is in the room.

“Didn’t I see you yesterday morning?” A voice asked, inches from behind me.

“Oh my God!” I sputtered out. The sudden sound made me jump and drop the egg I was holding.

“Shit, sorry! I didn’t mean to frighten you.” It was James… again. I grabbed the paper towels to clean up the mess, but he took them from me. “I’ll get it. So, you’re making breakfast now?”

“Yeah, me and Ben were hungry so I offered to make something to eat.”

James cleaned the egg off the floor and threw the gross paper towels in the trash. “What, do you live with us?”

I shook my head fervently, probably more than necessary. “No, I just happened to wake up here twice in a row.” I joked. “Are you hungry?” I asked him, getting back to cracking eggs.

“Are you offering to make me food? Because if so then yes, I’m starving.” He said laughing.

“I kinda want to make everyone something. Do you think everyone will want food?” I’ve really missed cooking for people. I used to cook all the time, but it becomes less fun when you live on your own.

“Listen,” James said, “Nobody in this house is gonna be mad that you made them food. I can fucking guarantee you that.”

I smiled “Okay, I’ll find some more stuff to make.”

After I finished scrambling eggs and started cooking sausages and chopping potatoes, Sam and Cameron came out of their rooms.

“What’s going on in here?” Sam asked with an extremely tired and confused look on his face.

I did a little wave with the spatula in my hand, “Hi, I’m Jenna.”

“She’s making breakfast for us,” James told them.

Cameron looked particularly pleased. “Shit, really? Thank you. Nice one, James.”

“Oh, she’s not with me. She’s with Ben.” He looked at me, “Ben, right? Or Danny?”

I put the last of the sausages on the plate. “Ben, yeah.”

Sam chimed in, “Where is he, anyway?”

“He fell asleep while I was taking a shower.”

Cameron started laughing, “Did he really tell you to make him food and then fall asleep? What a dick head!”

“I’m gonna go get him up,” James said walking down the hall. “BEN!” We could hear him screaming from the kitchen. “BEN, WAKE THE FUCK UP! JENNA’S MADE BREAKFAST!”

“FUCK OFF!” Ben yelled back.

I laughed while I pushed the potatoes around in the pan. Cameron and Sam started asking me questions like how I met Ben and when I told them I work at Neumos they started asking if I had met any of the bands that they were friends with. They were being really sweet to me, possibly because I was handling their food, but it was nice. I’m so used to being by myself these days, but I much prefer being surrounded by people. Eventually, I finished cooking the potatoes and James still hadn’t come back with Ben, so I decided to make sure they didn’t kill each other. When I walked into the room, Ben was still in bed, but now had shorts on and James was leaning against the bedpost.

“He thinks you’re hot!” Ben said immediately as I walked into the room. He sounded like a little kid telling on his brother. James yanked the pillow from beneath Ben’s head and threw it at him.

I giggled and said matter of factly, “That’s alright, I think he’s hot too.” James turned his head slowly and gave Ben a smug look. Ben just rolled his eyes. “Breakfast is ready.”

“Yes!” Ben said gratefully. He finally rolled his way out of bed. “Thanks for cooking for us.” He pecked my cheek as he walked past me. James snuck a cheeky kiss in too on his way past. I simply shook my head and kept walking.

“Where’s Danny?” Ben asked right before shouting, “Danny! Danny, wake the fuck up!”

Danny appeared in the doorway in his boxers, “Hey Ben, how about you suck on my balls.” After a moment, he realized I was there. “Who are you?”

“Jenna.” Everyone answered. I blushed from embarrassment.

“Oh, you were here before, right?… Well not here, but you know...”

“Yeah, she made breakfast.” Ben said putting an arm around my shoulder. He pulled me against him and kissed the top of my head.

My cheeks got even redder, “I made breakfast.” I repeated to Danny. “You guys should start eating! The food is gonna get cold!” The guys got plates out of the cabinets and started piling food on.

“So, do you live with us or something?” Danny asked as he put a few sausages on his plate. They've all asked me that. Do they normally house the randoms that they have sex with or something? “You’re around all the time.”

I leaned against the refrigerator, “No, I’m not living with you. I’m just… around.”

“We’ve been fucking a lot,” Ben informed him quite bluntly. I laughed nervously and ran my fingers through my wet hair, trying to remain casual.

“Oh, you must be good if you’ve been here two days in a row,” Danny said. He turned and looked at me “Can I have a go?”

My jaw dropped and my nervous laughter continued. “I’ll think about it,” I answered sarcastically. The rest of the guys laughed.

“That’s all I ask,” Danny smiled.

Everyone sat down either at the dining room table or the couch with their plates. I fixed my own plate last and went to sit next to Ben, but he pulled me on his lap instead. I smiled and set my plate on the table, next to his.

“You should give me your number so we can hang out again.” Ben said slipping his arms around my waist.

“’Hang out’?” I giggled. “I thought we were fucking.”

He laughed, “Well that too of course. The fucking part was implied. I was just trying to be nice.”

“So, are we gonna be like a ‘friends with benefits’ thing?” I asked. “Cause I think I'd really like that.” I turned a little so I could look at him. I also did it so I could grind my ass on him, but that's beside the point.

“Is that the same as ‘I’ll give you a call so we can fuck’? Or… no?” Ben asked with a cheeky grin.

I looked at him with a smirk, “It's essentially that.”

“Well then, my friend with benefits, you’ll be getting a call from me really soon.”

I am fully aware that I have completely abandoned all of my morals at this point. But I think what I was feeling at that time in my life is sort of hard to understand for anyone that hasn’t been in the same situation.

I left my home and family when I was sixteen. That’s a story for another time, but the point is that I hated living with my family and I even hated myself. I had to leave that place so after I saved enough money, I did and I was alone for a long time. When I was eighteen, I met Zane and he meant everything to me. I sacrificed so much for him. I basically lived my life for him. The few months when we lived together were the happiest I’d been since I was a little girl. Having him resent me now and hating even talking to me was beyond devastating… I didn’t want to be miserable like I was before. I’m not one of those people who can just be alone, although I desperately wish I was, I’m not. I just wanted to be happy again. That’s honestly all I wanted.

Sometimes when you’re so helplessly depressed, you grasp at any chance of happiness. No matter how self-destructive or corrupt that path may be, you grasp for it. So there I was, reaching for my best chance of happiness.

Notes

I literally wrote this early in the morning after hours of sleep deprivation....
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I'm excited about writing the next chapter because I love writing Kieran!
(Spoiler Alert: Kieran is in the next chapter :p)
So I'm pretty sure it'll be up soon <3
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