My alarm clock sounded waking me from my not so peaceful sleep. I hit the snooze button and groggily slipped out of bed. It's time to go back to hell.

It was the first day of school. The first day of junior year. I have two years left.....two fucking years.

Two fucking years of torture left. Two fucking years of endless bullying....endless beatings. I don't know if I can handle the pain for that long.

I walked downstairs and grabbed an apple "Bye Mama!"

"Bye chica!" She yelled after me "Have a great day!"

I sighed at that. Knowing that I would have the exact opposite of a great day. I plugged in my ipod and Pierce the Veil came floating through my ear buds.

I smiled at the sound of Vic's voice. I smiled at the sound of Tony on his guiltar, of Jaime on bass. of Mike on his drums. This band......along with many others, have gotten me through so much. Without them, i wouldn't be here today.

I rounded the corner and made my way up to the building in front of me. I stopped in front and starred ahead of me. Clairemont High looks so peaceful and beautiful on the outside. Yet inside its like a prison.

I grabbed my backpack and walked into the building. I tried to be as small as possible. Walking against the wall with my eyes glued to the ground.

Out of sight, out of mind right.......

"Tar baby!!" my tormentor yelled "Yo ugly black ass decided to show up today!"

Wrong.....

No matter how quiet I am. No matter how secluded I stay. People still manage to bother me. They come and point out all my flaws like I don't see them for myself.

"Hey I was talking to you Blackie!" she yelled, I recognized the voice as China's. China's been bullying me for years "Answer me you fucking Gorilla!"

I turned to look at China "You do realize that you didn't ask a question right."

China glared at me "Oh now yo ugly ass trying to be smart."

"No!" i sighed while shaking my head "Just stating the facts."

"Well woopidie doo. Somebody give the fucking Gorilla a damn banana. Wait matter of fact give her two.....she is a fat one." She laughed and soon the whole hallway erupted with laughter "God you're so fucking ugly."

"I know." I whispered as tears slid down my face

I know that I'm weird. I know that I'm black and ugly. I know that I'm fat. I know that I don't deserve to live on this earth. So why do people point it out everyday.

She smiled satisfied "It's good that you finally realize how worthless, ugly, fat and pathetic you are. Don't forget it."

I shook my head, eyes glued to the ground "I won't forget."

I turned around and started to walk away when she added "Good, I'll remind you everyday jusy to make sure."

I speed walked to my class and sat down in my seat. Great.....just fucking great. Today is already the worst day of my life and the day just started.Then it dawned on me. She's going to remind me every day. Every damn day for the rest of the damn year.




This is going to be a long year





A long year in hell

Notes

Was the poem as my summary okay.....Was it good. I wrote it when I was feeling like shit.

Well, ANYWAYZ!!! Hope you enjoy this story. It's based of my life so it may get a little depressing.

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