The trip from the side of the "party bus" to Austin's was all a blur of hands and lips on each other. I loved every touch and every kiss, each one igniting something inside my body. I didn't know what this meant, or what I wanted it to mean, or even that this could be a mistake, but all I could think about now was Austin pulling me inside his bus, towards his bunk. Before we even climbed up he had pushed me up against the wall, hands gently running up and down my sides and lips rough on my own. His skin was soft, as well as his lips, and my veins were being intoxicated with him.

I didn't care that each movement we made was a stumble or drunkenly sloppy, because soon enough we were both squeezing in his bunk, me trying my best to sit up on top and straddle him. Our lips were trying to envelope each other in open mouthed kisses, tongues stroking the others, eyes fluttered closed. I ran my hands from his neck, over his shoulders, then nice tattooed arms, and staying pressed against his chest, feeling his warmth underneath me. He had already lost his tank top sometime earlier, so now he was yanking at my jacket, pulling it off my arms and throwing it out of the bunk. There wasn't much room in the bunk for him to work the shirt over my head, so I could tell he was growing angry at it. "I'm going to rip this thing off you," he growled into the kiss, making me bite back a giggle.

I leaned back, still straddling him, and pulled it above my head, watching as his eyes lingered over my body, which was a little difficult to see because of the dark. A moment later his hand was on the back of my head, twisting in my hair and pulling me down back for another wet kiss. I used this passionate kiss that was making the fire tense in my stomach for a chance to let my hands dance their way down his chest, working on the belt of his skinny jeans. "Mmmm...Haze.. Condom," Austin mumbled out between each time our lips connected.

"I'm on the pill," was all I said, my voice breathy when I finally let my hands slide under his un buttoned pants, feeling his arousal and only making mine grow. A whimper-like moan escaped his lips when I grabbed onto him, but it soon turned into a growl of lust. Each noise and movement he make felt like it was sobering me up, while at the same time making me become intoxicated with him, and I couldn't help but hear the thought in the back of my head that says I'll regret this in the morning. But, I don't care. This wasn't my first time. Sex was fun and I was open about it, and if using being too drunk as an excuse for this, then so be it. I want this and right now that's the only thing I can think of.

"Austin," I breathed out, "I can't get these off." Agitation was in my voice when the small space of the bunk was restricting either of us to fully undress in our hurried lust. He pulled me down to his lips one more time, his soft ones caressing my own as he sat up a little. It took us longer to get both of our pairs off jeans off, but by the time we did we were both more than ready, becoming impatient. Our underwear had been lost, too, so now the only thing between us was my pesky bra.

Austin didn't wait another second to start tearing at the clip of that in the back, and while he did I started to grind my hips against him, feeling his arousal on my inner thigh. I watched as he bit his lip to hold back his moan, but then my bra feel off my shoulders and his hands cupped my breasts, making my moan become the one sounding out.

Our lips connected sloppily once more and as they did I felt him slip inside of me. I bit my lip hard, both of us panting into our kiss as we adjusted and then he started to thrust inside of me. I was trying my best to keep the moans inside my mouth, but they kept spilling out while I gripped onto his hair or his arms. It was rough and hot, both of us being so drunk and turned on, it wasn't much longer until his thrusts sped up and we were growing closer to the edge. "Austin," I breathed out, burying my head in his neck, letting my lips connect with his soft skin there., signaling that I was growing closer.

My own name had slipped out of his lips as his did mine when we both finished together, leaving us in a panting, hot mess, pleasure still lightly pouring out of my body like waves. I laid on his chest, listening to his breathing and the sound of his heart beat as I became more and more exhausted, my eye lids drooping.

^^^^

I woke up to my head throbbing, a hangover already clear to me.

I brought my hand up to rub my eyes, wanting to fall back asleep, but found that it hit something. I looked up to see Austin, an innocent and peaceful look on his face as he slept, an arm draped around my waist, holding me into his chest.

I let my eyes taken in his cute face while I barely remembered last night. Having sex with Austin was the only thing that really stuck out after the fun day and then dinner we had. I remembered every laugh we had and flirting we did, and then later on every time his skin touched me, or his lips on mine. That part was a blur, but I remembered. And I couldn't help that feeling that I knew I'd have. Regret.

What the hell did I just do?

I've always been open with sex, not really thinking about it to much and enjoying it, but with Austin? Sure it was great, and I would be lying if I said I didn't want to do it again, but because of it I was confusing the hell out of myself. This wouldn't have been a problem if it was just sex. But, I felt as if it was more and I had a feeling Austin thought that, too. So now things are going to be just totally over complicated.

What do I even want?

I knew that in the back of my mind that answer was Austin. I had so much fun with him lately, and we even connected in the most intimate way, but that's what I was afraid of.. Normally I don't 'connect' with people when I have sex with them..

Austin groaning, most likely from a headache as well made me snap out of my thoughts. "Morning," he said in a raspy, tired voice, rubbing his eyes. I didn't respond, just looked up at him until he noticed and then looked down at me. His big milky brown eyes, filled with innocence and wonder made my worries go away, for now, and I started laughing. I had to bury my head into his chest a little so I wouldn't make too much noise from my giggles.. "We're crazy," I mumbled and felt his chest rumble with chuckles, sounding a little relieved that I wasn't going to be mad or push him away. I know I like him, a lot, so I'm not going to just abandon this, but I have no idea what to do now, or what I want..

It wasn't awkward or anything with him. It was a little confusing between us, but it was like it was a normal thing for us to do. Which also was another reason that it felt like it was something more than just sex...

Austin shifted a little, making me move with him, and thats when I realized what position I was sleeping in. A normal one... I slept normally, not in fetal position like I have every night since.. since I could even remember.. Usually I didn't even pay attention to it, or the tight clinging my arms will do to my body, almost in fear.. The only thing it leaves me with is a sore back, which I get over quickly, but still.. I can't remember the last time I slept like a normal person like I just did... "You in there?" Austin asked, looking down at me with a worried and confused look after I had just spaced out.

"What? Oh, uh- yeah. Just a little out of it... I can feel my hangover getting worse," I chuckled to lift the mood, which luckily worked, making Austin smile at me. "How about a gourmet breakfast of cereal and medicine?" He raised an eyebrow and I couldn't help but smile back at him, nodding. "Sounds fabulous."

Austin slipped out of the bunk, hurrying over to grab some new clothes for us both. When he came back he lightly threw a pair of shorts and t-shirt of his over to me, which I gladly slid on, going commando for now. The clothes were a little big and that was obvious when I jumped off the bunk, showing how the t-shirt was loose and long, but at least they smelled like him. Austin smiled at me when he saw my get up, and then pulled on his own clothes, staying shirtless. "I think you look better in my clothes than me."

"Well I guess that's a good thing because you're not getting them back," you smirked at him and then rolled up the shorts and tucked in the front of the shirt, making you look a little more decent before you walked into the front of the bus, Austin following behind.

"Hey- OH my god, TINO YOU OWE ME TEN BUCKS!" Alan yelled when he saw us walk into the kitchen area. "TEAM HAZETIN! TEAM AUSTARR! THE FEELS!"

"Good morning to you too, dick wad," I said walking past Alan who was sitting on the couch smirking at us. I went over to the counter and helped myself to their cereal, Austin doing the same next to me. "what's Hazetin?"

"Hazel plus Austin!! The fans like Austarr, though," Alan had a cheeky smirk on my face and I couldn't help but want to bury my face in my hands. "We have our own ship name?" I mumbled. I watched this same thing happen to Izzy and Kush, fans going crazy over how they "ship them." It really wasn't a big deal, but it was still kind of weird to have your own "team" and kind of didn't help by making things even more complicated.

"Yep! Tino was team Holi, but he was WRONG! And now owes me ten bucks!!" Alan called out, that smile still on his face. I ignored the fact that they had made a bet on us and was too worried on the fact that I had yet another ship name with Oli. And I could tell that Austin wasn't real thrilled with that by the change in his demeanor, but he didn't say anything about it, both of us knowing that we weren't even "together."

"Thats so messed up," I sighed as I took my bowl of cereal and went down to sit on the couch next to Alan. Austin hadn't said anything and stayed leaning against the counter, eating his cereal and chatting with Aaron who was sitting down at the table like a normal person eating breakfast should. I brushed it off and started eating my cereal, watching as Alan played fruit ninja on his phone. "You suck at that game," I said between bites, watching him fail try after try.

"Nooo," he whined, facing me. "I am a ninja and you're just jealous!"

"Suuure I am," I teased him and watched as he looked at me, pouting, and then burped in my face, making me scrunch up my noise. "You think you're funny don't you," I playfully squinted my eyes at him and then let out an equally as satisfying burp, making everyone look up at me with wide eyes and then break out in laughter. "Ew Austin, you slept with that!" Alan teased and pretended to poke me like I was an alien while laughing. "Kidding!" He through his arm around my shoulder and I looked up to see Austin looking at me and he who had now cracked a smile at me, which was impossible to not give one back. "So, was he any good?" Alan wiggled his eye brows.

"Okay! This is where I leave!" I stood up, more chuckles being let out and then walked to start washing my bowl out. "Have to get to an interview soon, anyways."

^^

The interview had gone fairly well, after I had dragged the rest of my band down there, trying to avoid the questions and teasing from them. They knew too well what I did last night, and I guess showing up in Austin's T-shirt kind of gave away for who it was with..

The interviewer had even asked me a few questions about Austin and I or Oli and I, which left me kind of shocked. I had told him though that I was just good friends with both of them, and thank god the rest of my band kept their mouthes shut.

Austin and I hadn't talked much today, mostly because I was busy with the interview and meeting fans all day and then he had his set which was still going on now. I had talked to Oli, though, and we were going down to the beach nearby with some other people to hangout. I wasn't going to let some stupid rumor about be and him stop me from hanging out with him...

"So you going to tell me about last night?? I want details," Izzy said as we were in the bathroom together, sharing the mirror.

I chuckled, "nothing much happened."

"Oh come onnn! I know you slept with Austin and I know you like him!"

"I slept with other people before, no big deal," I shrugged.

"So you guys aren't together?" She raised an eyebrow at me.

"No, I don't want a boyfriend or anything like that."

"And why not? I know you're thinking about it," Izzy gave me a look and I let out a sigh.

"I came here to have fun, to explore music and party, not be in some complicated relationship, that will most likely end in pain," it felt good to finally say it aloud and explain to someone so they know I'm not crazy.

"You can still do all that stuff! And who said relationships aren't fun? They make memories and are a part of life! Plus, it's like a free partner to have sex with whenever you want," she used her hands to talk and I couldn't help the chuckle that escaped my lips. She did have a point. "And who says it has to end? It's obvious you two like each other so just get over yourselves and go for it. Life is too short."

"Yeah, I guess you're right.." I sighed.

"Of course I am! Now come on," she grabbed my hand and led me out of the bathroom, meeting up with everyone else and then heading to the beach which was only a mile of a walk away from where our buses were at.

When we got down there, it was mostly empty because of the fact that the sun should be setting soon and it was no longer day time. Oli had ran as soon as he saw the water and didn't even bother taking off his shirt before splashing into it like a little child, making me roll my eyes.

I set up a big blanket we had brought on the sand and then laid the kroger bag full of candy that Oli had brought on it before sitting down. I dug my feet into the sand, which was cold underneath the top layer and breathed in the fresh ocean air. It was so peaceful here.

That is until Oli came running back up, plopping his wet self down on the blanket with a long sigh. A couple of Oli's band mates, my band mates, and a few other people we were hanging with were around us, but they were off in their own conversation. I had texted Austin that we were going down to the beach and they should come down when they were done with their set, so I was secretly waiting for them.

Oli reached up to the bag of candy and pulled out some sour gummy worms, not even attempting to sit up as he opened them and dumped them in his mouth. "These little shits are so damn good."

"Hmm.. Agreed," I said and then stole some, chewing on them with a smirk.

"Come swimming with meee," Oli whined, sitting up.

"Oh I don't know! We just ate all those gummy worms, we might get cramps!" I teased.

"C'mon you knob head," he got up all the way and pouted until I did, too.

"Fine, but as long as you don't try to take my top off like last time," I laughed and then stood up, only to be met by Oli who was giving me a look an had an evil smirk on his face. "No.."

He lunged at me, trying to grab me, but I quickly squealed and took off in a sprint down the beach, him following fast after. I was letting out loud laughter as he chased me around, trying to kick sand in his face as I did, but soon enough he caught up and grabbed on to me. "No fair! You're a fast little fucker!" I laughed at him, but then let out a squeal when he picked me up and threw me over his shoulder.

By now we had most peoples attention as he started taking me towards the water, but not before he untied the string to the top of my bikini. "Oli! No!" I breathed out between laughs. I had to hold onto my top instead of squirming to get away now, which is exactly what he wanted. Everyone was laughing at us and cheering, and even though I was the one on Oli's shoulder, I couldn't help but laugh as well.

Soon enough Oli had ran deep out into the water and then turned quickly to rile up the people watching, putting his free hand in the air and fist pumping. "GO HAZE!" Izzy called out, laughing and whistling, and I was barely able to flip her off before I was thrown into the water. "HELL YEAH!" Oli cheered out and then jumped under as well.

When my head came back up I was still holding onto my top and quickly tied it behind my neck again. "I'm gona kill you!" I yelled at him and then lunged, dunking him under with a laugh before I started to swim away fast, knowing he was going to chase after me. I ended up getting to shore before he could grab me again and then quickly ran over, grabbing all his candy and threatening to throw it into the ocean, making him stop. "Stay where you are or I swear.. I will kill them," I tried using my best serious voice, but it was hard not to crack up. Oli playfully gasped, clutching his heart. "NO! Please! I love them more than life!'

"BOO! Good thing you guys aren't actors!" Kush called over and we both flipped him off before giving up and returning to the blanket.

"Well thank you for that entertainment for the night," Izzy added and I rolled my eyes at her, laying down on the blanket next to Oli, looking at the sunset, only to have my view be blocked by a certain ginger who came over and stood looking down at me. He gave me a smile then moved so he was sitting down next to me. "Sup, bitch."

"Nothin much, ass wipe," we teased and then I sat up. "You seen Austin?"

Alan awkwardly bit the inside of his lip and didn't make eye contact, "Uhhh, yeah, somewhere over there," he signaled with his head and I looked over. My heart dropped at the sight, which I didn't know why until I realized I was jealous. He was sitting a little further down the beach, drinking what looked like multiple beers with a blonde girl who had a nice rack attached to his hip, his arm around her waist. He laughed at something who Tino, who was next to them, said and then gave the pretty girl a weak smile.

My face fell completely and I had to let out a few awkward coughs after snapping my eyes away so I didn't feel like crying. It hadn't even been a day since we had sex.. "I should go... catch up on some sleep or something," I mumbled. I had really wanted to come down here was to hang out with Austin and even though I could still hang out with everyone else, my mood was now shot.

"Hey. Look, he saw you with Oli and after seeing your interview and all the Holi stuff, he's just jealous," Alan shifted so I could look at him better.

"He saw my interview?" My voice was quiet.

"Yeah, I guess you said you two were just friends.. Why'd you say that?" He questioned.

"I.. I don't know, Alan. I'm so confused and I like him a lot and that scares me," I looked back over to Austin, hoping that the uninterested look I think I saw in his face while talking to the blonde girl was really there.

"He's drunk and jealous, thats all. He hasn't had the best relationships in the past before and is confused, too," Alan sighed, noticing the sad look on my face. "Hey, lighten up. You can kick his ass later when he's sober."

I gave him a weak smile, taking my eyes away from Austin. "You still want to get out of here? We haven't finished our Tim Burton party yet?" Alan asked with a smile, which I returned. I wasn't going to stick around here and watch Austin drunkenly flirt with a bitchy blonde girl.

I guess I don't know that she's bitchy, but if she's trying to take Austin away from me then, yeah, she is.

Notes

yay new update!
..So .. sex?:P

What do you guys think about Austin and the blonde girl? Hazel and Oli? What do you thinks going to happpppen?;p

love you all!<3