What Daddy Doesn't Know
You and I used to Cuddle every night until you fell asleep
Dad was at the studio today so I took the opportunity to blow off some steam by getting high. Yeah I get high once in a while when I want but its not like I need to get high to survive.
I put on some music and lit a blunt.
"Inhale the good shit exhale the bad shit" I said to myself as I took a hit.
"Well if you don't get rid of the smell you'll be inhaling a lot of bad shit when your dad gets home" I jumped out of my seat when I heard Phils voice.
"Holy fuck what the hell are you doing here?"
"Well my part of recording is done for the day and your dad asked me to come here to see if you wanted anything but it looks like your just fine haha" I let a small grunt
"So what are you gunna tell my dad that I am just some stoner teen who deserves to be locked up in the house under watch 24/7?" I asked taking another hit.
"No I will keep this between us because I think of you as a niece." I sighed
"What do you mean? I mean dad doesn't even care about me so why should you?"
"Katie is that what you think? Do you think he doesn't love you?" He asked sitting next to me taking the blunt from my hand and stubbing it out
"Yeah, He walked out on me"
"He talks about you all the time. He has pictures of you in his bedroom, He tried to call your mom from the time you were 7 to try and get some kind of custody of you but she never let him until now" I was taking back by what Phil was telling me. \
"So you mean he really does care?" I asked tring not to sound too excited.
"He does care a lot and it hurts him to think that you don't like him so I think that you should let him into your heart" I sighed contemplating and then decided against it.
"Maybe sometime in the future but not now, Everyone that I have gotten close o has just walked out of my life and it isn't going to change" I said when I heard the door to the house open and close again.
"Well just consider it?" I nodded and phil left.
Text to: Father
I am going out for a bit but don't worry I am with Alan.
I texted him to let him know because he still wasn't done with his vocals and I was bored and hingry.
Text from: Father
Okay be safe and no boys!
I rolled my eyes. Oh if only he knew.
"I could have drivin" Alan said hopping into the passenger seat.
"Yeah but I like driving my car" I said turning the key.
"So where are we going?"
"Well I am starving so lets go get chipotle" I squealed.
"Sounds good to me"
I ordered a shit ton of stuff because I well I get really hungry after I get high and alan got two things.
"Damn girl Why are you so hung- wait a minute?" He stopped mid sentence and I stopped mid bite and looked at him.
"Yea?" I asked
"You have the munchies don't you Katie May Carlile?" Fuck anyone who used my own name in a sentence I couldn't lie too because I am very bad at it.
"Um. pshhh no!" I look away
"Oh shit you totally do, but its cool cuz I wont tell. We should smoke together sometime" He said I looked confused.
"You smoke?"
"Hell fucking yeah. I actually got a new bong the other day, lets go to my house and I'll show you" He offered and I said yeah.
I walked into Alan's house, It smelled like his cologne and stale weed. I liked it. His house was smaller than my dads but it seemed more like a comfort place. Alan got out his new bong and his stash.
"You have a really nice house" I broke the silence
"Thanks you have a really nice smile" I blushed and thanked him.
"would you like a drink?" I nodded and he disappeared into what I am guessing was the kitchen.
"All I have is beer"
"I won't say anything if you don't?" I asked and Alan nodded
It was about an hour and a half later and I was so high I couldn't even think straight.
"You look really good when your high" I blurted
"So your saying I only look good when I am stoned?" Alan asked as he scooted closer to me on the couch
"N-no thats not what I mean-" He cut me off with a kiss. I wasn't going to complain. I was in complete euphoria when I was kissing him and my phone had to go a fuck shit up.
"MmM don't answer it" Alan said trying to pull me back into a kiss.
"I have to what if its my dad?" He grunted and I picked up the phone K= Katie A= Austin
K: Hello?
A: Hey where are you its getting late and I was getting a bit worried.
K: Oh Alan and I are watching movies at his house no biggie, I may be home really late tonight so don't wait up
A: Oh okay as long as your safe. Is Alan behaving himself?
K: what do you mean?
A: I mean has he tried to get you to spoke or anything I mean alan can be like that but I don't think he would do that because your only 16
K: No dad he hasn't and besides I get myself into my own trouble I don't need him to help me get into trouble and I will be 16 on like three months.
A: Okay well I will let you get back to your movie.
I hung up and sat on Alans lap so that I was straddling him . He let out a small moan.
"I believe we left things unfinished?" I asked and Alan nodded
"Mmmh I think we did" I reattached out lips.
Alan and I made out for a while but he stopped me when I tried to take his shirt off.
"Not now I can't. no this no" I frowned
"Why not?" I asked
"Because I care too much about you to do this to deflower you" I let out a small giggle
" You think I am a virgin?" I asked and he nodded
"Your 16 I mean you should be right"
"I should be but that doesn't mean I am, I was at a party last year and got really drunk and some guy took advantage of me and took my virginity and left me when he was done" Alan gasped but I shrugged it off.
"That isn't right! Did you report him?" I shook my head
"No because I would have gotten charged with underaged drinking and they would have had me do a drug test and i would have gotten charges with possession and shit. But are we going to do this or no?" I asked
"No Katie I still care too much about you and even if your not a virgin, someone taking advantage of you while you are drunk doesn't count as your first time. I mean maybe yeah this can happen at some point but not right now okay just give me sometime"
"That is the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me. I honestly have never had anyone care about me so much before" I said and I wiped a tear
"Well I mean it when I say that I care about you" He said and gave me a kiss. Not a sloppy lets fuck kiss but a 'I genuinely care about you' kiss that was filled with passion.
Alan brought me home around 1 am and took my car back to his house because he carpooled with my dad so he had no way home. Tonight was honestly one of the best nights of my life.
"How was your night?" Austin asked as I walked passed the kitchen
"Fuck you scared the shit out of me dad" I said
"Yeah well you scared the shit out of me when you didn't answer the phone the first time I called" Is he really acting mad?
"I was trying to find my phone in the dark and trying to pause the movie at the same time and Alan was in the bathroom cause that mother fucker sucks at water drinking contests" I laughed causing Austin to laugh with me.
"Yeah he doesn't have a really good bladder capacity But I am glad you had fun why don't you get some sleep?" I nodded as he walked away, .
"Dad?" I called and he turned around
"Yeah?"
"Umm I love you and I am sorry for what I said about not forgiving you yesterday its just that everyone that I have gotten attached to has walked out on me. You just have to give me some time to get used to the fact that someone actually cares enough about me to want to be apart of my life" I said
"Oh I love you too and I do care about you, more than you will ever imagine" He hugged me and we went our separate ways.
2 hours later.
"Katie May everything is alright your fine" I woke to see Austin shaking me
"What happened?"
"You were screaming so I carried you into my bed. I didn't know what else to do" I smiled and nuzzled my head into his chest.
"This is just fine I like cuddling. Mom and I used to cuddle from time to time but once I turned 15 that stopped." Austin kissed my forehead and wrapped his arms around me
"You know I used to cuddle with you every night until you fell asleep" I laughed
"you know it wouldn't be all that bad if you and I could cuddle like this every once in a while" I stated and he chuckled.
"Well its a plan when ever you wanna cuddle like old times feel free to crawl in bed when ever you want peanut" I laughed at the nick name he gave me
"What ever you say Mr.Storm trooper"
"You like starwars?" God can he be any more of a nerd
"I have since I was 7" Austin chuckled and kissed me on the cheek. I fell asleep in the same position I woke in. Wow, My dad really does care about me after all.
I put on some music and lit a blunt.
"Inhale the good shit exhale the bad shit" I said to myself as I took a hit.
"Well if you don't get rid of the smell you'll be inhaling a lot of bad shit when your dad gets home" I jumped out of my seat when I heard Phils voice.
"Holy fuck what the hell are you doing here?"
"Well my part of recording is done for the day and your dad asked me to come here to see if you wanted anything but it looks like your just fine haha" I let a small grunt
"So what are you gunna tell my dad that I am just some stoner teen who deserves to be locked up in the house under watch 24/7?" I asked taking another hit.
"No I will keep this between us because I think of you as a niece." I sighed
"What do you mean? I mean dad doesn't even care about me so why should you?"
"Katie is that what you think? Do you think he doesn't love you?" He asked sitting next to me taking the blunt from my hand and stubbing it out
"Yeah, He walked out on me"
"He talks about you all the time. He has pictures of you in his bedroom, He tried to call your mom from the time you were 7 to try and get some kind of custody of you but she never let him until now" I was taking back by what Phil was telling me. \
"So you mean he really does care?" I asked tring not to sound too excited.
"He does care a lot and it hurts him to think that you don't like him so I think that you should let him into your heart" I sighed contemplating and then decided against it.
"Maybe sometime in the future but not now, Everyone that I have gotten close o has just walked out of my life and it isn't going to change" I said when I heard the door to the house open and close again.
"Well just consider it?" I nodded and phil left.
Text to: Father
I am going out for a bit but don't worry I am with Alan.
I texted him to let him know because he still wasn't done with his vocals and I was bored and hingry.
Text from: Father
Okay be safe and no boys!
I rolled my eyes. Oh if only he knew.
"I could have drivin" Alan said hopping into the passenger seat.
"Yeah but I like driving my car" I said turning the key.
"So where are we going?"
"Well I am starving so lets go get chipotle" I squealed.
"Sounds good to me"
I ordered a shit ton of stuff because I well I get really hungry after I get high and alan got two things.
"Damn girl Why are you so hung- wait a minute?" He stopped mid sentence and I stopped mid bite and looked at him.
"Yea?" I asked
"You have the munchies don't you Katie May Carlile?" Fuck anyone who used my own name in a sentence I couldn't lie too because I am very bad at it.
"Um. pshhh no!" I look away
"Oh shit you totally do, but its cool cuz I wont tell. We should smoke together sometime" He said I looked confused.
"You smoke?"
"Hell fucking yeah. I actually got a new bong the other day, lets go to my house and I'll show you" He offered and I said yeah.
I walked into Alan's house, It smelled like his cologne and stale weed. I liked it. His house was smaller than my dads but it seemed more like a comfort place. Alan got out his new bong and his stash.
"You have a really nice house" I broke the silence
"Thanks you have a really nice smile" I blushed and thanked him.
"would you like a drink?" I nodded and he disappeared into what I am guessing was the kitchen.
"All I have is beer"
"I won't say anything if you don't?" I asked and Alan nodded
It was about an hour and a half later and I was so high I couldn't even think straight.
"You look really good when your high" I blurted
"So your saying I only look good when I am stoned?" Alan asked as he scooted closer to me on the couch
"N-no thats not what I mean-" He cut me off with a kiss. I wasn't going to complain. I was in complete euphoria when I was kissing him and my phone had to go a fuck shit up.
"MmM don't answer it" Alan said trying to pull me back into a kiss.
"I have to what if its my dad?" He grunted and I picked up the phone K= Katie A= Austin
K: Hello?
A: Hey where are you its getting late and I was getting a bit worried.
K: Oh Alan and I are watching movies at his house no biggie, I may be home really late tonight so don't wait up
A: Oh okay as long as your safe. Is Alan behaving himself?
K: what do you mean?
A: I mean has he tried to get you to spoke or anything I mean alan can be like that but I don't think he would do that because your only 16
K: No dad he hasn't and besides I get myself into my own trouble I don't need him to help me get into trouble and I will be 16 on like three months.
A: Okay well I will let you get back to your movie.
I hung up and sat on Alans lap so that I was straddling him . He let out a small moan.
"I believe we left things unfinished?" I asked and Alan nodded
"Mmmh I think we did" I reattached out lips.
Alan and I made out for a while but he stopped me when I tried to take his shirt off.
"Not now I can't. no this no" I frowned
"Why not?" I asked
"Because I care too much about you to do this to deflower you" I let out a small giggle
" You think I am a virgin?" I asked and he nodded
"Your 16 I mean you should be right"
"I should be but that doesn't mean I am, I was at a party last year and got really drunk and some guy took advantage of me and took my virginity and left me when he was done" Alan gasped but I shrugged it off.
"That isn't right! Did you report him?" I shook my head
"No because I would have gotten charged with underaged drinking and they would have had me do a drug test and i would have gotten charges with possession and shit. But are we going to do this or no?" I asked
"No Katie I still care too much about you and even if your not a virgin, someone taking advantage of you while you are drunk doesn't count as your first time. I mean maybe yeah this can happen at some point but not right now okay just give me sometime"
"That is the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me. I honestly have never had anyone care about me so much before" I said and I wiped a tear
"Well I mean it when I say that I care about you" He said and gave me a kiss. Not a sloppy lets fuck kiss but a 'I genuinely care about you' kiss that was filled with passion.
Alan brought me home around 1 am and took my car back to his house because he carpooled with my dad so he had no way home. Tonight was honestly one of the best nights of my life.
"How was your night?" Austin asked as I walked passed the kitchen
"Fuck you scared the shit out of me dad" I said
"Yeah well you scared the shit out of me when you didn't answer the phone the first time I called" Is he really acting mad?
"I was trying to find my phone in the dark and trying to pause the movie at the same time and Alan was in the bathroom cause that mother fucker sucks at water drinking contests" I laughed causing Austin to laugh with me.
"Yeah he doesn't have a really good bladder capacity But I am glad you had fun why don't you get some sleep?" I nodded as he walked away, .
"Dad?" I called and he turned around
"Yeah?"
"Umm I love you and I am sorry for what I said about not forgiving you yesterday its just that everyone that I have gotten attached to has walked out on me. You just have to give me some time to get used to the fact that someone actually cares enough about me to want to be apart of my life" I said
"Oh I love you too and I do care about you, more than you will ever imagine" He hugged me and we went our separate ways.
2 hours later.
"Katie May everything is alright your fine" I woke to see Austin shaking me
"What happened?"
"You were screaming so I carried you into my bed. I didn't know what else to do" I smiled and nuzzled my head into his chest.
"This is just fine I like cuddling. Mom and I used to cuddle from time to time but once I turned 15 that stopped." Austin kissed my forehead and wrapped his arms around me
"You know I used to cuddle with you every night until you fell asleep" I laughed
"you know it wouldn't be all that bad if you and I could cuddle like this every once in a while" I stated and he chuckled.
"Well its a plan when ever you wanna cuddle like old times feel free to crawl in bed when ever you want peanut" I laughed at the nick name he gave me
"What ever you say Mr.Storm trooper"
"You like starwars?" God can he be any more of a nerd
"I have since I was 7" Austin chuckled and kissed me on the cheek. I fell asleep in the same position I woke in. Wow, My dad really does care about me after all.
Why does everyone hate Alan?!?!?! I NEED TO KNOW!!! Please update soon!!!!
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