A:N- TIME LAPSE & SMUT WARNING…YOUR EYES DID NOT JUST DECIEVE YOU. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED ;D
Austin’s P.O.V

Hello everyone,

This is Austin Carlile from Of Mice & Men, I want to start this letter off by thanking everyone for all the support I have received over the last 7 months. Thanks for all the letters, all the gifts, and a special thanks to the small group of kids who came out to see me in the hospital, how you figured out where I was, is beyond me; but awesome, nonetheless. You all are the greatest fans in the world, so happy to have my of mice family around me, if not in present, but spirit, you all are a blessing, and I’m so thankful for each one of you.

I am writing this to catch you up on what’s been going on, as you may know, Oli (Sykes, well not for much longer ;p) has been posting videos of me weekly, and trying his hardest to keep you up to date, but I forced him out of the house a month ago, making him go on the UK tour he has been talking about nonstop. On a side note, he comes back tonight and I’m slightly freaking out because I haven’t been truthful with him, I’m posting this in hopes that you all will keep my secret, please do not send this to him, or tweet him about this, It would ruin my surprise. Even though he is on a plane with no wifi…but please don’t say a word.

Truth be told, I’m walking again (: after my heart surgery, I focused solely on psychical therapy, and Tino and Phil busted my ass in the gym to help get me mobile once again. Special thanks to them, and for Aaron and Alan for cooking some delicious muscle building food <3! I’m stronger then I have ever been thanks to everyone, gained about 20 pounds, but that’s 20 pounds of MUSCLE (: so that’s a good thing. Next, I have been planning this wedding like a mad man! I have two ceremonies planned out actually, one for Friends, and the small bits of Family we have, and secondly, one for YOU guys, our REAL family. The second ceremony will be held at a huge venue in Los Angeles, sorry I cant provide food and drinks though, but you are more then welcome to bring your own! EVERYONE is invited, I want to pack this venue up! This will not be a formal event, I may were a suit jacket, but ill be wearing a tank, and skinny jeans! So please, wear a band tee, wear your skinny jeans, or sweatpants, whatever you’d like, just don’t come naked :P

It will be held on November 20th, Oli’s birthday! Can’t believe he’s turning 26 :,) He’s making me feel like an old man, and I’m only 28, sorry mini-RANT OVER. Any who, it's November 20th, so be there; come hangout! I will be attempting to play, not so sure of Oli will or not, but knowing him, I’d say so! This whole shindig is FREE, and you can RSVP a spot by texting “BRING ME THE MARRIAGE” to 45673. Lame, right? I blame Tino!

All in all, text that number, and you will receive the address, times, and everything like that! There won’t be a ton of security, cause I am TRUSTING YOU all to be on your best behavior, god now I do sound like an Old man! But please, be respectful, it is still our big day and I don’t want people going insane or getting hurt. I hope to see you guys soon, and NEW MATERIAL IS IN THE WORKS :D been tearing it up with the boys in my in home studio, can’t wait to share these new songs with you all! I love you all so much, and I hope to see you soon <3

-Austin Carlile

I smiled as I attached a picture to it, before hitting send on Instagram, then sharing it to twitter. As the picture finished loading, I glanced at it, it was one Phil had taken at the gym this morning, I was up on my feet, shirt long sense discarded, and lifting a dumbbell, a goofy smile planted on my lips. God, it felt good to see my progress. I was so thankful that I had regained my ability to walk again, It was the biggest blessing, well besides Oli. Speaking of him, he was due home any minute, I picked up a few plates, as Tino, Alan and Phil helped me get the place clean, Aaron was the one picking them up. After several moments, I saw headlights through the curtains,

“Their here!” I hollered, walking, god I loved that word, to my old wheelchair, taking a seat in it once again.

I had been keeping a little secret from Oli lately, I had forced him to join our friends in Pierce the Veil on an overseas tour, after my incident, he never left the house, and it showed. He lost weight, which was terrifying considering how tiny he already was, he had more than a fair share of breakdowns, and that’s when I knew he had to go. So I made him, told him that I would be extremely disappointed in him if he didn’t take the opportunity to go back to the UK, much to his dismay, but deep down, I knew he was itching to tour again. So after some convincing, he left; Tom tagging along to do some photography work, much to Matt’s pleasure.

All in all, Oli had no idea of the amazing progress I had made over the last month, I hated lying to him, but I knew it would be that much more special to tell him in person, and I had missed him so much; that this would be the greatest surprise I could offer.

“HELLO!” a shrill cry snapped me out of my thoughts, the guys paraded inside, and my eyes locked on Oli, he beamed, dropped his bags, and walking over to me, what I did next, took him by surprise. I swung my legs off the confinements of the chair, standing up.

“Hey baby, I missed you!” was my only reply, his mouth hung open in shock, as he looked down at my legs in disbelief.

“But you said…you…when!?”

I flung myself in his arms before he could speak anymore, he clutched onto me tightly. His body shaking as he buried his head in my chest, sobbing.

“Oli…don’t cry!” I patted his hair down, kissing his head, he just held me tighter. After a few minutes he stepped back, looking me over again,

“You look amazing Austin, your walking! You got a hair cut…And your ripped!” he laughed, poking my bare skin on my arms, I shrugged.

“The day after you left I started to regain movement, and feeling, then 4 days after that, I walked, ever since then I’ve been going hard to make sure I keep it this way, I still can’t walk perfectly normal, but I’m working on it.” I flashed him a smile, he brought himself closer before standing on his tip toes and laying his lips on mine, I eagerly kissed him back, wrapping my arms around his waist as he snaked his around my neck. Words can not begin to describe how much I missed this, how much I missed him. Being able to hold him, being able to walk, just being able to do anything with him, was the greatest gift in the world, I would never take my life for granted again.

We pulled back for air, to find everyone’s eyes trained on us, the guys in Bring Me still looked Shocked, as did Oli, I chuckled awkwardly, waving at them.

“Hi?” I offered, making everyone laugh, after several hugs, and a long explanation of how I had made it happen so fast, we took a seat at the huge dining room table, as Tino took orders so he could call for Pizza.

Oli was currently perched in my lap, leaning over the table having a conversation with Aaron over wedding plans, Aaron had been my wing man with all the planning. He had proposed to his girlfriend not to long ago, so we had both been given the task of planning ceremonies, not exactly a mans forte, but when it came down to it; Oli and were both Guys with hardly any feminine habits. Well…he did have a lot more than I did. Oli suddenly bounded off my lap, running to grab his suit case, before returning to his spot, he smiled back at me.

“I got gifts for everyone!”he stated proudly, unzipping his suitcase, all of us leaned in, anticipation written in our faces.

“Aaron, this is for you, Alan here you go, Tino catch this, Phil this is yours, and Austin, this is yours.” He handed out large black packages, stuffed with what I presumed was clothes. I kissed his cheek and thanked him, making him blush, damn, I had missed that boy.

“Fuck yeah! New Drop Dead Clothes! Thank you Oli!” Alan proudly held up his new hoodie, and jeans, before ripping the T-shirts free of their confinements, everyone else followed suit.

“Baby these are awesome! Did you design all of these?” I asked, admiring all the new garments he had brought home, he nodded vigorously.

“Their amazing! Thanks Oli!” Phil exclaimed, re-folding the clothes with a grin, everyone else thanked him as well, he giggled. Before turning to face me,

“Austin, there is something I need to talk to you about.” He began, tossing a wink in my direction,

“Of course baby, our bedroom is still in the studio. We’ve been working on new material and just crashing in there.” I admitted with a laugh, he smirked, climbing off my lap and offering me a hand. It was still a bit difficult to stand on my own, if it weren’t for the adrenaline rush I felt earlier when I saw him, I would have fallen on my face. He shouted a ‘be right back!’ to the guys, before dragging me to the studio. After we made it inside, I turned to face him.

“What’s up, Ols?” I shot him a worried look, silently fearing the worse, what if he met someone in the UK, what if he didn’t want to be with me anymore…what if…

Before I could list another stupid what if, Oli crashed his lips onto mine, sending me backwards until my knees hit the bed, he fell on top of me; our lips never leaving the others. I grinned into the kiss, biting his bottom lip slightly, begging for entrance. It had been so long, way to long. He finally caved, opening his mouth with a gasp, and letting out a moan as I slid my tongue against his, after several heated minutes, he pulled back.

“Austin…” he purred in my ear, sending a chill down my spine, and blood rushing downwards, damn he knew what worked on me. He kissed my cheek, hastily making his way down my neck, one of his hands trailed up my shirt, tracing the pattern of my new protruding muscles, his other hand snaking its way down so he could paw at me through my jeans.

“Stop being a tease.” I hissed out, reaching up to tug on his hair, he gasped, a grin on his face. He may know how to turn me on, but I knew exactly what drove him crazy. I used any strength I could muster to flip us around, he chuckled as I landed on top of him.

“Someone’s strong, can I see those new muscles?” he propped himself up on his elbows, licking his lips, fuck. I sat up as most as I could, winking at him, before discarding my shirt, sending it flying across the room, his hands trailed up and down my stomach,

“Damn…” he muttered, biting his lip and looking up at me as innocently as he could.

“All yours.” I stated in a matter of fact tone, he smiled.

“You have no idea how happy that makes me, I love you.” He sat up as much as our current position would allow, before resting his forehead on mine, I kissed his nose.

“I love you too, I missed you so much.” I whispered before pressing my lips against his in a heated fashion, I quickly discarded of his shirt, laying him back down, and leaning over him, thank god for upper body strength. I ground our hips together, earning small moans from him, I eventually removed my mouth from his, licking down his jaw line.

“Austin…please…” he begged, knowing I wanted this, no needed this as much as he did. I kissed down his chest, stopping above his belt line, and going back up, he whined in protest.

“Austin, fuck. I need you, so do something or I’ll do it for you.” The look in his eyes was dark, something I had only seen flicker in his eyes once before, and I’d be lying if I didn’t say it was the hottest thing in the world. I gave in, making my way back down his chest, and undoing his belt when I got down far enough, he looked down at me, his eyes widened in lust, and mouth slightly open. I lost any self control at that point, ripping the belt off of him, before unbuttoning his jeans and unzipping them with my teeth, he tossed his head back.

“You like that?” I asked, crawling back up to him so our eyes made contact, he nodded, attaching his lips to mine once again. I pushed his pants off of him, leaving him only in the small drop dead boxers, he knew how much I loved those, damn him.

“Pants, off.” He demanded, pushing me off of him, and leaning over me, unbuttoning my jeans agonizingly slow, before he finally pulled them off, throwing them off the bed. He climbed on top of me, kissing me desperately as he ground our hips together again. I couldn’t hold back the groan that made its way out of my throat, no one will ever know how difficult it was to not be able to feel anything like this in months, especially when you had a damn fine fiancé who would love to help you out with these things.

“Oli…” I whimpered as his lips left mine. He shot up from the bed, parading over to our small dresser and grabbing a bottle of lube.

“Can…I do it this time?” he asked carefully, I didn’t know what to say. I had never been the one on the bottom, I guess I had just never thought about it, it wasn’t like I was against it.

“Does it hurt?” I asked, which was quite possibly the stupidest question I could have, of course it was going to hurt at first, but Oli never complained whenever we had sex, in fact, he seemed to be enjoying himself.

“Well at first yeah, but…I’m…not as…big as you…and if I can do it, so can you…but if you don’t want to baby, its fine. I just thought it would be easier on you.” His face flushed red, how he could go from being so devious to so innocent in the matter of moments was beyond me, not like I minded.

“Your right, it would be easier. Plus you haven’t before, so yeah, but hurry up though.” I winked at him, making his face flush that much more, he nodded. Coming back over to me and kissing my cheek, before moving downwards, eying me as he pulled my boxers off painfully slow. I hissed as the cold air from the house hit my skin, he leaned down, placing a kiss right on my hip bone, before kicking his boxers off. I caught sight of his newest tattoo, the one he got for me, he was truly the best man in the entire world.

“We’re taking this slow, as much as I would love to just go at it…I don’t want it to be that bad for you.” I agreed, he popped open the small container, coating a few of his fingers in the liquid before looking at me, I nodded.

“Relax, and stay that way.” He commanded, before pushing the first of his fingers in, I shifted around, it wasn’t particularly painful, but it didn’t exactly feel good either. He looked back up at me, I shook my head, then he pushed the second finger in.

“Fuck.” I cursed, biting my lip, he kissed my thigh.

“Sh…I know; just relax, it gets better, love.”

I did as told, trying my hardest to get comfortable, how he did this was beyond me, this was anything but pleasurable! He twisted his fingers around, scissoring them outwards and I had to bite my tongue to keep a hiss back. After a few moments, the discomfort went away and I nodded reluctantly, he slipped the third finger in.

“Ugh…” I grunted, tossing my head back in pain; he kissed my legs again, murmuring for me to stay still and after a few moments, he moved his fingers around; allowing me to get used to the sensations. After a few twists of his fingers, I gasped, pleasure shooting through me, he curled his fingers up, causing it to happen again.


“Oh fuck…Oli…” I breathed out, my hand twisting in the sheet, and just as soon as the pleasure came, it left. I pouted, letting out a loud whine which caused him to laugh as he applied the lube on himself.

“I have a feeling you’ll like this more than my hand,” he purred, aligning himself up with my entrance, eyes silently begging for permission, I nodded. He slowly pushed himself forward, causing me to writhe around, this was a lot worse than his fingers, this was terrible.

“Relax relax!” he chided, moaning slightly as he pushed himself in as far as possible,

“It gets better, just tell me when…” he said, his hands trailing back on my abs, trying to ease away the pain.

“Now,” I replied after some time, he smiled before moving his hips backwards and pushing himself back in, I whimpered as he picked up a slow pace,

“Fuck!” I wailed as I felt him brush up against that spot again, he smirked, angling his hips before slamming back in, earning a loud moan for his actions. Now I can see why this was enjoyable, this was worth any discomfort I had felt. He quickened his pace, accurately hitting the same bundle of nerves over and over again,

“Oli, Oli..I-“ he quickly captured his lips with mine,

“I know, me…too…” he forced the words out, reaching down and grabbing my member in his hands, twisting in time with his thrusts. After a few more jerks, I was a screaming mess, pleasure washing over me as I feebly forced out his name, after a few seconds, he let out an “Austinnnnn,” before releasing himself on my chest, and collapsing next to me.

We laid in silence for a few moments, arms twirled around the others frames, his head snuggled into my shoulder.

“We should get back in there…plus I'm hungry...” he chimed, he was seriously the cutest thing, I leaned up, chuckling softly.

“Thank god for sound proof rooms, right?” I smiled as he turned into a fit of giggles, rolling off the bed, and handing me a tissue.

“We sure know how to make a mess,” I chided, wiping all the fluids off of my chest, he blushed as he shrugged his boxers and jeans back on, slipping his DEATH shirt over his head, and offering me a hand.

“Yeah we do, and thank god you were already walking funny,” He added with a laugh, which I happily returned.

“Very good point.” I admitted. He helped return my clothes back to their positions on my body, before grabbing a comb. He ran it through his long hair, before handing it off to me.

“You okay with the new hair cut?” I asked in a questioning tone, he beamed.

“I think it looks great,” he commented, striding over and running a hand against the locks which stood still in the air from gel and hairspray, I kissed his forehead.

“I love you so much.” I expressed, kissing my way down to his nose, he snickered.

“I love you too, Austin. Let’s go finish up these wedding details, and eat some pizza.” I bobbed my head, grabbing his left hand, as he and I walked out of the room. I absentmindedly twisted the ring on his finger, a truly happy smile gracing my lips.

Notes

So was that some horrible smut or what? I suck at it, but since I love you guys I tried T-T

Please leave me something ?

Even if its to tell me how horribly written that sex scene was, lol

xoxo
Siren