Who Will I Be For My Daughter?
I Hope For The Best
One Year Later
“Austin are you ready?” I tugged on the dress that clung to me. We were invited to an awards party slash interview thing LA for the night and we’d been here three days. Mia had had to stay with my parents because the awards show wouldn’t allow for children.
“I’m coming, love.” Austin appeared out of the bathroom with a glass of whiskey in his right hand. I took the glass from him, took a sip and placed it on the table in the lounge. He wrapped his arm around my back and dipped me low before kissing me.
“You make that dress look stunning, baby.” He whispered in my ear before standing us up. I smiled at him and left the room. We met Phil, Izzy, Alan, Gus, Tino, Angela and Aaron in the lobby before we took a car to the other hotel that the awards ceremony was being held in.
When we were shown to our seat I headed to the bathroom before I sat down. These last few days I’d been feeling queasy and was worried that something was wrong. I’d only just made it into the bathroom stall when I threw up into the toilet.
“No…” I whispered as realisation dawned on me. This couldn’t be happening again. I didn’t want this to happen again. It was just too soon. I stood in front of the mirror and washed my face with a paper towel when the door came open. Izzy stood in the doorway with a smile on her face, she noticed my distress before coming to hug me.
“What’s wrong, Taylor?”
“I think I’m pregnant. I can’t do this again, what if something bad happens again?” I asked her with a worried glance towards the door. I didn’t want anyone else coming in and finding out my predicament.
“Taylor just breathe for me. Everything is going to fine. We just need to find out if you are first.” Izzy rubbed her hands together before handing me a mint.
“Don’t tell Austin yet. I know how badly he wants another baby.”
“Your secret is safe with me now let’s get back out there.” She smiled and slung her arm around my shoulders as we exited the bathroom. A glass of wine was on the table and I cast a look towards Izzy who winked at me before rubbing her cheeks.
“Taylor, have you heard that wine is supposed to increase spots?”
“No, I hadn’t.” I smiled at her and pushed the glass away before hailing the waiter. We ordered two cokes before the ceremony started and Austin leant over and whispered in my ear.
“Are you okay, babe?”
“I’m fine.” I kissed his cheek and he smiled at me. I couldn’t deal with the stress of having another baby. Mia had just turned four and I wasn’t ready for another baby. I’d let Austin have his way last time because I knew how badly he wanted one but I was nervous that something was going to go wrong with him or her.
Austin wrapped his arm around my shoulder and I leant my head on his arm as the person announced the awards for something. The band won one but I wasn’t really paying attention to it because I was worried about everything.
“I’m going to go back to the hotel, you can stay.” I said to him as I stood after the awards. There was an after party but I wasn’t really interested in staying.
“I can come back with you.” He said as he twined his hand with mine and kissed the top of my hand.
“No, I’m just going to go by myself. Stay.” I smiled at him before standing on my tip toes to kiss him. He kissed me back and his hand ran up the side of my leg with a wink before kissing the end of my nose and turning towards Alan and Gus who were on the dance floor.
I left the hotel but made a stop before going to back to the hotel we were staying at. I stood in the drugstore and stared at the amount of pregnancy tests that were on the shelves. With a sigh I grabbed the most expensive one since I assumed it would be the best and paid quickly before heading back to the hotel.
I quickly changed into a nightdress that had been left on the bed from the previous night and headed into the bathroom with the test. As I waited for the test to show me what was going on I paced in the bathroom with my hands behind my back, the two minutes were up and I turned to look at the little dial the same time the bathroom door opened.
“Austin are you ready?” I tugged on the dress that clung to me. We were invited to an awards party slash interview thing LA for the night and we’d been here three days. Mia had had to stay with my parents because the awards show wouldn’t allow for children.
“I’m coming, love.” Austin appeared out of the bathroom with a glass of whiskey in his right hand. I took the glass from him, took a sip and placed it on the table in the lounge. He wrapped his arm around my back and dipped me low before kissing me.
“You make that dress look stunning, baby.” He whispered in my ear before standing us up. I smiled at him and left the room. We met Phil, Izzy, Alan, Gus, Tino, Angela and Aaron in the lobby before we took a car to the other hotel that the awards ceremony was being held in.
When we were shown to our seat I headed to the bathroom before I sat down. These last few days I’d been feeling queasy and was worried that something was wrong. I’d only just made it into the bathroom stall when I threw up into the toilet.
“No…” I whispered as realisation dawned on me. This couldn’t be happening again. I didn’t want this to happen again. It was just too soon. I stood in front of the mirror and washed my face with a paper towel when the door came open. Izzy stood in the doorway with a smile on her face, she noticed my distress before coming to hug me.
“What’s wrong, Taylor?”
“I think I’m pregnant. I can’t do this again, what if something bad happens again?” I asked her with a worried glance towards the door. I didn’t want anyone else coming in and finding out my predicament.
“Taylor just breathe for me. Everything is going to fine. We just need to find out if you are first.” Izzy rubbed her hands together before handing me a mint.
“Don’t tell Austin yet. I know how badly he wants another baby.”
“Your secret is safe with me now let’s get back out there.” She smiled and slung her arm around my shoulders as we exited the bathroom. A glass of wine was on the table and I cast a look towards Izzy who winked at me before rubbing her cheeks.
“Taylor, have you heard that wine is supposed to increase spots?”
“No, I hadn’t.” I smiled at her and pushed the glass away before hailing the waiter. We ordered two cokes before the ceremony started and Austin leant over and whispered in my ear.
“Are you okay, babe?”
“I’m fine.” I kissed his cheek and he smiled at me. I couldn’t deal with the stress of having another baby. Mia had just turned four and I wasn’t ready for another baby. I’d let Austin have his way last time because I knew how badly he wanted one but I was nervous that something was going to go wrong with him or her.
Austin wrapped his arm around my shoulder and I leant my head on his arm as the person announced the awards for something. The band won one but I wasn’t really paying attention to it because I was worried about everything.
“I’m going to go back to the hotel, you can stay.” I said to him as I stood after the awards. There was an after party but I wasn’t really interested in staying.
“I can come back with you.” He said as he twined his hand with mine and kissed the top of my hand.
“No, I’m just going to go by myself. Stay.” I smiled at him before standing on my tip toes to kiss him. He kissed me back and his hand ran up the side of my leg with a wink before kissing the end of my nose and turning towards Alan and Gus who were on the dance floor.
I left the hotel but made a stop before going to back to the hotel we were staying at. I stood in the drugstore and stared at the amount of pregnancy tests that were on the shelves. With a sigh I grabbed the most expensive one since I assumed it would be the best and paid quickly before heading back to the hotel.
I quickly changed into a nightdress that had been left on the bed from the previous night and headed into the bathroom with the test. As I waited for the test to show me what was going on I paced in the bathroom with my hands behind my back, the two minutes were up and I turned to look at the little dial the same time the bathroom door opened.
Notes
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10/6/14