Just give up you'll never be good enough
All this time I was finding myself and I didn't know I was lost.
-6 months later-
It was exactly one week away from Austin's birthday, he was currently out with Alan whom had dragged him to the pet store looking for a cat, which was perfect for us to plan out his 25th, turning 25 isn't exactly a big deal but since it's my first birthday with him I want it to be a big deal, call me a clingy girlfriend or what ever you want, I just want to let my baby know I love him.
Tino, Phil Aaron and I were currently sitting in his my lounge discussing his party, which won't be a surprise party we'll be all chill about it, surely he won't mind; he shouldn't mind he gets me to go clubbing with him all the time even if I have work.
Austin's birthday falls on a Friday which is perfect, I have the day off on Friday and Saturday and I work the other days so this is perfect, Austin and I don't live together, we used to for about a month just until I was able to find an apartment for me, which I have it's not too far from Austin's and very close to my work, James and I resolved our problems even though I still haven't fully forgiven him, a part of me will always love him because of the way that we were brought together, I've never seen anything like that, normally something like how our relationship started would just be a one night stand and maybe a few more quick fucks, but instead it lead into something more.
I just hope Austin and I are together for a long time, I feel right with him, he makes me happy and I make him happy, we know just what to do to cheer one another up, we always have a good time when we're together, and there is no deprivation of sex.
"So how does that sound?" Aaron asked, I nodded even though I had no idea what they said,
"You guys know Austin the best, so I'm going to let yous do this okay? I'll be back, I need to make a quick phone call" I said smiling as I grabbed the land line and my cigarettes and made my way to the deck, I pulled a smoke out and brought it too my lips lighting it immediately, i took a few puffs then butted it out half way, I brought the phone up and started calling work.
"Welcome to create ink'd, Steve Wills here" he said cheerfully
"Hey Steve, It's me Cara-Lee"
"Oh hey! What's up?" He asked joyfully
"I was wondering if I could come in to work, to hang and maybe do some jobs, no pay though" I sighed
"What's wrong Cara? Aren't you supposed to be planning Austin's birthday?" I could hear the worry in his voice, I always can when he talks with me, I love Steve, he's just like my brother.
"I-just feel like I'm too clingy with Austin, and his friends know what he'd like at a party and they know how to throw them, I only know how to throw 16 year old girl parties; and honestly I think they would do a better job than I would." There was a long pause before he spoke up, I could tell he was mentally arguing with himself, deciding on what to say to me and making sure it's the right thing because he knows when I'm stuck like this and turn to him I'll do exactly what he says,
"Just come over, there's some fish for you to feed" he added in a laugh which lightened the intensity.
"Thank you, I'll be there soon" I smiled as I hung up the phone, I grabbed the rest of my smoke and re-lit it I ran inside puffing on my smoke still, naughty I know I never smoke inside and I never allow anyone else to either "I have to go fill in for someone at work, yous can stay here love yous!" I called out as I tore off my pajamas which I still had on, I quickly puffed on my cigarette before chucking it out the window, I ran over to the pile of clean clothes that lay neatly on my lazy chair and picked out some I guess you could say revealing clothes, it's too hot to be covering up, I messed up my hair and left my face makeup less, I ran back out to the lounge where the boys were and said goodbye.
I grabbed my bag and made sure I had everything, I went out on the deck and grabbed my smokes before heading out to my car, I felt bad for leaving the boys on their own but they've done it plenty times before, I haven't.
"Hey Steve!" I smiled as I walked through the doors of create ink'd
"Hey darling" he smiled coming to greet me with a hug which I gladly took part in "the fish need feeding love" he laughed pointing over to the fish, a huge smile appeared and I ran behind the counter to get the fish food.
"Thank you" I said as I poured too much fish food into the fish tank,
"For what?" He asked handing me a bottle of water from the back,
"For everything, you've always been there for me even in the beginning, you hardly knew me and you helped me through the hard times with James"
"And you never listened when I told you to dump him yet you'd listen if I told you to jump into a pool of blades" he laughed
"Don't judge me!" I laughed, I placed my bag behind the counter and grabbed my smokes out, "care to join?" I asked, he nodded and we both headed outside, I handed him a cigarette and the lighter then lit my own smoke, it felt good, in thee past few weeks we've been so busy Steve and I have had hardly anytime to just hang and be ourselves.
"Steeeeve?" I looked over at him and battered my lashes
"Cara-Leeeeeeeeeee?" He looked over at me doing the same thing
"Do you want to come to Austin's party next week?" I flicked my butt on the ground as he fake gasped
"Did the she-beast just invite me to a party!" He said in a posh manner "I'm astonished!"
I couldn't contain my laughter "so do you or don't you!" I swear tears were about to be rolling down my face any minute if he continued to act fancy ad all posh, because a guy like him? Never.
"Sure why not" he shrugged, "he seems like a pretty chill guy, haven't heard bad about him... yet" I rolled my eyes and made my way inside, being sure to push Steve out of my way in the process.
It was exactly one week away from Austin's birthday, he was currently out with Alan whom had dragged him to the pet store looking for a cat, which was perfect for us to plan out his 25th, turning 25 isn't exactly a big deal but since it's my first birthday with him I want it to be a big deal, call me a clingy girlfriend or what ever you want, I just want to let my baby know I love him.
Tino, Phil Aaron and I were currently sitting in his my lounge discussing his party, which won't be a surprise party we'll be all chill about it, surely he won't mind; he shouldn't mind he gets me to go clubbing with him all the time even if I have work.
Austin's birthday falls on a Friday which is perfect, I have the day off on Friday and Saturday and I work the other days so this is perfect, Austin and I don't live together, we used to for about a month just until I was able to find an apartment for me, which I have it's not too far from Austin's and very close to my work, James and I resolved our problems even though I still haven't fully forgiven him, a part of me will always love him because of the way that we were brought together, I've never seen anything like that, normally something like how our relationship started would just be a one night stand and maybe a few more quick fucks, but instead it lead into something more.
I just hope Austin and I are together for a long time, I feel right with him, he makes me happy and I make him happy, we know just what to do to cheer one another up, we always have a good time when we're together, and there is no deprivation of sex.
"So how does that sound?" Aaron asked, I nodded even though I had no idea what they said,
"You guys know Austin the best, so I'm going to let yous do this okay? I'll be back, I need to make a quick phone call" I said smiling as I grabbed the land line and my cigarettes and made my way to the deck, I pulled a smoke out and brought it too my lips lighting it immediately, i took a few puffs then butted it out half way, I brought the phone up and started calling work.
"Welcome to create ink'd, Steve Wills here" he said cheerfully
"Hey Steve, It's me Cara-Lee"
"Oh hey! What's up?" He asked joyfully
"I was wondering if I could come in to work, to hang and maybe do some jobs, no pay though" I sighed
"What's wrong Cara? Aren't you supposed to be planning Austin's birthday?" I could hear the worry in his voice, I always can when he talks with me, I love Steve, he's just like my brother.
"I-just feel like I'm too clingy with Austin, and his friends know what he'd like at a party and they know how to throw them, I only know how to throw 16 year old girl parties; and honestly I think they would do a better job than I would." There was a long pause before he spoke up, I could tell he was mentally arguing with himself, deciding on what to say to me and making sure it's the right thing because he knows when I'm stuck like this and turn to him I'll do exactly what he says,
"Just come over, there's some fish for you to feed" he added in a laugh which lightened the intensity.
"Thank you, I'll be there soon" I smiled as I hung up the phone, I grabbed the rest of my smoke and re-lit it I ran inside puffing on my smoke still, naughty I know I never smoke inside and I never allow anyone else to either "I have to go fill in for someone at work, yous can stay here love yous!" I called out as I tore off my pajamas which I still had on, I quickly puffed on my cigarette before chucking it out the window, I ran over to the pile of clean clothes that lay neatly on my lazy chair and picked out some I guess you could say revealing clothes, it's too hot to be covering up, I messed up my hair and left my face makeup less, I ran back out to the lounge where the boys were and said goodbye.
I grabbed my bag and made sure I had everything, I went out on the deck and grabbed my smokes before heading out to my car, I felt bad for leaving the boys on their own but they've done it plenty times before, I haven't.
"Hey Steve!" I smiled as I walked through the doors of create ink'd
"Hey darling" he smiled coming to greet me with a hug which I gladly took part in "the fish need feeding love" he laughed pointing over to the fish, a huge smile appeared and I ran behind the counter to get the fish food.
"Thank you" I said as I poured too much fish food into the fish tank,
"For what?" He asked handing me a bottle of water from the back,
"For everything, you've always been there for me even in the beginning, you hardly knew me and you helped me through the hard times with James"
"And you never listened when I told you to dump him yet you'd listen if I told you to jump into a pool of blades" he laughed
"Don't judge me!" I laughed, I placed my bag behind the counter and grabbed my smokes out, "care to join?" I asked, he nodded and we both headed outside, I handed him a cigarette and the lighter then lit my own smoke, it felt good, in thee past few weeks we've been so busy Steve and I have had hardly anytime to just hang and be ourselves.
"Steeeeve?" I looked over at him and battered my lashes
"Cara-Leeeeeeeeeee?" He looked over at me doing the same thing
"Do you want to come to Austin's party next week?" I flicked my butt on the ground as he fake gasped
"Did the she-beast just invite me to a party!" He said in a posh manner "I'm astonished!"
I couldn't contain my laughter "so do you or don't you!" I swear tears were about to be rolling down my face any minute if he continued to act fancy ad all posh, because a guy like him? Never.
"Sure why not" he shrugged, "he seems like a pretty chill guy, haven't heard bad about him... yet" I rolled my eyes and made my way inside, being sure to push Steve out of my way in the process.
Notes
Okay just want to make it clear that in this story of mice and men aren't big and famous, they're just a small local band, because fuck writing about all that tour shit and warped and shit bcos I don't know anything about it and I have no idea what warped is like since it doesn't come to nz :'( yes i cri forever and ever.well i hope you enjoy this filler, it's just to show part of her and Steve's friendship, next update will be austins party
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I CHAANGED AUSTIN'S PICTURE NOW HE'S HOTTER IN THE STORY I ALSO CHANGED JAMES'S AS WELL BECAUSE I WANTED HIM TO BE SEXIER AS WELL AND I RECKON STEVE IS PRETTY HOT TOO AAAGGGHHH FUCKING HORMONES!
-kingashhole
11/26/13