My Understandings

“Vic?” he was with Tony, I think, and they were looking at guitars.
“Ellie! Whadya doing here?” I walked to him and gave the two of them a hug.
“Buying another guitar. Whadya doing here?” Tony stalked off to the bathroom, leaving us here.
“Just looking around. What kind of guitar are you getting?”
“Well, I had a Fender, but I left it at home and I have no idea.”
“Hey! I have a guitar you can borrow.”
“Really?”
“Yea. It’s rhythm and it’s the one I used in Hell Above.” Holy shit nicks! I was going to use one of his guitars!!!
“Really!!!”
“Yes!! I have another one to use and you can use that one until we can ship your guitar to our next venue.” I hugged him again.
“Thank you so much Vic.” I pulled back to look at him. And boy do I like what I see.
“See you at the party?” he asked. His hands still on my waist.
“Definitely.”
“I’ll drop off the guitar at your bus.” I nodded and left. My heart was out of control! Vic Fuentes, the Vic Fuentes wanted to see me, plain old little me at the party. This is cool. So fucking cool! I fist pumped the air as I walked back to my bus. I had to find something to wear to the show. Heck I need to find something to wear tonight! I begin to throw clothes out of the closet. Random clothes that I didn’t even know I brought. I finally found something that seems somewhat presentable.
“Knock, knock!” Vic was standing in my doorway with the guitar.
“Holy fuck! That is the most amazing fucking guitar I’ve ever seen!” I run to him and take it out of his hands.
“Play something.” I sat on the bunk and did an A chord minor. I stood up and set it down.
“Get out! I have to get dress.”
“But I wanna walk you to the stage.” He gave me a puppy face.
“Fine! But turn around.” I put on my jeans and shirt. I tell Vic he can look and I put my jacket and shoes on. I put the guitar in the case. I check the time.
“Shit! Vic I have to be on the other side in five minutes!” I stuff my notebook in the case and Vic takes my hand. Our fingers are laced together as we run past people. Vic is bumping and shoving fans out the way and I’m here running and jumping in heels. We make it back stage.
“One minute guys!” Vic gets out the guitar and helps me strap it on. He hands microphone.
“3o seconds!” the stage manager yells.
“Go knock them dead!” Vic kisses me on the cheek and I walk out on stage. I can never get over the feeling of walking on stage and seeing thousands of people who love your music. I turn to Vic who smiles at me with a sign in his hand.
What a babe
I roll my eyes and scream into my microphone.
~Vic~
After watching Ellie’s performance I walk over to the Kia Soul stage and get ready for my performance. I grab the green guitar from Mike and strap it on. I walk on stage and I hear the fans chanting my name. I nod towards Mike who starts us off with Bulls In The Bronx.
“Do you know, I count your heartbeats before you sleep? I bite my fingernails to bone (to bone). Now I crawl back under the stairwell To a place I call my home. I really hope you enjoy the show, Because for me, it's just a bad day. You need people like me to feel.
Maybe we're just having too much fun. Maybe you can't handle yourself, Staring at me with your lips and tongue.
You'll never know. I don't know where I'm going to sleep tonight. Just stay at hotels for cheap. And there's one down the street, But, why don't you threaten me with a good time? Murder the moment. My God, I'm the serpent. I'm sorry, I can't see that you truly love me.
Maybe we're just having too much fun. Maybe you can't handle yourself, Staring at me with your lips and tongue. I've been having this dream that we can fly, So maybe if we never wake up, we can see the sky. Oh, alright.”Here comes the Mexican solo! Jaime runs up to me and puts his back to mine where we do a little solo. I walk towards the edge of the stage and stick my hands out for the fans as the songs starts back up.
“Please don't take this out on me. 'Cause you're the only thing that's keeping me alive. And I don't wanna wait for the down-set date 'Cause I would rather end it all tonight. And if I mean anything to you, I'm sorry, but I've made up my mind.” I pull away from the fans and start the guitar again.
“Maybe we're just having too much fun. Maybe you can't handle yourself, Staring at me with your lips and tongue. I've been having this dream that we can fly, So darling, close your eyes. 'Cause you're about to miss everything (about to miss everything) 'Cause you're about to miss everything (about to miss everything).” I look in the crowd and I see Ellie holding up a sign. The sign I had earlier. I laugh at her and finish up the song. After we perform, BMTH walks up. I take a spot behind stage.
“Hello San Diego!” the crowd cheers. “This one goes out to our newest band, Sorry Not Sorry! This one’s for you Ellie! Tell Miley to text me sometime!” the crowd laughs and Ellie flips him off. I smile until I see David next to her. he looks dead at me too. He mouths two words to me.
Stay away
He tugged Ellie away from the stage. What’s his issue? She’s super nice and she gets along with everyone. She has a killer voice. It’s not her fault guys like her. including Austin an Alex. Hell, I think I might even like her. I just want to get to know her better.
~Ellie (Later that night)~
I pulled up my black shorts and slipped on my boots. I made sure I had my stage pass, otherwise I would lose it somewhere. Miley left with Oli already and Max and Ryan are waiting for me. I put my shades and trudge out the bunk. They all look at me.
“You guys know I hate my eyes. Deal with it.” We walk out and head towards the SWS bus. Drinks were already being passed out. Kellin handed me a red cup and quickly downed his. I spotted Miley trading saliva with Oli.
Gross.
I bump into someone. Right when I’m getting ready to yell, he looks at me.
“What a babe.” He smirks. I swat his arm.
“Not so bad yourself Fuentes.” I punched him in the arm.
“I was wondering if you wanted to go to the beach with me?” he kept his attention on the ground. I giggled.
“Sure.” He towed me to the beach. I can see what he’s wearing. Black skinny jeans, a gray tank-top, and a snapback. We sat on the sand and laid back.
“So, how are ya liking warped so far?” to be honest, not so well. My thoughts were always on the one person who broke me. I’m stressing out over writing songs on time, but otherwise dandy!
“Great, yea.” Vic propped himself on his elbow and faced me.
“I can tell you’re lying.” The wind blew my hair in my face. he moved it from my sunglasses. “Why do you hide your eyes?” I shrugged. He removed the sunglasses and set them down. I stared into his brown eyes. It was if they were melting. He smiled at me. “You have beautiful eyes.” He leaned in. was this really fucking happening?! Was Vic Fuentes really going to kiss me?!
“Holy fuck.” I muttered. He smiled into the kiss. His lips were so soft. Plush. Enjoyable. I opened my mouth more and he shoved his tongue in my mouth. My hands removes his snapback and my fingers tangle in his hair.
Heaven. I’m in heaven. Vic rolls on top of me and I hear a moan escape his mouth.
“What the fuck?!” next thing you know Vic was tossed off of me and I was being lifted up. David was next to me while Austin was trying to drown Vic. I got up and ran towards them. I jumped on Austin’s back until I was on his head and flipped him over into the water.
“Austin. Carlile!” I yell in between breaths.
“What the hell is wrong with you?” my brother and Austin say at the same time.
“What? I can’t kiss anyone?” I yell.
“Not Vic! I don’t trust him!” David yell.
“Well! I don’t trust Austin!” I point at him, my cheeks flaming.
“What were you thinking?” Austin turns the table on me.
“I’m trying to work on not getting too emotionally invested in people!” I yell. A crowd was forming and one figure stuck out more than another, Kellin.
“Oh and kissing Vic was?”
“Why do you care?” I snap. “Austin you broke up with me over two years ago! Why the hell do you fucking care who I kiss?! Why don’t you go with Gielle and suck tongues with her!” everyone gasp. Even though I don’t know who she is, she must have some toll on him. His face drops completely. From anger to shame to pure sorrow. “Because my life is none of your god damn business!!! Stay the hell away from me and leave me alone! Remember what I told you all those years ago? It still stands. I hate you!” I turn to David and I lose my temper.
“Who are you to control my life?! I can date who I want! I’m not a child anymore. I’m 25 for god sakes!”I drag my soaked self-off the beach and shove past the crowd. I grab some clothes from my bunk, write a note, and stalk off to the ATL bus. I change into pajamas and sit on the bottom bunk that is Alex’s. I let it sink all in. It was the most perfect night. I got a guitar, I killed my performance, I kissed Vic, but then, Austin and my brother interfere. I cry for the first time in a while. Usually I would want to cut. But my razor is on the other bus and I’m too tired to get it. I fall asleep before I know it.

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