I was lying in my bunker, just staring into space and thinking about what had just happened. My lips still burned after that heated kiss. No heated kisses and my mouth… well it just felt good. I had been blushing constantly for about two hours since Austin left me alone on the bus and I knew that I would be here for at least another two hours before they would come back. Before their show ended.

I swallowed and took a deep breath, trying to calm myself down. Why did I overthink this? Okay… Austin kissed me. But hey… No… Why would he do that? Why would he kiss me? Why not… What.. Phil? Fuck, I’m stupid sometimes. Why wouldn’t he kiss me? But then again… Why? Why me?

I let out another sigh and wrapped my arms around my body and curled up to a ball. Or did he just kiss me because… well… just because?
Fuck. I hate having million of thoughts.

- - -

I woke up when someone stroked my arm. I jumped a little and let out a gasp but sighed a little in relief when I saw that it was just Austin. He looked concerned and worried, and he was crouching next to my bunker.
"Are you okay?" he asked and looked at me. I looked at him and then I nodded, a little bit confused. Then I felt how my face felt a little bit weird. I had been crying and the salt from my tears had dried all over my cheeks.
"Then why have yo cried?" he asked.
"I must have cried in my sleep" I whispered and rubbed my hands over my cheeks, getting white salt on my fingers and black mascara.
"Fuck… I have makeup all over my face, haven’t I?" I asked and looked at him. He gave me a small little half smile and nodded, and then he helped me up on my feet as I crawled out from my bunker. I walked over to the bathroom and I grunted when I saw my reflection. I looked horrible.
"Where are the others?" I asked as I washed it away.
"I’m here" Alan called from the back lounge.
"And I’m here" Aaron said and popped his head in through the door.
"Tino and Phil are getting us food, and then we’re going" Austin said and popped up at the door as well. I washed away the last of my makeup and when I looked at myself in the mirror I didn’t recognize myself. I was pale. I looked scared. I looked tired. Not like I didn’t had enough sleep… just tired. Tired of everything. Then I saw Austin and I remember the kiss and my cheeks flushed scarlet.
"Are you okay?" he asked and put his hand on my forehead, checking for a fever. Which almost made me blush even more.
"I’m just fine" I said and swallowed a little, not making eye contact.
"You’re not okay, I can see and feel that you’re having a fever" he said and made me look into his eyes. I looked at him for a short moment.
"I don’t have a fever Austin" I said.
"I can feel it" he said and still held my chin.
"No Austin you don’t, what you’re feeling is me blushing because I thought about what you did before" I said and walked past him.
"Oh" he said and I bit my lip a little to not laugh. I walked over to my bunker and laid myself down again, curling up under the blanket and closing my eyes. I took a deep breath and listened to what the others was doing, but mostly Austin. I wanted to know his reaction to that comment.

I was walking around in Miami with Tino and Aaron. It had been over a week since we left Manhattan and everything was back to normal. Except that I was still scared that things would appear around the corners, or wait for me as we entered our hotel room. But the more time went by the more secure and safe I felt. Nothing would happen. I had my hair up in a bun, again, and I had one of the Of Mice and Men tanks on, and a pair of navy colored shorts. Dark grey and white vans on my feet, because well… I had taken a liking to vans. For some reason.
"What do you guys say about some ice-cream?" Tino asked and pointed towards an ice-cream shop. Aaron shrugged and I smiled.
"Sure, that would be nice" I said and we walked in. We entered the shop, ordered what we wanted and sat down by a table. Tino and Aaron both discussed something about their show tomorrow and I looked around. There was not that many people here, even though it was hot outside, and the few people that was here… Well it was only young people. Except for one table. At one table five guys were sitting and when I looked at them I had to admit that they looked good. One of them saw that I looked at and he gave me a small grin, and winked. And I couldn’t help but to blush. He had brown hair, two full sleeves and a tattoo on the side of his neck. His eyes was really green. So green that you could see them shine even though he was sitting on the other side of the room. He was dressed in a tee that said El Rey and black skinny jeans, a little bit ripped and grey around the knees. On his feet he had dark red vans. We looked at each other for a moment, and then he waved for the waitress. She walked over to him and he wrote something down and then said something to her. A few moments later he and his friends left the shop and I turned my attention to Aaron and Tino again.
"Were you looking at that guy?" Tino teased and gave me a grin. I blushed a little and he and Aaron laughed. Then the waitress came over and handed me a piece of paper.

I couldn’t help but to give this a try but… My name is Marian, you can call me Ian and here’s my number. Call me, text me or something ;)

I just stared at the piece of paper and couldn’t help but to smile a little. Marian. With the nickname Ian.
"What is that?" Tino asked.
"That my friend is the number to the guy I was looking at" I said and gave him a grin. He looked at me and then he nodded a bit impressed.

We got back to the hotel and the others seemed to be back as well.
"Hey Tino, Aaron… Apparently we’re getting a local band to play at our show tomorrow" Alan said.
"a local band?" Tino asked.
"yeah, they’re kinda big here on the east coast and they got booked in with us… They sound pretty good and we said that it was okay" Austin said.
"Who is it?" I asked.
"El Rey" he answered and I just stared at him.
That was exactly what the tee on the hot guy from before had said. Could it be him and his friends..?