My Understandings
A Match Into Water
Prologue
“I hope everything is all fucking dandy in Austin’s world!” I yell. My boyfriend of two years is breaking up with me. I don’t know what I did. I don’t know what I can do. He shook his head. He walked to hug me but I backed away.
“Get away from me.”
“You’re being ridiculous.” He spat.
“OH! I’m being ridiculous! You’re the guy who’s dated a girl for two years and then out of the fucking blue you fucking dump me!” I walk upstairs and I here Austin trail behind me. I run into my room and open my closet. I pull out my guitar case ad my notebook. I grab the iPhone off the table and my car keys. I make an attempt to leave my room but Austin blocks me.
“You’re not going anywhere.”
“The fuck I am!” I have bad language. I thank my father. And I’m not being sarcastic. The profanities give me an extra boost of courage. I had a band meeting to be at in half an hour. I wouldn’t get there any faster with dickhead blocking my way.
“Ellie,” he put a hand on my shoulder.
“Get the hell away from me! I hate you Austin!!!! Get the fuck out of my life!” he stood there motionless. I shoved by him and ran down the stairs. I forgot one important thing. I grabbed Squidgy off the counter and placed it in his hands. I got in my car and drove away. As soon as my house was out of sigh, I cried. I don’t hate Austin. How could anybody hate Austin? He’s a sweet guy.
Scary and intimidating, yes. But sweet and lovable.
But he just took my heart and shattered it. How can I be the same after this? My phone rang and I reached down to get it. It was my brother David. He’s part of a duo called Breathe Carolina. I’m in a band myself. We’re called Sorry Not Sorry. And right now, I was feeling just that.
“ELLIE!!! BREAHTE CAROLINA AND SORRY NOT SORRY ARE GOING ON WARPED THIS YEAR!!!”
“Dude, don’t lie to me.”
“I’m not! Kyle’s back here fangirling.” I laugh.
“Dude! This is awesome!”
“Guess who else is coming?”
“Sleeping with Sirens, Pierce the Veil, All Time Low, 3OH!3, Blessthefall, Bring Me the Horizon, Blood On The Dance Floor and so many more!” I gushed to my band. Our drummer, Max, was fangirling at the moment. His cheeks are so red; he could pass out from lack of blood to anywhere else. Our backup vocalist/bass guitar, Miley, was running around excited. Her blue hair just a blob. We all did a group hug and chanted.
“Warped! Warped! Warped!”
A Match Into Water
I rushed off the bus. Hours on that bus with Max and Ryan arguing non-stop really takes a toll on you. I grabbed my notebook and pen to scurry off somewhere of peace. As I was running, my clumsy self-decided it would be fun to play, let’s bump into 5o million people. Here’s advice. Don’t wear heels. One of those 50 million people was a Mexican.
“Hey-” the guy looked down on me. Unbelievable.
“You’re Vic.”
“Yup. I am.” He stuck a hand out and helped me up.
“Sorry. I’m just really clumsy.” I said and tried to scurry off again.
“Hey! Wait.” Vic called. He ran up to me. “What band are you in?”
“Sorry Not Sorry.” I replied.
“What do you play? I mean, what’s your role?” Aw, Victor is trying to flirt.
“I’m lead vocalist. Rhythm guitar.”
“Just like me. Hey, maybe sometimes we could work on a song together.”
“That’ll be cool.”
“Wait! What’s your name?” I turned around. I removed my shades and tried to be cliché like in the movies. I hate my eyes; they’re like ice crystals implanted in my face. I looked dead into Vic’s eyes.
“Ellie.” I put my shades back on and stalked off. The next person was to bump into me was Alex from All Time Low. My shades fell off.
“Fuck nuggets.” I murmur.
“HEY! I heard that. Keep the profanities to yourself.” He said.
“Well, get out my way!” he helped me up and started laughing.
“Who are you? Ice queen of Greenland?” I snatched my sunglasses from his grip.
“And who are you? Gay dude from ATL?” I challenged. He smirked, which earned a laugh from me.
“Well said, young one.” He draped an arm around my shoulder and turned me around the opposite direction I was heading. We were approaching the ATL bus and I saw some member from SWS and OM&M. “YO! This is,” he looked down to me.
“Ellie. Sorry Not Sorry.”
“ELLIE FROM SORRY NOT SORRY!”he yelled. A short man, taller than me but short, came up to me. He had black hair and it was hard to tell if his eyes were blue or gray. Alex pointed out people. “The dude with the black hair, Kellin from Sleeping with Sirens. Then there’s Jack, Justin, Gabe, and Jesse.” The rest of Sleeping with Sirens waved at me. “Then from my band, there’s Zac, Rian, and my babe over there, Jack!” I waved to them and he towed me along to OM&M.
“Come on! Let’s meet the girl from SNS.” A voice pleaded.
“SNS?” a voice asked. Both voices sounded familiar.
“Sorry Not Sorry. Her name is Ellie.”A red head popped from the bus and his eyes met mine. His mouth dropped as did mine. That meant,
“Dude where is she?” the tall figure looked my way.
No fucking way.
Alex looked at me, but I took off running.
“ELLIE!” I heard multiple voices call after me. But I did not stop. Not until I reached my bus and slammed the door shut. Miley and Max looked up at me. I didn’t say anything to them. I just walked back to my bunk and drew the curtain. I pulled my knees up to my chest and tried to think of an alternative.
There is no fucking alternative, Austin and Alan are part of the band Of Mice & Men so deal with it.
I thought I would never see him again. Now I have to spend a whole fucking summer with him! I opened the window and slipped out. I stayed on the side of the bus because I heard voices by the door.
“Where’s Ellie?” Alex asked.
“In her bunk.” Max replied. I took off running to the other side with the door and ran to the Pierce the Veil bus. It would only be a matter of time before they saw me. I pounded on their door until a tall boy with tattoos and a beanie opened up.
“Where’s Vic?” I asked hurriedly. The voices were getting louder and closer. He pointed to the back where I got on the bus and ran. I ran to the bunk and drew the curtain.
I screamed.
Vic was in his boxers.
“Ellie! What a surprise!” he grabbed some jeans and threw them on. Along with a shirt.
“Sorry, but I was wondering if your offer still stands?” he smiled.
“Of course.” He smirked.
~Austin~
“Come on! Let’s meet the girl from SNS!” Alan pleaded.
“SNS?”
“Yeah. Sorry Not Sorry. The girl name is Ellie I think.” Ellie. Just like the girl I used to date. Alan popped his head out the window where some bands were talking. “Shit.” Alan muttered. I walked past him onto the ground and I heard a familiar laugh. The laugh stopped.
“Dude, where is she?” I walked closer and my mouth hung open. The girl looked at me. Her mouth opened and close. She took off running. Alex looked at me and then chased after her. Alan did the same along with a couple people from Sleeping with Sirens. Kellin came up to me and gave me a dirty look. “What!”
“What did you do to her?” he asked.
“Nothing. But I know her.”
“Who is she?”
“Remember that girl I broke up with?”
“Yeah for no reason. She was really nice and she got along with Alan.”
“That was her.” Kellin laughed.
“No it wasn’t. That girl you were dating had eyes like freaking crystals.”
“Yeah, but she was in a band named Sorry Not Sorry. And when I saw her, she acted as if she knew me and then she ran.”
“It could’ve been a girl from the same named band who was fangirling over you.”
“Only one way to find out. I’m going to her bus.” I walked around the venue until I found the bus titled SNS. Alex was already there.
“Where’s Ellie?” he asked a guy. His eyes kina creep me out. He doesn’t look normal. But I figured he must be stoned.
“In her bunk.” Yup. He smells of weed. Please tell me she isn’t wasting her life with him. We all charged back there and she was nowhere in sight. We all trudge back off the bus where the stoned kid slammed the door and locked it. We started walking by all the merch tents calling her name. We heard the PTV bus slam shut. Damn. Nowhere in sight.
How am I supposed to know if it’s the Ellie or just Ellie?
Alan.
I walked back to our bus and slammed the door shut. Alan was sitting on the couch.
“Was it her?” I snap. He looked up at me and shook his head.
“Just another girl named Ellie.” I tried to look in his eyes, but he avoided me. He’s hiding something.
“Whatever. I’m calling it a night.”
“It’s three in the afternoon. We have a set to do after Pierce the Veil.” He pointed out.
“FINE! I’m going on a walk!” Alan’s shoulder slumped even further. I felt guilty. “Look, ginger,”
“It’s okay. If I saw the love of my life too, I would be pissed off as well.” He gave me a reassuring smile before leaving. I could’ve sworn that was her. That laugh sounded so familiar. The laugh I loved so much. Heck, I still love that laugh. It makes her eyes turn such a pretty blue. Her dyed blonde hair and the way she would cuss at every offending thing. Her favorite word; fuck nuggets. I laugh at the thought of her saying that word.
“Fuck nuggets.” I laugh again. I’m even imaging her saying it.
“Vic where are we going?” there was a thump on our bus. “Shit face.” no. it couldn’t be. I poked my head outside the window a little and I saw Vic, Alex, and that Ellie girl.
“Hey. Who says fuck nuggets?” Alex asked.
“I do. I’m a clumsy girl carrying a guitar with a Mexican wanting to go to a taco truck and you over here laughing every damn time I fall.” The girl looked up, her sunglasses were on.
“You, have a very dirty mouth.” Vic laughed.
“AW, dammit.” She fell and her shoes fell off. I stifled a laugh. While she sat on the ground tying her shoes, they brought up conversation.
~Ellie~
“AW, dammit.” I tripped over my own two feet and fell. While I was tying the lace up on the heels, Alex began talking.
“So, when does your band perform?”
“Uh, let’s see. I know Of Mie & Men go after Pierce the Veil, then it’s All Time Low, I think we go on the Kia Soul stage after Falling In Reverse, then on the Monster Energy stage we go after Sleeping with Sirens.” They helped me back up and we walked towards a taco truck not too far from the venue. Vic orders five tacos. One for each of us. The other two for him. I threw my notebook on the table.
Three words for pain.
Austin Robert Carlile.
Three words for happiness.
Austin Robert Carlile.
Three words for sadness.
Austin Robert Carlile.
Let’s see what I have.
Austin Robert Carlile, Austin Robert Carlile, Austin Robert Carlile.
Huh. Some song.
I used my pen and scratched them all out. Ugh. Austin wouldn’t leave my mind. I hate the past!
The past.
“THAT’S IT!!!!!!” I yelled out of nowhere. I scribbled it down.
It's time to forget about the past
To wash away what happened last
Hide behind an empty face
Don't ask too much, just say
'Cause this is just a game (A/N these are lyrics from 30 Seconds To Mars song~Beautiful Lie, but for now, it’s not.)
I heard music playing back towards the stage.
“What's another burned bridge?
Does it matter?
You weren't there, why do you care?
End the chapter
Loose talk is the enemy of laughter
Light up my cigarette and wait for disaster” Breathe Carolina was playing. I loved this song.
They Say You Won’t Come Back.
“Why are you so hyper?” Alex asked.
“Because Breathe Carolina is playing.” I said while tapping my heel to the beat.
“You have a crush on David?” Vic yelled.
“NO! David is my brother!” they all gave me a stupid look. They looked towards the stage then me. The stage again then me.
“Ohhhhhh.” They say at the same time. I needed a set order. I got permission from my brother to do a cover from one of their songs, Waiting. Then we’re doing Aryan, Lost, But Loved, Breathing From The Other Side and possibly the song I’m working on now.
“It’s a beautiful lie,” I sang. That sounds like a good title. Beautiful Lie.
“Hey, Ellie, since you have a good voice, I was wondering if you could help me with a song.”
“What song?” I asked while jotting down more lyrics.
“Hold On Till May.” I dropped my taco.
“SERIOUSLY!!!!” he nodded. “DUDE I WOULD FUCKING LOVE TOO!!!!!!” this is great attention for our band. Since Hold On Till May was a popular song, maybe other bands would give us attention and our band could get more publicity than we already have! I’ve been at warped for only an hour and I already have two friends! All of our phones beeped at the same time. Time for us to head back. When I got to my bus, I told my band the news.
“Oh my gosh, this is great!” Max yelled. I showed them the set list and the new song I’ve been working on.
“Yes. We are going to kill it!” Miley yelled.
“Now, let’s be Sorry, Not Sorry!!!” it was our little montro. We gather our stuff and rushed to the Kia Soul stage. Falling In Reverse sounded amazing. We still had thirty minutes before we preform so I strolled towards the stage Vic said they we’re playing. Vic introduced me to his brother Mike, and the rest of the ban, Jaime and Tony. Or A.K.A Hime-Time and Turtle. I began to laugh when Jaime kept asking Vic for a kiss.
“But Vic, you know Fuenciado’s love I stronger than Kellic!”I laughed. So many fans wanted Vic and Kellin together, but many fans wanted Jaime and Vic.
“Nice!!!!” someone whistled at me. I turned to see Kellin trudging his way over here. Apparently we had the same thing in mind. Not only were we both wearing Anthem Made tee’s we both liked the idea of wearing a beanie. He took his off and placed it on my head.
“For good luck.”
“Aw, Kellin, don’t give her lice on her first day!” Tony joked.
“Yea, well don’t give her the Mexican disease.” He joked back. A reporter came and shoved past us making me fall into Vic who caught me. His hands were around my waist. I looked at him and smiled while moving out the way.
“Vic! Before the performance start, can you give us some advice for the people out there today.” This caught us all of guard, but what really did was what Vic said next.
“Uh.” He pointed at the camera. “Don’t do drugs, stay out of gangs uhm…….wear condoms.” Everyone’s mouth dropped. “And don’t forget I love you.” Jaime took the mic.
“Does that get the point across?” he asked. Everyone was speechless. The reporter just walked away like it never happened. Of Mice & Men took the stage and I must say, Austin has changed. He was taller, had more tattoos then I last saw. The intro began and they played a song I knew all too well.
“I've said it once or twice,
I'm coming down to show you the way to live with my hand.
Inner me, I know you are killing me from inside.
You can laugh, you can laugh but don't waste my time.
You pessimistic, you cannibal.” Austin took back in control.
“Don't believe me, cause I'm already dead.
Don't believe me, I'll take to the bitter end.
I've been waiting to show you life abundantly.
So, I'll end this talk of who I really am and who I really ought to be.
I won't let you fall back down to the ways that you wanted to escape.
My love, take my hand, I'll show to you everything.
It's not who I am and who you want to.”
“Inner me, I know you are killing me from inside.
You can laugh, you can laugh but don't waste my time.
You pessimistic, you cannibal.”
“For the sake of failing you, my God still lives.
Roll with the pack my God, who will make all wrongs right again?
Roll with the pack my son, who will make wrongs right again? I’ll show you grace like you never have seen. Grace like you never have seen. I'll show you grace I'll. Show you. I'll. Show you grace” he tossed the mic and swung it back. He caught it and began the next song. They did three more songs and Pierce the Veil came. As I was walking up a bit, Alan bumped into me. he was hiding my view from Austin. He put a piece of paper into my hand and hurried off, blocking Austin looking back. Vic walked up to me.
“You know the lyrics right?” I nodded. He walked on stage and thecrowd went wild.
“CITIZENS OF WARPED TWENTY TWELVE, LETS GET FUCKING LOUD!!!!!” the crowd went as loud as possible. “Our first song is a song we all should know well, Hold On Till May!!!” the crowd screamed. “As you all know, the band Sorry Not Sorry is with us, how many of you guys like them!” the crowd went wild again. We have so many fans! “We have the lead singer with us now! She’s going to duet with us on this track! Get out her Ellie!” I walked on stage and girls were crying and screaming at me. Vic hugged me and kissed me on the cheek. They were some “aw’s” a couple of death glares. The song began and Vic’s beautiful voice filled the venue.
“She sits up high surrounded by the sun
One million branches and she loves every one
"Mom and dad, did you search for me?
I've been up here so long I'm going crazy"
And as the sun went down we ended up on the ground
I heard the train shake the windows
You screamed over the sound
And as we own this night
I put your body to the test with mine
This love was out of control
3-2-1 where did it go?
Now don't be crazy
Yes now of course you can stay here.
Been in a touring band for going on ten years.
Big deal, I guess you're official"
I only said it 'cause I know what it's like to feel
Burned out
It gets you down,
We've all been there sometimes
But tonight I'll make you feel beautiful once again
And as the sun went down we ended up on the ground
I heard the train shake the windows
You screamed over the sound
And as we own this night
I put your body to the test with mine
This love was out of control
3-2-1 where did it go?
If I were you, I'd put that away
See, you're just wasted
And thinking about the past again
Darling you'll be okay. And she said;” I got past my nerves and I took the mic.
“If you were me, you'd do the same
'Cause I can't take anymore
I'll draw the shades and close the door
Everything's not alright and I would rather...” Vic looked at me and smiled.
“And as the sun went down we ended up on the ground
I heard the train shake the windows
You screamed over the sound
And as we own this night
I put your body to the test with mine
This love was out of control
Tell me where did it go?” the crowd cheered and again some people “aw-ed.” I ran to make it to the Kia Soul stage on time. As soon as I arrived, Falling In Reverse were just getting off.
“You ready?” I asked. They all nodded. We all ran on stage.
“Are you ready for this shit!!!!” I yelled.
“I hope everything is all fucking dandy in Austin’s world!” I yell. My boyfriend of two years is breaking up with me. I don’t know what I did. I don’t know what I can do. He shook his head. He walked to hug me but I backed away.
“Get away from me.”
“You’re being ridiculous.” He spat.
“OH! I’m being ridiculous! You’re the guy who’s dated a girl for two years and then out of the fucking blue you fucking dump me!” I walk upstairs and I here Austin trail behind me. I run into my room and open my closet. I pull out my guitar case ad my notebook. I grab the iPhone off the table and my car keys. I make an attempt to leave my room but Austin blocks me.
“You’re not going anywhere.”
“The fuck I am!” I have bad language. I thank my father. And I’m not being sarcastic. The profanities give me an extra boost of courage. I had a band meeting to be at in half an hour. I wouldn’t get there any faster with dickhead blocking my way.
“Ellie,” he put a hand on my shoulder.
“Get the hell away from me! I hate you Austin!!!! Get the fuck out of my life!” he stood there motionless. I shoved by him and ran down the stairs. I forgot one important thing. I grabbed Squidgy off the counter and placed it in his hands. I got in my car and drove away. As soon as my house was out of sigh, I cried. I don’t hate Austin. How could anybody hate Austin? He’s a sweet guy.
Scary and intimidating, yes. But sweet and lovable.
But he just took my heart and shattered it. How can I be the same after this? My phone rang and I reached down to get it. It was my brother David. He’s part of a duo called Breathe Carolina. I’m in a band myself. We’re called Sorry Not Sorry. And right now, I was feeling just that.
“ELLIE!!! BREAHTE CAROLINA AND SORRY NOT SORRY ARE GOING ON WARPED THIS YEAR!!!”
“Dude, don’t lie to me.”
“I’m not! Kyle’s back here fangirling.” I laugh.
“Dude! This is awesome!”
“Guess who else is coming?”
“Sleeping with Sirens, Pierce the Veil, All Time Low, 3OH!3, Blessthefall, Bring Me the Horizon, Blood On The Dance Floor and so many more!” I gushed to my band. Our drummer, Max, was fangirling at the moment. His cheeks are so red; he could pass out from lack of blood to anywhere else. Our backup vocalist/bass guitar, Miley, was running around excited. Her blue hair just a blob. We all did a group hug and chanted.
“Warped! Warped! Warped!”
A Match Into Water
I rushed off the bus. Hours on that bus with Max and Ryan arguing non-stop really takes a toll on you. I grabbed my notebook and pen to scurry off somewhere of peace. As I was running, my clumsy self-decided it would be fun to play, let’s bump into 5o million people. Here’s advice. Don’t wear heels. One of those 50 million people was a Mexican.
“Hey-” the guy looked down on me. Unbelievable.
“You’re Vic.”
“Yup. I am.” He stuck a hand out and helped me up.
“Sorry. I’m just really clumsy.” I said and tried to scurry off again.
“Hey! Wait.” Vic called. He ran up to me. “What band are you in?”
“Sorry Not Sorry.” I replied.
“What do you play? I mean, what’s your role?” Aw, Victor is trying to flirt.
“I’m lead vocalist. Rhythm guitar.”
“Just like me. Hey, maybe sometimes we could work on a song together.”
“That’ll be cool.”
“Wait! What’s your name?” I turned around. I removed my shades and tried to be cliché like in the movies. I hate my eyes; they’re like ice crystals implanted in my face. I looked dead into Vic’s eyes.
“Ellie.” I put my shades back on and stalked off. The next person was to bump into me was Alex from All Time Low. My shades fell off.
“Fuck nuggets.” I murmur.
“HEY! I heard that. Keep the profanities to yourself.” He said.
“Well, get out my way!” he helped me up and started laughing.
“Who are you? Ice queen of Greenland?” I snatched my sunglasses from his grip.
“And who are you? Gay dude from ATL?” I challenged. He smirked, which earned a laugh from me.
“Well said, young one.” He draped an arm around my shoulder and turned me around the opposite direction I was heading. We were approaching the ATL bus and I saw some member from SWS and OM&M. “YO! This is,” he looked down to me.
“Ellie. Sorry Not Sorry.”
“ELLIE FROM SORRY NOT SORRY!”he yelled. A short man, taller than me but short, came up to me. He had black hair and it was hard to tell if his eyes were blue or gray. Alex pointed out people. “The dude with the black hair, Kellin from Sleeping with Sirens. Then there’s Jack, Justin, Gabe, and Jesse.” The rest of Sleeping with Sirens waved at me. “Then from my band, there’s Zac, Rian, and my babe over there, Jack!” I waved to them and he towed me along to OM&M.
“Come on! Let’s meet the girl from SNS.” A voice pleaded.
“SNS?” a voice asked. Both voices sounded familiar.
“Sorry Not Sorry. Her name is Ellie.”A red head popped from the bus and his eyes met mine. His mouth dropped as did mine. That meant,
“Dude where is she?” the tall figure looked my way.
No fucking way.
Alex looked at me, but I took off running.
“ELLIE!” I heard multiple voices call after me. But I did not stop. Not until I reached my bus and slammed the door shut. Miley and Max looked up at me. I didn’t say anything to them. I just walked back to my bunk and drew the curtain. I pulled my knees up to my chest and tried to think of an alternative.
There is no fucking alternative, Austin and Alan are part of the band Of Mice & Men so deal with it.
I thought I would never see him again. Now I have to spend a whole fucking summer with him! I opened the window and slipped out. I stayed on the side of the bus because I heard voices by the door.
“Where’s Ellie?” Alex asked.
“In her bunk.” Max replied. I took off running to the other side with the door and ran to the Pierce the Veil bus. It would only be a matter of time before they saw me. I pounded on their door until a tall boy with tattoos and a beanie opened up.
“Where’s Vic?” I asked hurriedly. The voices were getting louder and closer. He pointed to the back where I got on the bus and ran. I ran to the bunk and drew the curtain.
I screamed.
Vic was in his boxers.
“Ellie! What a surprise!” he grabbed some jeans and threw them on. Along with a shirt.
“Sorry, but I was wondering if your offer still stands?” he smiled.
“Of course.” He smirked.
~Austin~
“Come on! Let’s meet the girl from SNS!” Alan pleaded.
“SNS?”
“Yeah. Sorry Not Sorry. The girl name is Ellie I think.” Ellie. Just like the girl I used to date. Alan popped his head out the window where some bands were talking. “Shit.” Alan muttered. I walked past him onto the ground and I heard a familiar laugh. The laugh stopped.
“Dude, where is she?” I walked closer and my mouth hung open. The girl looked at me. Her mouth opened and close. She took off running. Alex looked at me and then chased after her. Alan did the same along with a couple people from Sleeping with Sirens. Kellin came up to me and gave me a dirty look. “What!”
“What did you do to her?” he asked.
“Nothing. But I know her.”
“Who is she?”
“Remember that girl I broke up with?”
“Yeah for no reason. She was really nice and she got along with Alan.”
“That was her.” Kellin laughed.
“No it wasn’t. That girl you were dating had eyes like freaking crystals.”
“Yeah, but she was in a band named Sorry Not Sorry. And when I saw her, she acted as if she knew me and then she ran.”
“It could’ve been a girl from the same named band who was fangirling over you.”
“Only one way to find out. I’m going to her bus.” I walked around the venue until I found the bus titled SNS. Alex was already there.
“Where’s Ellie?” he asked a guy. His eyes kina creep me out. He doesn’t look normal. But I figured he must be stoned.
“In her bunk.” Yup. He smells of weed. Please tell me she isn’t wasting her life with him. We all charged back there and she was nowhere in sight. We all trudge back off the bus where the stoned kid slammed the door and locked it. We started walking by all the merch tents calling her name. We heard the PTV bus slam shut. Damn. Nowhere in sight.
How am I supposed to know if it’s the Ellie or just Ellie?
Alan.
I walked back to our bus and slammed the door shut. Alan was sitting on the couch.
“Was it her?” I snap. He looked up at me and shook his head.
“Just another girl named Ellie.” I tried to look in his eyes, but he avoided me. He’s hiding something.
“Whatever. I’m calling it a night.”
“It’s three in the afternoon. We have a set to do after Pierce the Veil.” He pointed out.
“FINE! I’m going on a walk!” Alan’s shoulder slumped even further. I felt guilty. “Look, ginger,”
“It’s okay. If I saw the love of my life too, I would be pissed off as well.” He gave me a reassuring smile before leaving. I could’ve sworn that was her. That laugh sounded so familiar. The laugh I loved so much. Heck, I still love that laugh. It makes her eyes turn such a pretty blue. Her dyed blonde hair and the way she would cuss at every offending thing. Her favorite word; fuck nuggets. I laugh at the thought of her saying that word.
“Fuck nuggets.” I laugh again. I’m even imaging her saying it.
“Vic where are we going?” there was a thump on our bus. “Shit face.” no. it couldn’t be. I poked my head outside the window a little and I saw Vic, Alex, and that Ellie girl.
“Hey. Who says fuck nuggets?” Alex asked.
“I do. I’m a clumsy girl carrying a guitar with a Mexican wanting to go to a taco truck and you over here laughing every damn time I fall.” The girl looked up, her sunglasses were on.
“You, have a very dirty mouth.” Vic laughed.
“AW, dammit.” She fell and her shoes fell off. I stifled a laugh. While she sat on the ground tying her shoes, they brought up conversation.
~Ellie~
“AW, dammit.” I tripped over my own two feet and fell. While I was tying the lace up on the heels, Alex began talking.
“So, when does your band perform?”
“Uh, let’s see. I know Of Mie & Men go after Pierce the Veil, then it’s All Time Low, I think we go on the Kia Soul stage after Falling In Reverse, then on the Monster Energy stage we go after Sleeping with Sirens.” They helped me back up and we walked towards a taco truck not too far from the venue. Vic orders five tacos. One for each of us. The other two for him. I threw my notebook on the table.
Three words for pain.
Austin Robert Carlile.
Three words for happiness.
Austin Robert Carlile.
Three words for sadness.
Austin Robert Carlile.
Let’s see what I have.
Austin Robert Carlile, Austin Robert Carlile, Austin Robert Carlile.
Huh. Some song.
I used my pen and scratched them all out. Ugh. Austin wouldn’t leave my mind. I hate the past!
The past.
“THAT’S IT!!!!!!” I yelled out of nowhere. I scribbled it down.
It's time to forget about the past
To wash away what happened last
Hide behind an empty face
Don't ask too much, just say
'Cause this is just a game (A/N these are lyrics from 30 Seconds To Mars song~Beautiful Lie, but for now, it’s not.)
I heard music playing back towards the stage.
“What's another burned bridge?
Does it matter?
You weren't there, why do you care?
End the chapter
Loose talk is the enemy of laughter
Light up my cigarette and wait for disaster” Breathe Carolina was playing. I loved this song.
They Say You Won’t Come Back.
“Why are you so hyper?” Alex asked.
“Because Breathe Carolina is playing.” I said while tapping my heel to the beat.
“You have a crush on David?” Vic yelled.
“NO! David is my brother!” they all gave me a stupid look. They looked towards the stage then me. The stage again then me.
“Ohhhhhh.” They say at the same time. I needed a set order. I got permission from my brother to do a cover from one of their songs, Waiting. Then we’re doing Aryan, Lost, But Loved, Breathing From The Other Side and possibly the song I’m working on now.
“It’s a beautiful lie,” I sang. That sounds like a good title. Beautiful Lie.
“Hey, Ellie, since you have a good voice, I was wondering if you could help me with a song.”
“What song?” I asked while jotting down more lyrics.
“Hold On Till May.” I dropped my taco.
“SERIOUSLY!!!!” he nodded. “DUDE I WOULD FUCKING LOVE TOO!!!!!!” this is great attention for our band. Since Hold On Till May was a popular song, maybe other bands would give us attention and our band could get more publicity than we already have! I’ve been at warped for only an hour and I already have two friends! All of our phones beeped at the same time. Time for us to head back. When I got to my bus, I told my band the news.
“Oh my gosh, this is great!” Max yelled. I showed them the set list and the new song I’ve been working on.
“Yes. We are going to kill it!” Miley yelled.
“Now, let’s be Sorry, Not Sorry!!!” it was our little montro. We gather our stuff and rushed to the Kia Soul stage. Falling In Reverse sounded amazing. We still had thirty minutes before we preform so I strolled towards the stage Vic said they we’re playing. Vic introduced me to his brother Mike, and the rest of the ban, Jaime and Tony. Or A.K.A Hime-Time and Turtle. I began to laugh when Jaime kept asking Vic for a kiss.
“But Vic, you know Fuenciado’s love I stronger than Kellic!”I laughed. So many fans wanted Vic and Kellin together, but many fans wanted Jaime and Vic.
“Nice!!!!” someone whistled at me. I turned to see Kellin trudging his way over here. Apparently we had the same thing in mind. Not only were we both wearing Anthem Made tee’s we both liked the idea of wearing a beanie. He took his off and placed it on my head.
“For good luck.”
“Aw, Kellin, don’t give her lice on her first day!” Tony joked.
“Yea, well don’t give her the Mexican disease.” He joked back. A reporter came and shoved past us making me fall into Vic who caught me. His hands were around my waist. I looked at him and smiled while moving out the way.
“Vic! Before the performance start, can you give us some advice for the people out there today.” This caught us all of guard, but what really did was what Vic said next.
“Uh.” He pointed at the camera. “Don’t do drugs, stay out of gangs uhm…….wear condoms.” Everyone’s mouth dropped. “And don’t forget I love you.” Jaime took the mic.
“Does that get the point across?” he asked. Everyone was speechless. The reporter just walked away like it never happened. Of Mice & Men took the stage and I must say, Austin has changed. He was taller, had more tattoos then I last saw. The intro began and they played a song I knew all too well.
“I've said it once or twice,
I'm coming down to show you the way to live with my hand.
Inner me, I know you are killing me from inside.
You can laugh, you can laugh but don't waste my time.
You pessimistic, you cannibal.” Austin took back in control.
“Don't believe me, cause I'm already dead.
Don't believe me, I'll take to the bitter end.
I've been waiting to show you life abundantly.
So, I'll end this talk of who I really am and who I really ought to be.
I won't let you fall back down to the ways that you wanted to escape.
My love, take my hand, I'll show to you everything.
It's not who I am and who you want to.”
“Inner me, I know you are killing me from inside.
You can laugh, you can laugh but don't waste my time.
You pessimistic, you cannibal.”
“For the sake of failing you, my God still lives.
Roll with the pack my God, who will make all wrongs right again?
Roll with the pack my son, who will make wrongs right again? I’ll show you grace like you never have seen. Grace like you never have seen. I'll show you grace I'll. Show you. I'll. Show you grace” he tossed the mic and swung it back. He caught it and began the next song. They did three more songs and Pierce the Veil came. As I was walking up a bit, Alan bumped into me. he was hiding my view from Austin. He put a piece of paper into my hand and hurried off, blocking Austin looking back. Vic walked up to me.
“You know the lyrics right?” I nodded. He walked on stage and thecrowd went wild.
“CITIZENS OF WARPED TWENTY TWELVE, LETS GET FUCKING LOUD!!!!!” the crowd went as loud as possible. “Our first song is a song we all should know well, Hold On Till May!!!” the crowd screamed. “As you all know, the band Sorry Not Sorry is with us, how many of you guys like them!” the crowd went wild again. We have so many fans! “We have the lead singer with us now! She’s going to duet with us on this track! Get out her Ellie!” I walked on stage and girls were crying and screaming at me. Vic hugged me and kissed me on the cheek. They were some “aw’s” a couple of death glares. The song began and Vic’s beautiful voice filled the venue.
“She sits up high surrounded by the sun
One million branches and she loves every one
"Mom and dad, did you search for me?
I've been up here so long I'm going crazy"
And as the sun went down we ended up on the ground
I heard the train shake the windows
You screamed over the sound
And as we own this night
I put your body to the test with mine
This love was out of control
3-2-1 where did it go?
Now don't be crazy
Yes now of course you can stay here.
Been in a touring band for going on ten years.
Big deal, I guess you're official"
I only said it 'cause I know what it's like to feel
Burned out
It gets you down,
We've all been there sometimes
But tonight I'll make you feel beautiful once again
And as the sun went down we ended up on the ground
I heard the train shake the windows
You screamed over the sound
And as we own this night
I put your body to the test with mine
This love was out of control
3-2-1 where did it go?
If I were you, I'd put that away
See, you're just wasted
And thinking about the past again
Darling you'll be okay. And she said;” I got past my nerves and I took the mic.
“If you were me, you'd do the same
'Cause I can't take anymore
I'll draw the shades and close the door
Everything's not alright and I would rather...” Vic looked at me and smiled.
“And as the sun went down we ended up on the ground
I heard the train shake the windows
You screamed over the sound
And as we own this night
I put your body to the test with mine
This love was out of control
Tell me where did it go?” the crowd cheered and again some people “aw-ed.” I ran to make it to the Kia Soul stage on time. As soon as I arrived, Falling In Reverse were just getting off.
“You ready?” I asked. They all nodded. We all ran on stage.
“Are you ready for this shit!!!!” I yelled.
Notes
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12/30/14