One Moment

Austin led me into his bus, planing for me to stay the night. Honestly, I planned for that too. I planned to come down here and apologize and spill everything, telling him every last detail of the truth. But nope.

I meant to, I really did, but now I can't get myself to dare say another word. What the fuck is wrong with me?

"Hazee!" Alan called out, when I followed Austin back up onto the bus. "What's your crazy ass doin waking us up!"

"Sorry," I said quietly, seeing that everyone else fell back asleep, a weak smile still trying at my face.

"It's cool bitch. I've missed you like this whole week because I have no one to watch Tim Burton movies with!" he came over and put his arm around my shoulder. "Did you and Austie finally stop being drama queens," he teased and poked my cheek. I rolled my eyes and reached up, ruffling his hair. "HeY! Woah, watch the hair," he put his hands up.

"It was already messed up anyways," I stuck my tongue out at him.

"Bitch!"

"Jerk!" I countered.

"Whore!"

"Man-Whore!"

"Slut!"

"Man slut!"

"Poop face!" Alan stuck his tongue out and me and we both tried to stifle our chuckles.

"You guys are insane," Austin laughed at us. He grabbed my hand again and we both started to head back to his bunk.

"Go back to bed, you turd," I said to Alan before we got to his bunk. I slid off my shoes and Austin lifted me up, causing me to let out a squeal of surprise. His warm brown eyes made me feel better when mine met his and he chuckled at me when he noticed he was cradling me like a baby. He gave me a quick kiss on the forehead then set me down in his bunk, letting me scoot back and make room for him.

He still had his big fuzzy blanket with him so he threw it over me before hopping up as well. Once he got situation, he ended up facing me, searching my eyes. "I missed you," he gave me his adorable smile, biting his tongue a little. And boom, my guilt and self anger was strong again. "I don't even care if it was only a week," he chuckled.

I tried to give a laugh too, but when it sounded too forced to be real, I stopped. "I missed you, too," I said in almost a whisper.

"You okay?" He asked, worry in his features.

"Yeah," I lied. "Just tired."

He smiled and reached down, pulling the blanket up over us both. I really wished I could enjoy finally being back in his embrace and warmth, but I just.. couldn't. Not right now. Which is stupid. I should be able to. I've only craved just what I was getting right now for the past week, so I should enjoy it. I just have to wait until the right time to tell Austin, and that was not now.

Feeling like I just let myself off the hook a little bit, I sighed and snuggled into Austin more. He immediately responded to my actions, putting his arms around me and pulling me into him. I wish I could just freeze time right here, right now. As I breathed in his scent, and my body tingled from his warmth and hold.

I really did try to fall asleep, but I just couldn't. I don't care if it sounds creepy, but for a while I just looked at Austin sleep.. He was so peaceful and beautiful and looked so innocent. While me on the other hand...

I just laid there.

And eventually I couldn't take laying still for so long, so I turned to my back to him. Then, before I knew it, I had literally been up all night, my mind plaguing my sleep. Austin woke up before I did, snuggling closer to me, seeing if he could wake me up with his kisses, but I just pretended to be in a deep sleep, which eventually lulled me into a real one.

*

I woke up with a jerk, having to slam my eyes shut as soon as I opened them, from the brightness. I let out a groan and rolled from the fetal position I was wrapped up in, yet again finding myself alone. I grew confused, but then realized that I was still in Austin's bunk, and rolled onto something crinkly. I pulled it out from under my back, noticing it was a piece of paper that was filled with Austin's sloppy, but beautiful scripture.

Beautiful,
Had to run off to an interview, didn't want to wake you.
Be back soon!
Love, Austin ;)

Ug he was such a stupid little perfect charmer.

I sat up, throwing the blanket off me and hopping out of his bed. I rubbed the sleep out of my eyes before bending down and sliding on my shoes. I don't care if Austin is expecting me to be here when he gets back, I just need some air. Alone.

I straightened out my clothes and fixed my hair before trudging out of his bus, letting my eyes adjust to the bright sunlight, it seeming to be at least the afternoon..

I let out a yawn and started making my way to God knows where. I just went for a walk, my mind running around inside my head. And not wanting to go back to my bus and get questioned about how it went with Austin and I, I ended up at the Bring Me the Horizon set. I hadn't hung out with Oli or his band nearly as much as we wanted to this tour mostly because of rumors. I missed having him as a friend sometimes, especially because we go way back. "Oh my GOD, Hazel!" I heard a familiar girl voice squeal and quickly turned my head to see who it was.

I had to put my hand over my eyes to shield them from the sun to make her out, but when I did, my jaw dropped. "Tara..?" Talk about going way back, I went to college with this girl, before i dropped out. Nearly saw her everyday since she was in the dorm next to mine... What are the chances..?

"Oh my god!" She laughed again when she got closer, coming up and throwing her arms around me. I didn't hug back though, shock was ridding in my features. "What are you doing here?"

"I live here, silly! I heard warped was coming into town and then saw this band called 'Darkened Moon with lead singer Hazel Hendrix' was touring and started freaking out!"

I laughed awkwardly, swaying on my feet, now inching to get to somewhere else. This girl made me a whole new level of uncomfortable. She knew Mark, probably hasn't spoken to him since, but knew him when we were in college for that short time. "Yeah," I laughed a little. "Well you actually caught me at a bad time, on my way to an interview, but I'll catch up with you later?" I lied, but damn was I convincing.

"Sure thing!" Tara smiled and gave me one more quick hug and giving me her number before running off. As soon as she was out of my sight I breathed out, thank god I got rid of her. She's a sliver of my past I do not need right now.

I decided it was best just to go back to my bus, incase Tara got suspicious and came back. I'm really not sure what I'm going to do with my day, especially right now since we don't have a set at all. Not even an interview.

I shrugged and turned to take the path to the bus through the park to see if I could meet any fans today.

And that I did.

*
"Where've you been?" Izzy winked at me, plopping down on the couch next to me.

I downed the rest of my glass of water, having a long day in the heat. "I met a ton of fans, my hand is cramping from the autographs," I held up my right hand and started flexing it.

Izzy laughed and held her hands out for Kush who was coming over. "Sooooo, how was your night?" He asked. "With Auuuuustttinn?" He batted his eyes and I just rolled mine.

"It was fineeeee," I imitated him.

"So you finally told him," Izzy poked my cheek.

My heart beat a little faster as I gnawed on my lip, not looking at them, "..mhm..." Not very convincing.

"Hazel..."

"Hm?" I tried to ask innocently.

"You didn't tell him! Did you!?!" She sat up, talking with her hands.

"I mean.."

"Hazel Starr Hendrix!" She yelled. "Are you serious? You're not being serious? If Sammy found out.. No, if anyone found out you didn't tell him...! Haaazel!"

"I was going to.."

"Well why didn't you?!"

"I tried, okay?" I snapped. "I tried and then he thought I said something else and then it was to late and then I just- ug!" I huffed, rubbing one hand on my temple.

"Are you going to tell him now?" She quieted down. I didn't answer because honestly, I don't know. Everything was fine when he didn't know and I'm afraid if I tell him now, especially after I accidentally lied, it's going to go to shit. Fuck. I'm afraid again? Sammy and my therapists pep talks down the drain. "You need to tell him, Haze... I swear to god if you don't I'll tell him myself."

"No!" I cut her off. "No. I'll do it," I quieted.

"You better. This is the farthest thing from a healthy relationship," she sat back in the couch., crossing her arms. I sighed and got up from the couch, heading to my bunk and searching for my phone that I left in here last night.

I had the normal amount of notifications, making a mental note to get back to them later while I just opened my messages. I had a few from the group chat I was in with Vic and Kellin, more freaking cats from Alan, then the one I opened up from Austin.

Austin: How does a movie date sound? We can see the new Monsters Inc (:

I texted back my agreement, knowing that I can't really ignore him and that I'd feel better with him, even though he is the one I'm keeping secrets from..

Notes

Sorry for the short chapter and stuff, but I'm just trying to get some up faster because I have big plans for this!

For those of you that want to know more about Hazel and her back story, just hold on!:) It's coming soon, but first things are going to have to either go down or get sorted out with the couple here!!

And Tara is kind of a random, I know, but she will have a small purpose! And Hazel went to college? Hahah yes!