I was curled up on the leather couch in the back room of our bus, wrapped up in an oversized sweatshirt that used to belong to my brother. Currently watching James and the Giant Peach with my laptop open next to me.
It had been a lazy day, since we were and a still are driving most of the time. We were currently stopped, mostly for lunch, so that is where Sammy is. Kush and Izzy are in the main bus area separate from here, doing... I don't even want to know what. So, I was basically hanging out with myself, and of course the amazing movies of Tim Burton.

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I had made myself some Ramen earlier, so I was all set for now.

I also didn't want to admit that I had been stalking Austin a little on my computer... I mean, I just wanted to see more about him since we had been hanging out a bit lately. We never talked about ourselves much, unless it's small little things, and that I was glad for. I don't even think I have a past anymore.. In my head at least. But, Austin wont tell me much about himself unless I tell him something, too, so were left with basically just knowing... nothing about each other, really. Besides the others interests and what not. But, I also know though, by just being my observant self, multiple other things about him that I've caught. Like his little quirks, or his adorable habits.

He was so much different than others, definitely someone special, and the warning bells in my head were going off like a tornado siren. I really liked Austin.

But, it will stay nothing more than casual. Friendship. I don't want a boyfriend, they're just distracting and relationships always end in pain. Music is all I need. But, on the other hand, having Austin as my boyfriend.. Kissing him and being with him all the time and just enjoying things together didn't seem so bad.

But, I am here to focus on my music. That's my true love.

I can still hang out with Austin, though.

I pulled my phone out of my pocket and unlocked it, opening it up to my messages. I had a few from some of the guys I've been coming closer friends with, they were all awesome. I chuckled a little at the texts from Kellin and Vic who I was in a group chat with, they were talking about who was better at some dance move, but I just rolled my eyes at the text from Alan. It was always about cats or Zoe Deschanel with him. I also had a few from Oli, but I'm pretty sure he was high so his texts were making no sense.

I was about to send some texts back, but the sudden fast vibration of my phone stopped me. I smiled a little when I saw the caller ID of who was calling and quickly answered it. "Helloo."

"Hey, where the hell are you?" Austin said, an obvious smile in his voice. "We're all eating lunch!"

"I made myself ramen earlier so I'm not hungry. Plus, I'm too busy watching James and the Giant Peach."

"What?! Tim Burton!" I heard a different voice call out in the background, Alan, being able to hear our conversation. I heard a little shuffling and then suddenly Austin's voice was drifting away. "How far are you?" Alan asked.

"Not very, haven't even found the peach yet."

"Don't let it go any further! We're coming over and having a Tim Burton party!" Alan sounded like a giddy little kid, making me laugh a little. It was always fun to hang out with him because he was great, but I also hoped by 'we' he meant including Austin.

"Alright, alright. Hurry your butt up then!"

"Okay okay okay, bye!" He rushed out and then the call ended. I rolled my eyes and threw my phone onto the couch before grabbing the remote and pausing the movie.

I summoned the determination to get up and pushed myself off the couch with a lazy groan, then started to make my way out of the back room. "EW! Stop please! My eyes!" I yelled and threw my hands over my eyes when I saw Kush and Izzy butt-naked on the ground. I quickly turned and ran into the bathroom, laughter erupting from my chest like an earthquake. The sound of them fumbling around and yelling at me only made me laugh harder. "Starr!" Kush yelled and I could hear him stomp over here. "HAZEL HENDRIX I'M GOING TO KILL YOU FOR INTERRUPTING MY HANG-BANG TIME!" Kush stormed into the bathroom and grabbed me, throwing me over his shoulder. Luckily he had put some underwear on.

I was still laughing, so hard that tears were forming in my eyes. Kush ran me out of the bathroom and all around the rest of the bus, making me scream and laugh so hard that it was hurting my gut. He started spinning me around in circles and ran me to the front of the bus, throwing me onto the couch there. He didn't even give me two seconds to breathe before he lunged and started tickling my sides. "Kush!..Stop!...Please...I..Can't," I tried to talk between laughs but the only thing coming out was tears. "I'm gona pee!" I giggled out and thankfully that stopped him. I gripped onto my gut while I tried to catch my breath making Kush and Izzy start to laugh as well. All it takes is Kush to make me laugh, even when I'm far from it. I then also heard some more laughter, so I looked up to see Alan and Austin standing in the doorway.

"Ew, get some clothes on," I swatted at Kush who was still hovered over me.

"What you don't like the view?" he wiggled his eyebrows and I pushed him off me for good. "You're gross."

Kush winked and then got fully dressed, Izzy already doing that earlier, then I remembered how to be polite. "Oh guys, this is Alan and Austin," I pointed to them and got up off the couch. "Austin, Alan, this is Izzy and Kyle, but we call him Kush because.. well, because weed."

The both chuckled and then Kush gave them both handshakes, Izzy just waving behind him. "Hey." They exchanged hellos. "We're going out, since we can't have two seconds here with out being interrupted," Kush faced to give me a look.

"You can't just do it on the floor in the middle of the bus and not expect to be seen!" I rolled my eyes and he just shrugged. "We can do it anywhere," he seductively moved his eyebrows at Izzy and I moved, shoving them out the door. "Bye Haze!" Izzy waved back to me.

"Bye! Don't do anything that I wouldn't do!"

"That list is a short one," Kush joked and I flipped him off before shutting the bus door behind them. I then made a quick move, grabbing one of Austin and Alan's hands and pulling them into the back room. "Tim Burton time!"

When we got back there Alan dove onto one side of the long couch, getting comfy right away. "Well, make you're self at home," I said, plopping down in my previous spot after putting my laptop away. They both chuckled and Austin sat down next to me.

---*(Austin's Point Of View)*----

She was so mysterious. But, at the same time so simple.

Her smile and laughter could light up a room, well at least for me, and watching her just enjoying herself made a smile instantly go onto my face. She made me feel all giddy and giggly.

She enjoyed life. Well, at least it seems so when you take a glance at her. But, lately I've had the chance to look deeply. She really does enjoy and appreciate everything, but I can see deep down the strain in her eyes. Or on some days the strain in her smile, like it's wearing her down. And that 'it' is obviously her past. It's wearing her down to keep it hidden from herself. I've watched her sing, watched her emotions seep out into song letting each and every person feel it. Feel some lost pain or sadness or anger, even happiness. I can feel her.
She is incredibly smart, but just adds to her mystery every time a different topic apart from her past spills from her lips. Her not telling me just made me want to know her more and more. I wanted to figure her out.

Fuck, I was whipped.

I turned my attention to her when she started to sing some song from the movie with Alan, her head falling back in laughter. She seemed so free, so light and beautiful. I almost wanted to be jealous, even when I always see Alan texting her as much as I was, but I had no right to be jealous... But, I could make it my right.

A smile lit across my face when she turned to face me, still singing along to the song and making a funny face at me. She was so beautiful, especially now when she was just wearing a big sweatshirt and hair in a messy bun.
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We spent the rest of the day lounging around, driving to the next stop which was our last city in California we would be at for this tour. The rest of her band had came back on the bus, but none of them liked Tim Burton movies, so Alan and Hazel kicked them out.

"Please my ginger princess, I'll love you forever," Hazel pleaded, sticking her bottom lip out at Alan.

"That's not gona work on me. Edward Scissorhands," Alan replied, pointing a finger in her face.

"The Nightmare Before Christmas." She snapped back, hands on her hips and face contorted in determination.

"Edward Scissorhands."

"The Nightmare Before Christmas."

"Edward Scissorhands."

It was honestly pretty entertaining to watch her and Alan fight over what to watch next, I was pretty curious to see who caved in first. It even ended up turning into a staring contest, both of their arms crossed and faces serious, that until Hazel blinked and Alan started cheering, being a sore loser. But, I ended up cracking up in laughter when Hazel smacked Alan upside the head, shutting him up. "No bragging allowed in this room." She gaze him the most serious look she could and then started laughing. "I'm gona go get some booze, be right back."

I watched as she walked away, but turned towards Alan as he sunk back down on the couch after putting the Edward Scissorhands movie in. "You picked a good one, Aust."

"What?" I turned and asked him.

"She's feisty, got spirit, I like it," he smirked to himself.

She did have a lot of spirit and life in her, I could agree to that. "Alan, you know we aren't dating?"

"What?! You're shitting me, right?"

"No. I mean we kissed before, but we haven't really said anything about it," I scratched the top of my head a little. "I don't know, man. I really like her."

"So why the fuck not ask her out? You two have only been in here looking at each other with googly eyes the whole time, jesus man, the love in the air is gona start making me gag," he teased and I elbowed him in the ribs right before Hazel came back in.

"Apparently there's a party tonight when we get to the beach, which I so plan on getting hammered at, so beers for now," she held up three glass bottles, handing one to each of us before plopping down on the couch and putting her feet in my lap, making me chuckle. Alan gave me a knowing look, but I ignored it as my mind started to wander. Alan was right, I should just ask her out, because I'm already falling for her. She makes me smile and feel happy in just her presence, so why not?

The previews on for the movie came on and instead of watching them I watched as Hazel leaned back and popped the cap off her beer on the table with one swift movement. "SQUIDGY!" Alan yelled, pointing at the TV. "That fuckin' octopus looks like Squidgy!" He turned to look at me and I instantly got excited, turning to look at the screen.

*(Back to Hazel's point of view)*

I watched in amusement as Alan and Austin started to sing some made up song about whoever Squidgy was, their faces and voices lighting up like children.

When Austin caught my gaze he made a funny face, making his big brown eyes to go cross eyed and for me to giggle. He was a big goof ball, that if maybe 30 feet shorter, he could pass as a child. And I loved that. He made me smile and laugh by just being himself.

We spent the next two hours or so watching Edward Scissorhands.. Stupid Alan for beating me in the staring contest.. But, when we finished we finally got to our next tour destination.

Hoping off the stairs of the bus, I put my hands above my head and stretched out, taking in the nice sunset of California. It really is beautiful here. "So dinner before this party?" Austin asked, looking down at me.

"That sounds fabulous," since I had only had Ramen and beer today, a nice dinner really seemed like it would hit the spot.

"There's a Chinese restaurant a couple blocks away that we can walk to," Sammy added, looking it up on his phone.

"Fuck, sushi sounds fabulous right now," Alan said, looking at me when he mocked me. I rolled my eyes and hit him and then we all started to head out, meeting up with the rest of Austin's band as we did.

As we went down the side walk, the sunset was becoming more visible, but the California air was getting a little chillier, making me shiver since I was wearing shorts. "Cold?" Austin, who was walking next to me asked.

I nodded, "not the best idea to wear shorts, huh?"

He smirked and then lifted his arm up, throwing it over my shoulder and bringing me into his side. "Don't worry, I'm hot enough for the both of us," he wiggled his eye brows and I couldn't help the giggle that came out of me.

The sidewalk was only wide enough to fit two people next to each other, so it went Alan and Aaron, talking about something stupid- probably cats-, Sammy and Tino, talking about drums, then Austin and I, and finally Phil who was chatting with Kush while Izzy was on his back. At one point Alan started singing again, which Austin screamed a little white while laughing at how they made up the song because Aaron got stuck in a porta-potty once. "You're joking," I said in disbelief.

"Nope. The fork lift picked me up and carried me a good 15 feet not noticing I was inside.." Aaron started and I was already laughing along with Austin. "And the best part is that Austin, being the lame guy that he is, saw it happen and said nothing."

Austin had hunched over a little bit, covering his mouth with his hand while laughter poured out. I looked at him in disbelief my jaw open while I laughed. "I just... had to see what would happen," Austin said, trying to get words out between his laughs that made him wheeze a little, making me laugh more. "You're unbelievable," I playfully hit him, still giggling.

"Unbelievably amazing," he corrected me, standing up straight.

"Suuuure," was the last thing I sarcastically said before we arrived at the restaurant, Alan swinging the doors open dramatically. The place was full with decorations and lights in, brightening the red walls and golden booths filled with Chinese cultured things. It also smelled pretty damn good.

A waiter led us over to a fairly large booth, Austin now taking his arm from around my shoulder, which made me have to try and hide my pouting. Most of the guys slid in and I was going to go sit on the opposite side of the table from Austin to even it out, but his hand grabbed my wrist and pulled me back lightly. "Hazel," he patted the seat next to him and I giggled lightly before sitting there. I barely caught sight of Alan giving him a look and then winking, but I brushed it off, knowing what it was about.

I wasn't oblivious to the fact that we had been flirting all day, maybe even the whole time we've hung out. Or at least I hope it was flirting. I liked Austin and being with him was just fun, I could admit that. But, I wasn't here to have a boyfriend or fall for someone. I was here to follow and live throughout my music... But, since I was here to have fun, Austin fit perfectly in that category...

"Oh.. my... god. Look at the cat!" Alan cheered, holding up the menu, pointing at the picture on the cover. I rolled my eyes at him, which Sammy caught and spoke up. "Haze hates cats."

The look on Alan's face was priceless as his eyes widened and mouth dropped. "What?! How can you hate cats?! They're so cute and fluffy and cuddly and my best friends and HOW CAN YOU HATE CATS?!" His face was very serious and we were all trying to hold back our laughter.

"I don't know, they're just evil. Like they want to take over the world or something," I shrugged.

Alan moved so he was on the opposite side of me, opening up his phone and going into his photos. He started showing me pictures of cat after cat, basically shoving his phone in my face. "How can you not love cats?!" He yelled one more time, pushing the phone in my face and making me fall further and further back, releasing giggles when I was basically in Austin's lap. "You are insane, Hazel," Alan said before returning to his seat, making me laugh more when he used my real name, not any of the nicknames he made, showing his seriousness.

I sighed and leaned back into Austin's lap, looking up at him as he did me, his brown eyes happy and lips in a smirk. "Can I stay here all night? It's comfy," I asked him, smiling. It was also a nice view.

"How do you expect to eat?" He raised an eyebrow. I let out another sigh, this time in defeat and sat up. "Yeah, right."

Just in time after that the waiter came back and we all ordered.
The rest of the dinner was full of laughs and funny stories. Plus, a little flirting... All in all, it was fun, and I enjoyed each and every person around me. It was insane how many awesome people I've met and am already becoming friends with here.

The walk back was a little bit more funny than the walk there because it had gotten dark and it was harder to find our way back now. Plus, we were all very full, slowly dragging are selves back as we digested. And, currently Austin and I were making up a new song as we swayed, me singing the clean vocals why he would randomly add a "HEYYY" or "YEAAAAH", only making the random song which came out more as a rap, funnier. "That song suuuucked and so do youuuu," Kush sang from behind us. I quickly spun around and flipped him off, biting my lip to hold my smile back.

We got back to where our busses were parked and we quickly stopped by ours so we cold change out of our pajamas. I slipped on a pair of white jeans in exchange for my shorts and a loose purple/red-ish tank top quickly, running off the bus after sliding on my leather jacket and tugging my hair out of it's bun. "Ready to party?" I asked, rejoining everyone else who a few had also changed. Everyone cheered, adding their own little comment before walking over to where the music was blasting from.

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I caught Austin's eye and gave him a smile, seeing him bite his lip and do the same.

When we got inside the "party bus" we all shoved through a crowd of people, making our way to the alcohol.

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Alcohol, fuck I love alcohol.

After a little bit of usual partying and drinking, I had sadly gotten lost from Austin and the rest of the group, but eventually found Kellin with his band, so I hung out with them. They ended up drinking a ton with me, seeing who could down the most vodka and still not fall over while dancing. So, here I was, bottle of vodka in hand and dancing along next to multiple other warm bodies.

I loved to party. It made me feel alive.
I loved to be stupid and drunk and do stupid, drunk things. Like how some of the boys liked to destroy things around the park we were at or how they thought it was funny to draw penises all over some of the All Time Low guy's faces while they were crashed. It was pretty funny...

"HAZE!" A voice yelled behind me and then I was lifted up off my feet a little by hands wrapped around my waist. I turned around and met Oli's big eyes. "OLI!" I laughed and drunkenly threw my arms around his neck, stumbling a little bit. I hadn't seen Oli as much as I wanted to during this tour, so I made a mental note to do so. "Where the fuck have ya been, Haze!" He hugged back.

"I was gona ask you the same thing! Oli Oli OXEN FREE!" I cheered and the drunkenly giggled. He had a cheeky smile on his face and rolled his eyes at me. "Dance with me!" He called into my ear over the music, so I gladly did, pulling him into the crowd more, seeing that my other dance partners left me.

I started off dancing while facing him, us just being random and twirling around, Oli being known for his goofy dance moves, but after a while we were giggling and grinding, alcohol making us giddy. It wasn't even sexy grinding, just us having fun while I ran the back side of my body against him and him spinning his hips in fast circles. He was a fucking weirdo, or 'nob head' as he would call me.

At the end of the song I was laughing so much that I started to really feel the heat of the bus, so I grabbed Oli's wrist and started dragging him outside. "I reckon I should go find Matt and make sure he ain't fuckin' his ex," Oli said, making me giggle, as usual. "I'll call ya," he slurred out, kissing the top of my head quickly then heading off. His accent always seemed to be harder to understand when he was drunk so I just giggled more. God, I need to stop giggling.

I was about to go wander around, enjoying the night air, but once again I heard my name being called. I spun around, making myself a little dizzy from the speed, but still not spotting anyone. It took my drunken self a minute to locate the voice, but soon enough spotted Austin leaning against the bus. I smiled and ran over, noticing that he had a bottle in his hands and that I lost my own sometime earlier. "Hey-"

"You didn't tell me," Austin just barely cut me off. I was about to question, but he continued, trying to stand up, showing off how visibly intoxicated he was. "You and Oli," he pointed to where Oli had left from.

"What about us?"

"Sam told me you had sex with him, did you? Did you have sex with him?"

His words seemed to sober me up a little, "Why does it matter, Austin?"

"So you did.." He slumped back against the bunk. "It matters, cause.. cause I wana have sex with you Haze. I want to be with you because you're beautiful and funny and.. and, do you want to be with Oli?"

His words made my heart skip a beat, not expecting that, but his voice made me frown a little from the sadness in it. I took a step closer to him, "No. Oli and I are friends, that's it."

"But, you had sex."

"If I had sex with you would things change?" It wasn't really still on the topic, but I wanted to know. Would it just be fun sex and a flirty friendship- which I have no problem with- or would it be.. more? More complicated, interesting, and full on.

His head snapped up to look at me, "you don't want things to change?" He seemed like he was almost frowning.

"Ye-" I sighed, "No.. I don't know. I want to be with you, but I don't want to think about that right now.. I just..I- I wana have sex.. I want you.-" I cut myself off by crashing my lips to his, my whole body igniting with him.

Notes

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