One Moment

If I had to describe the acoustic concert with my band in one word, I would say awkward wins. But painful, quiet, and unhappy all are close runners up.

It was definitely an experience.

Performing again was great though. It is always a big release for me and right now, it had been exactly what I needed. Even with the hassle and hurt that came along with the awkwardness of my band.
They weren't trying to talk to me or yell at me again, so it was easy just to ignore them and skate by. I know I will have to and should confront my problems with them soon, but right now I just need time. And so do they; we all just need to cool down.

But before we can do that, I need to go up to my bus and get some of my stuff... I'm only going to pack a bag because in a couple of days when we're in Washington, Austin and I are going to stay at my old house for a night to go see and tell my family. Then, since that is one of the last shows, at the Warped Tour wrap up party soon after, we will announce the pregnancy to everyone since they all will be there.

It's nerve racking, but also really exciting because things are about to start to look up for us.

"Hey you, stop lolly-gaggin'," Austin said in an amused voice, tugging at my hand a bit.

I snapped out of my thoughts and remembered how to walk again. Austin wouldn't let me come get my stuff alone because he was afraid something bad might happen with my band again like last time he wasn't there. It was understandable and really, I'm glad he's here.

I rolled my eyes and weaved my fingers with his as we walked to my bus, feeling a little nervous but not as bad as I had been.

The bus door was open, so Austin and I walked right up, expecting to see my whole band sitting around, but only spotting Sammy. He jumped up from the couch when he saw us walk in and tried to give off the warmest smile he could manage.
My heart clenched a bit, realizing how long it's been since I've talked to him.

"Kush and Izzy aren't here, they wen't to go get lunch so they'll be gone for a while," Sammy said, rocking back and forth on the heels of his feet. "I-um.. I put a bag for your stuff on your bunk," he said as he gave a shy smile a pointed behind him.

Both Austin and I nodded at Sammy's kindness, heading past him to go back towards the bunks. I met Sammy's eyes as I passed, sadness creeping up on me when I saw it present in his eyes. I missed my old best friend.

But then we lost eye contact when I got to the bunk, sighing when I saw the curtain closed.

I slid it open, grabbing the bag sitting on my pillow, and starting to move around to throw stuff in it. Austin tried his best to help, but didn't exactly know what I wanted to pack so he just ended up throwing a bunch of clothes on the bunk for me.

He gave me a proud smile at his accomplishment with helping me when I came back. He is such a dork.

I started to sort through the stuff on me bunk, folding some of the clothes I wanted and putting them in my bag. While doing this, Austin stepped behind me, slithering his arms around my stomach and watching me.

"How much are you bringing to your place?" Austin asked in a mumble.

"Mm, just a change of clothes. You can probably bring the same. If everything goes well, we will only be there for the night," I said, stuffing some clothes into my bag.

The only response Austin gave me was to rest his chin down on my shoulder, holding me closer. The action made me freeze while folding one of my shirts, slowly starting to turn to face him. "What's wrong?" I asked, trying to search for his eyes that were looking at his shoes. I could tell something was wrong because of his body language. I've grown to know him that much.

"What if it doesn't go well? And they don't like me?"

I put my hands onto his cheeks so he would look up at me. His big brown eyes looked almost shy as they met mine, making my heart sad, but also flutter a bit. "My family is a piece of work, yeah, but there is no way they wouldn't like you. You're kind, and sweet, and funny, and take care of my annoying ass," we laughed lightly together. "My point is, if my mom is there and something happens, just know that the reason is because she doesn't like me, not you. They'll love you."

"Are you sure?" Austin asked, his fingers playing with the hem of my shirt.

"I love you, don't I?" I teased, raising an eyebrow.

Austin scoffed, but still nodded with a smile present on his lips. he slowly started to lower his head down until his lips were lightly hovering over mine. When his hands made their way to grip onto my hips, I slid my hands into his hair and pulled myself closer, pressing our lips together.

Warmth ran down my body along with Austin's hands that moved down the curves of my ass. "Your ass is not annoying," he mumbled against my lips before reconnecting ours together.

The kiss was more than lingering, becoming more and more intense as Austin's lips worked against mine and my fingers ran through his soft hair. But then it was when he pinched my bum that we finally broke away, a squeal escaping through my lips.

Austin laughed at me, doing that adorable little sort he does when he laughs.

"You ruined the moment, poop face," I teased, pushing his arm lightly.

"Na, I think I made it better, butt munch," he teased back, moving so my back was against the bunk as his tattooed fingers found their way to under my chin, lifting it up so he could press his lips down onto mine.

The kiss had all sorts of feelings flowing around inside of me, but then a light hum flew out of my mouth and into his when my mind narrowed in on one feeling and reminded me of something.

I haven't had any 'intimacy' with Austin since before we found out I was pregnant.

And at the pace we were going at before, that is drastically a long time.. I ached for him.. I am a pregnant, hormonal, and emotional mess that craved to have my boyfriend's love in more than one way. Because that is what keeps me together, but also satisfies me.

Austin sensed this when my hands curled into a tight grip in his hair, returning the kiss with hunger.

"Eh-em," Sammy clearing his throat from the doorway leading to the bunks had us suddenly breaking apart and turning to him. Whoops, may have forgotten the task we were supposed to be doing..

"Hey," I mumbled, scratching my arm a bit.

"Kush and Izzy are on their way back, I thought I'd let you know," he spoke, keeping his eyes on me the whole time.

Sensing that he wanted to talk to me, Austin grabbed my bag from the bunk and kissed the top of my head before sliding past me. "I'll wait for you by the door," he said, giving me a smile before he walked towards it.

"I miss you, Haze," Sammy spit out as soon as Austin had stepped away.

The sincerity of his words pricked at my heart. "I miss you too, Sammy."

"Please come back," he pleaded.

I sighed, closing my eyes to try and ease the emotional exhaustion. "I will," I mumbled. "But I just need time.. to sort myself out."

Sammy nodded, "okay. Okay, Haze. Just know I'm sorry for everything.. I'm so sorry."

I could tell by Sammy's posture that he was trying to stop himself from coming over to me, so to ease his strain, I came over and broke the empty space between us by wrapping my arms around him.
He was a little bit surprised, but didn't hesitate to hug back, making me feel better with one of his best friend hugs that he always used to give me.

It was quiet for a little bit, but remembering that Austin was waiting for me, I broke away. "I'll see you soon?" Sammy asked more than stated, receiving a nod from me.

I sent him a weak, probably not even a real, smile as I started stepping away, heading over to Austin who was leaning against the door and playing on his phone. When he heard me come up he stuffed the device into his pocket and reached his hand out for me to take.

He gave Sammy a small wave before he led me down the bus steps and back out onto the pavement. "Everything go okay?" He looked down to ask me.

"Yeah... It's all okay."

Notes

ehhhhh sorry for the wait again! Another filler chapter I guess? It's not that good, I'm sorry! But the next few chapters coming up should be much longer !:)

Also, this story is coming to an end soon! Oh my! There are probably going to be about around 5 chapters left, I think. Then the sequel!!:) It's exciting!

Thank you all so so so much for the votes and comments and everything! I can honestly say it makes my day to see everyone like my story so much and it gives me a smile every time! So thank you!

But on other news, I got my nose pierced today! It was totally on impulse but I love it haha :p but it got me wondering if any of you guys have any piercings and what kind!!

Hope you all are having a good weekend!