My Understandings

I woke up soaked and with a serious hang-over. I check my phone, after the bright screen almost blinds me and see that a fricking rainbow has threw up on me. I carefully sit up, and take in my surrounding. Empty bottles of whisky and beer lay on the floor. Weed is all over the table and a bong is turned over. On the couch cuddled up to Alex is Sarah. Jack and Tony are on the floor, jacks foot in Tony’s mouth. Vic and Mike are cuddled up together and Jaime and my brother are squished on the love seat. Kellin is next to me, his mouth slightly opened, and Miley and Max lay huddled up by the door of the bathroom. Carefully getting up, I walk into the bathroom to see Ryan’s head on the toilet and Jesse is knocked out in the bathtub.
Geez, how did this happen. I got and grab two bottles of Advil and take two out and set them by a water bottle and line them up on the counter, taking two myself. I wonder where the WCAR guys are.
I sneak back into the bunks and cuddle up on the floor with a blanket. I then realize I forgot a pillow and I snatch one from the bottom bunk and someone grips it back.
Oh, it’s on.
We play tug-a-war over the pillow and I snatch it from the freaking person, falling backwards.
“Man, what the-Ellie?” I look up and see Kyle on the bottom bunk.
“Oh, hey Kyle. Where’s the rest of the guys?”
“I don’t know. David is on the PTV bus, Andy left after getting drunk and fell on the couch sometime after the party left. Eric is uh.....somewhere. No shhhh.. I want to sleep." He turned over and soon I heard soft snores coming from his bunk.
Waking up from a nice slumber isn’t something I would recommend. Even if it’s curled up on the floor, I’m not ready to get up and face the day. I needed to have a band meeting about our set up. I think it would be great to keep Miley as a clean vocalist and I can be an unclean vocalist. Leaving Ryan and Max as backing vocals. I feel like Max doesn’t get his fair share of fame. That needs to change. My phone began to play the noise racking The Sky Under The Sea, it means my alarm is going off. My fingers carelessly fumble for the snooze button on my screen. Hearing the music fade into nothing, I fall back into my sleep. No stress, just sleep……..*crash!*
“God dammit!” I yell. I kick off the blanket and hoist myself off the floor. I clumsily make my way to the lounge to see almost everybody gone. All that remained was Sarah who was picking up stuff from the floor, Vic in the kitchen, and my band. All bottles of water and Advil pills gone. I groan when I see the sunlight peeking through.
“Morning sunshine.” Vic says. I happily give him my morning finger as I step off the bus. The air was crisp and the wind was blowing rather hard for a summer day in Texas. I walk back on the bus and put some shoes on, seeing that I’ve slept in my clothes.
“Hey, uh, Ellie?” a female voice asked. I turned towards the kitchen to see Sarah fiddling with the helm of her sweater.
“Yea?”
“Well, I want to say thank you for an amazing time yesterday. It’s was nice to have escape the horrid of my bloody town.” It was the first time since yesterday I’ve noticed the accent.
“You’re not from here?” I ask. She shakes her head and her eyes dart down to the floor.
“No. I’m from Manchester. But I had to move here six months ago and since then, I’ve hated it. I mean, how the fuck can people be so rude, I mean I-I,” I rush over and embrace her in a well needed hug. Hot droplets of water stain my neck and shirt as she clings on.
“It’s okay. Things will get better. You still have my number. If you are ever feeling down, call, text, or Skype me. my fans mean the world to me. if you are someone who thinks it’s okay to be a complete asshole, then I will never consider you a fan of mine. Ever.” She wipes away some stray tears and nods.
“I’d better get going, got school later.” I nod and follow her off the bus.
“Sarah!” I call before she walks out the gates. She turns around. “Be safe.” She nods and scurries off to her car. I turn around and my nose comes in contact with someone’s chest.
“Beau?” I look up and see a grinning Andy. He quickly grabs my hand and leads me back to my bus.Everyone had cleared out.
"I thought since everyone was gone, we could chillax for a while." Well, I really had important things to do, but why not! He dragged me to the bunks where he pulled out his laptop and got on Netflix. We ended up watching Degrassi. It's one of my favorites. At one point, like five miutes later, Andy fell asleep and I ended up texting Austin.
Ellie: Sup boo!
Austin: Hey Ellie, your in a good mood.
Ellie: Why wouldn't I be?
Austin: Nothing, nevermind.
Ellie: Bullshit Austin. What are you hiding.
Austin: You should be asking Andy that.
Ellie: What the hell are you talking about Carlille?!
Austin: internal link
I click on the link. It lead me to YouTube. I still don't see what this has to do with Andy. The video starts playing and I plug my headphones to keep the noise from waking him up. It was him and some guys from FIR and OM&M. There was a blonde there and she was talking to Andy. For a minute, I felt jealous, but it subsided when I realized, me and Andy aren't even a couple. No one even knows about it. She whispers something in his ear, due to the loud music. His eyes widen and she lifts her shirt up. All I see is a tattoo. But when she turns to the side, I almost broke my phone.
"YES!" Andy yells. He grabs the girls face and kisses her. Not a peck on the cheek or lip. No, a full tongue and saliva trade off. Soon, the two of them dissapear and the guy recording turns it to Ronnie.
My heard dropped right then and there.
Andy is gonna be a father. And he cheated.
Well, you guys aren't really dating an no one knew about it, so, it's not like he actually cheated.
Ellie: I'm coming over.
Austin: Okay, I'm sorry.

I roll my eyes and walk off to the Blessthefall bus. I don’t even bother knocking, I mean, it’s just Beau. I walk onto the bus and the members of the band are huddled over a MacBook, laughing their butts off at something.
“What’s so funny?” Beau doesn’t even look up from the screen, he just motions for me to come over. The video playing is from the VIP lounge. You can see me kissing Vic on the cheek, David and I being the drunks we were, Beau passed out on the ground.
“It’s already hit over a million views over night!” and you could see Sarah and Alex having the time of their lives. Matt (drummer) and Matt (keyboardist) were sitting on chairs asleep, sunglasses covering their face. And then there’s paint balloons, and man, it looked like we were having fun.
“You look like a freaking rainbow threw up on you!” Jared shouted. I felt my face heat up.
“Shut up! Don’t be a butthole!” I pout. For a minute, I forgot about Andy, the pregnant chick, and the stress of being a rising musician. It felt good to kid around and be, me. But as soon as it slipped my mind, I remembered.
“Well guys,” I slapped my hands on my thighs as I stood up. “I have to go." They wave bye at me and I walk to Austin's bus with fresh tears falling down my face. He's gonna be a father. A fucking father and he had sex with her! While she is pregnant! I open the door and collapse into Austin's arms. He holds me for what seemed like hours while I cried. I cried for everything, Andy, my dad, my first love, Austin, my brother, everything. And he just held me. I don't think I've ever seen Austin so understanding. When I lifted my face from his shirt, I looked into his eyes. They were on the brink of tears. I used my thumb to wipe under his eyes. I give him the biggest hug possible.
"Go sleep on my bunk. I'll be here when you wake." I nod and he kissed the top of my head. Once in his bunk, I pull of my phone case and take out the piece of metal.
I looked down at my second best friend; my razor. I pulled your sleeve up and debated for a while. I sniffle a bit. The choice was clear. I slid the razor across my skin. I leaned my head back and bit my lip as the crimson came to the surface. I repeated the process several more times until the blood pooled onto my pants.
The curtain was flung open and I looked up to see my best friend, Austin, standing there with a fading grin. “What are you doing?” he asked me. I hid the razor under the blanket and shook my head.
“Nothing. Laying here.” I said.
He gave me a look and walked over to the bed, pulling the razor out from beneath the blankets. I gave out a sigh of defeat.“Why?” was all he asked me, after seeing the smeared red on my wrists.
"Just a lot of reasons. I don’t want to go into detail right now." I told him blankly. He sighed and sat down beside me on the bed, pulling me to him.
"There’s something I have to tell you Ells." he said.
"Oh no, you mean you’re not straight?" I asked him, smiling. He grinned and looked down at me. "I’m straight. I uhm, I love you." he said. I sat up and looked at him.
"What?" I asked him.
"I love you. I always have." he said. I looked down and nodded.
"Austin, I love you, too." I told him. "Your the best friend ever, of course I love you." I hugged him, but pulled back seeing my blood was dripping on his shirt.
"Right, best friends." He smiled.
~Austin~
Andy hasn't stopped texting us all day. She had to turn off her phone and I just had to put my on silent. It still bugged me though. She thinks I love her as a friend, but it's so much more. So much more and it hurts that she doesn't see it that way. I sigh and fidget in my seat. I've tried taking things slow, but everytime I do, I fuck something up. I look at our intwined hands. I heard her sigh and she pulled her hand out of mine. The sight made me want to cry.
"Austin, I have to go." She kissed me on the forehead before leaving. As soon as I hear the door close, I let the tears I've been holding fall. I love her so fucking much and all I want is another chance to make things better.
~Ellie~
I let the tears fall from my face. All I want is for someone to appreciate me and just not cheat. Its too much to handle. I just want to run back to Austin and crash my lips against his like old times. But things are never gonna be the same no more. Sighing, I scratch at the bandage covering my arm. I stop in front of my bus.
Here goes nothing.
I open the and a cry of air leaves me.
"Andy! Miley! What the hell?!" I cry.

Notes

Had to break up her and Andy, even though they weren't dating. One more boy obstical and then it's all Ellie and Ausitn, that's why it's on this site. But, there's a slightly alterd version of this on Wattpad and the title has been changed. So if you wanna check it out, link is below. And, please, don't get too attached to any guy Ellie has any, uh, contact with. This is her and Austin's story of how they come together, not Austin suffer and Ellie becomes a whore and dates every guy at Warped. #SorryNotSorry <-------oh snapz! That's the name of their band! (Sorry). But, yeah. Please, don't think different of the story now that you know what's in store and if do continue to read, let's get more people to read this!
My Understandings altered vesion