Forgive Me- Part 1

Jaime's POV

Today is the day! I'm both terrified and excited but I guess those emotions often go hand in hand. I didn't get a minute of sleep last night, after seeing Becca yesterday and having to pretend she was a fan looking for an autograph so that Tony wouldn't get suspicious, I just couldn't get myself to fall asleep. There were way too many thoughts flowing through my head, luckily Mike was also wide awake so he sat with me and we talked about Amelia. He really wants to meet her now, after everything Tony and I have said he has decided that he needs to; honestly I'm a little worried about her meeting him. What if she falls for him instead? What if she decides I'm not good enough? What if she won't even see me? What if she hates me?

"Jaime, dude, you need to calm down." Mike said from across the table.

"I can't! There are so many things that could go wrong! What if she hates me?"

"From what you've said, she doesn't hate you, she's probably just upset"

"What are you guys talking about?" Vic mumbled, rubbing his eyes as he stumbled out of his room.

"Nothing really, just what we're doing today" Mike replied smoothly

"Oh cool, what's that?"

"Just going to go chill in the city, walk through the plaza for a while"

"Sounds fun, when are you heading off?"

"In about twenty minutes?" Mike asked looking at me. It was 9am, she'll probably still be asleep but if I don't leave soon I probably won't be able to.

"Yepp"

"Okay, Tony and I'll meet you down there?"

"Yea sounds good!" I said

Soon Mike and I were in a cab on the way to the city and I couldn't sit still. We got dropped at the plaza and Mike uploaded a photo to Instagram to try and solidify our alibi.

"Cool, so where to now?"

"The coffee shop"

"Awesome, I'll come with you then head back here, Tony and Vic should be here by then."

We walked down the road to the coffee shop and I smiled when I saw who was serving.

"Peter? Hey!"

"Jaime? What's up? Where's Amelia?"

"You were here for three days and you already made friends" Mike mumbled with a laugh and I chose to ignore him.

"Not a lot, I'm heading over to see her now."

"Is she sick? She hasn't been in for weeks"

"Yea, she hasn't been the best recently, that's why I'm taking it to her today"

"So the same as usual?"

"That'd be great," I handed him the money and stood to the side to wait. While I was waiting I saw a boy, maybe 17? Standing there starring at us.

"Fan maybe?" Mike whispered

"I dunno..." I said as the kid walked over to us.

"Your name is Jaime?"

"Yea."

"Amelia's Jaime?" Who is he?

"Yea..."

"Seriously? I never thought I would get to see you! She told me you got in to a huge fight so I wouldn't be able to"

"I'm sorry who are you?"

"Oh! Sorry! I'm Jason, Amelia's brother"

"Oh yea, I can see that, she's told me about you, why are you up here?"

"Sick of being in a shitty little down and Amelia has a spare room. Speaking of, I need to say thank you to you"

"What for?"

"You have helped her a lot; she's playing piano again, doing art again, and is even thinking of ways to possibly break up with Isaac. Which is about time, everyone has been waiting for her to do it, he's destroying her"

"She's really doing better?"

"Yea and she said it was because of a guy named Jaime. She really likes you man, and she misses you a lot."

"Really?"

"Yea, you should go see her, she wants to see you but is too stubborn to call"

"That's what I'm doing now, just got her some coffee cake for her birthday and Becca gave me her key to her place"

"Good! You know how to get there?"

"Yea,"

"Awesome because I can't go back today"

"Why not?"

"Oh, she has this thing where she spends her birthday on her own then we celebrate it on the weekend. So no one will disturb you two today"

"Oh okay, well I should head off" I said motioning to where Peter had put the coffees and cake.

"Okay, oh, wait! If she gets pissed at you for going, I give you permission to blame me, she can never stay mad at me"

"Haha alright" we said goodbye, grabbed the coffees and left.

"So he seemed nice" Mike commented

"Yea," was all I replied

"You can't seriously still be nervous after what he said! She misses you!"

"That doesn't mean she won't be pissed"

"You'll be fine, I'm going to head back to the plaza now, good luck!" He patted me on the back before walking back into the centre of the city.

The walk to Amelia's apartment was too short and I was freaking out. My hands, shaking so badly I was scared of spilling our drinks. I paused before heading up. I decided against just entering her apartment and knocked. To my surprise she opened the door.

"Jaime? What are you doing here?"

"Happy birthday" I lifted the coffee and cake to her and she smiled slightly before hiding it.

"I thought Tony and Alex were meant to keep you away..." She mumbled with her face down.

"Do you really want me to stay away though?"

"You lied to me"

"I know, and trust me it's killing me. I am so sorry, I never meant to hurt you, I just liked that you treated me like a human being. But I should have told you. I came to say goodbye, I just couldn't leave without seeing you at least one more time. But if you want me to go I will you won't have to see me again"

I saw that her eyes started to tear up. Put the coffee and cake on the table by her door and pulled her into a hug.

She pulled away and pushed me back before yelling at me "I hate you! Why are you doing this to me? I haven't felt comfortable around someone before and when I do you're leaving! How could you!" I didn't know what to say, I have honestly never been in this situation before so I hesitate before answering.

"I don't want to leave you Amelia! Do you think I'm enjoying this? I feel horrible! Hell, I feel like a dick because I can't even do anything because you still have a fucking boyfriend" she froze and tears began falling down her cheek. I immediately felt horrible.

"Amelia, I am so sorry, I shouldn't have said that"

"No," she whispered "you're right. I wish you weren't but you are"

"Why are you still with him? Becca and Jason both think he is bad for you"

"You talked to Becca and Jason?"

"We can talk about that later" she paused and looked at me evaluating before answering.

"I know he's bad for me, he makes me sad, angry and stopped me from doing the things I love..."

"So why are you with him?"

"Because I don't know how to end it" she slowly trudged her way and collapsed on her couch. I sigh before picking up the coffees, cake and then shutting the door and walking over to her. I place the coffee in front of her and she smiles before taking it.

"So why haven't you been to the coffee shop? Peters worried about you"

"It just didn't feel right anymore"

"What do you mean?"

"It didn't feel the same going without you"

"But I was going to shout you"

"You already have" she raised her cup.

"This is for your birthday so it doesn't count"

"How did you know it was my birthday?"

"Becca" she nodded in understanding.

"So are you going to tell me when and where you spoke to Becca and Jason?"

"I spoke to Becca days ago, she got my number out of your phone and asked me to come see you"

"What if I didn't want to?"

"She gave me a key" I took it out of my pocket and gave it to her and she just looked at it.

"When did she give you this?"

"I met her yesterday"

"When did you talk to Jason?"

"About ten minutes before I got here, he was at the coffee shop and recognised my name when Peter and I were talking" she nodded again "so you've been talking about me?"

She blushed furiously and ducked her head. "Becca asked why I was dodging Isaac and Jason asked why as when I got back into art"

"So was it really me?"

"That got me back into art?" I nodded "yea, what you said in the car about if I enjoy something I should keep doing it stuck."

I grinned. "I'm glad!" She just nodded again and began eating the cake. I laughed when she eyed me down for stealing a bite of it.

We sat there for hours, just reacquainting ourselves with each other before she got a phone call.

"Hello?" I heard talking on the other end but couldn't make out the words.
"Yea he's here." Pause "no, it's okay, I don't mind." Pause "no you don't need to come get him." Pause "yes I'm sure" pause "okay, cya!"

"Tony?" I asked

"Yea, he didn't know you were going to be coming"

"Haha yea Mike helped me escape"

"I've never met Mike... What's he like?"

"He's a nice guy, a flirt, but he's nice. You should come see him tomorrow. I know Vic wants to beg your forgiveness."

"For what?"

"For what he said in our fight"

"Oh, I had forgotten."

"Yea, he's really upset by it, he didn't mean it and he really wanted to meet you"

"I'll have to drop by then" it was quiet for a moment before I dared to ask her the question that had been burning in mind.

"Amelia?"

"Mmm?"

"Are we okay? Like you don't hate me right?" She smiled sweetly at me before answering.

"We're fine, I've had countless people explaining why you would have done it and I guess I understand, plus, you're to entertaining for me to stay mad at"

"Thank god"

"Did you really think I hated you?"

"Yea, I've been fretting for weeks"

"I am so sorry! I should have called or something, I was just pissed"

"You have no need to be sorry, I brought it on myself. Now, I want to see your art works!" Her eyes widened and she shook her head. "Why not?"

"They're horrible!"

"I doubt it! Pwease??" I pouted at her and looked her in the eye and eventually she sighed, stood and pulled me towards a room.

The room appeared to be a guest room but you could see that she had been using it as a studio as well. She stood in front of the painting that was resting against the far wall near a cupboard. I stood behind her and wrapped my arms around her waist, needing to feel her in my arms again, and after a second of shock she relaxed back into my chest.

I looked at the painting and it was amazing. I'm not an artist myself but I can tell that she had everything balanced perfectly and everything, the colours, the shapes, all fitted together perfectly.

"This is amazing Amelia! Why aren't you becoming an artist?"

"Because yea I enjoy it but I don't want it to be my career. I don't want to have to paint, I don't want to be forced into doing something, I want to WANT to paint, and if it's a job it's a requirement not an option. Plus, I want to help people; which is why I chose psychology"

"I guess I understand... why did you stop though?"

"Isaac just didn't support it, he thought it was pointless so I stopped"

"You should never stop doing something you love"

"I get that now"

She turned in my arms, wrapped her arms around me and buried her face in my chest.

"I missed you Jaime"

"I missed you too Mil" I kissed the top of her head and she raised her face to look at me. But looking in her eyes, I just couldn't stop myself. I leant down and pressed my lips to hers and she unwrapped her hands from my waist and wound them around my neck forcing me closer to her.

Soon I had her pressed against the wall and the atmosphere in the room was rapidly changing.

"Not in here" she murmured against my lips. I nodded and lifted her causing her to chuckle and carried her to her bed and carefully placed her on the blankets and gently climbed on top of her and reconnected our lips.

Her hands tugged at my shirt and I smirked at her eagerness, even thought I wanted this just as badly. I pulled of my shirt and looked at her expectantly to which she chuckled and pulled her own off. I only had a second to admire her body, I noticed a tattoo that I hadn't previously, I don't know how I missed it, it wrapped around her entire side. It was a gorgeous angel, wings extending to her back and in between her breasts. The angel had a scroll hovering between it's open hands and it read 'It was then that I carried you'. It was beautiful.

She pulled me down to her again and continued our heated kiss. I ran my hands up and down her sides, feeling goosebumps rise on her skin. I reached behind her and unclasped her bra and slid it from her chest. I bent my head down and kissed down her jaw, pausing at her neck, sucking and kissing, I pulled away and saw that she had a mark and I smiled before I continued to kiss down to her breasts. I massaged her left breast with my hand while I sucked on her right. Her back arched as I flicked my tongue over her nipple and a small moan escaped her mouth. Her hands had tangled in my hair and I kissed down her stomach until I reached the waistline of her jeans.

I undid the button and zipper and she groaned. "Why the fuck did I have to wear skinnies?"

I laughed as she moved away to kick them off. The second her legs were free I pulled her back down to where she was and kissed down her thighs, over her scars and on her inner thigh, avoiding the area I knew she wanted. After a minute of torturing her I widened her legs and kissed her in her sweet spot. I continued and ran my tongue over her slit before sucking on her clit.

It wasn't long before she was squirming beneath me and I knew she was close. As I did before, I stopped and she growled in frustration.

"Jaime?! Why? Why the fuck would you stop?" She whined; she wasn't angry, just needy.

"I enjoy seeing you squirm" she eyed me down before pushing me off her and rolling me so that she could be on top.

"If you want to play like that..." She murmured.

She pulls down my pants releasing my erection before taking me in her mouth. She moved her head slowly, hollowing out her cheeks as she moved up and licking over my head when she reached the tip. She began to move faster, using her hand to reach the parts her mouth couldn't. I groaned and my head fell back onto the bed, my hands releasing the sheets and wrapping tightly into her hair. My hips buckled involuntarily and she groaned as I hit the back of her throat and the sound sent vibrations over me creating another wave of pleasure. I could feel that I was going to cum soon and I let out another groan when she suddenly stopped and pulled away.

"God I hate you!"

"Don't do it to me and I won't do it to you" she smirked.

I pulled her up and rolled us so I was once again on top. I kissed her hard on the lips and held her waist tightly before pulling away and looking at her questioningly. She understood my silent question and said "bottom draw next to the bed"

I slid off her and over to the edge of her bed her I reached down and rummaged through the draw until I found what I needed. I rolled on the condom and hovered over her.

"Ready?" She just nodded.

I pushed into her and paused to allow her to adjust. When I saw that she was ready I began moving again. I started slow but soon Amelia was begging me to go faster and I obliged. Amelia groaned beneath me and her nails dug deep into my shoulders.

After a few minutes she rolled us so she was on top. She rolled her hips in a circular motion before moving herself up and down. I groaned as he rolled her hips again and threw my head back. She began to pick up pace and I could feel that she was almost ready, for which I am glad, I don't know how much longer I can hold out.

I soon feel her walls close around me and she moans out my name. I quickly flip us over and begin thrusting into her again and again until I reach my own peak and when I do I collapse on top of her. Both of us breathing heavily. She kissed the top of my shoulder and ran her fingers over my skin, an odd feeling because of her long nails.

I roll off her and stand up. I pull the condom off, tie it and throw it in the bin before returning to the bed to find Amelia wrapped up underneath the covers. I crawl in next to her and pull her against me. I run my fingers up and down her spine as she buries her face in my chest. All I can do in this moment is smile at how perfect it is, how perfect the girl in my arms is, and think of how much I wish she could be mine.

Notes

smut smut smut....

so I figured that because it was Christmas i would make you guys a long chapter and a smut filled chapter so enjoy! I would like to warm you though, 90% it will either not contain smut or be very undescriptive because I feel weird writing smut about someone I don't know personally so yea...

Hope you enjoy it though and have an awesome Christmas!!! xox


p.s. The tattoo methioned here is very personal and has a lot of meaning to me so if anyone even consideres getting it I will kill you :)