This One's For You
All I Wanted Was You
When I woke up Austin wasn't there but this time there was a note and the yellow flower. I looked at my cellphone, it was noon. I opened up the note, smelling the flower, it said "Hey sorry, had to go on stage. I'll be back around 12:30." At least he left a note this time. So I guess I sorted out my feelings. I like Austin, I really do. And he likes me too right? He doesn't seem like someone who would play me. I wish I had someone to talk to about all of this. But I've got no friends and my family shut me out years ago.
After thinking and going back and forth with myself, I eventually went to the back lounge and started watching The Princess and the Frog. Eventually the boys were all back except for Austin they said he was helping someone out. "Hey Alan, come watch The Princess and The Frog with me?" He smiled and walked over to the couch and plopped down next to me.
"Hey, Alan?" He held his hand up, signaling for me to be quiet. He looked so into the movie, it was cute actually. He finally turned to me after a few minutes,
"Sorry. I just really like Disney movies. So what'd you need?"
"I, I don't really know anyone, and I was wondering if I could just talk to you. If you're not cool with that, that's okay too." He turned towards me, giving me his full attention. I paused the movie, not wanting him to miss anything.
"Okay well. I'm just extremely confused. I like Austin, well at least I think I do. He's been sweet and kind, but I don't know if he really likes me or if this is just some game to get into my pants. Because if it is I'm not okay with that. I'm not just some girl who he can sleep with and never talk to. I'm not like that, I'm not like that..." I started to cry, I don't even know why I'm crying. Alan pulled me into him smoothing down my hair.
"You aren't just some girl to him I promise. He really does like you. He never shuts up about you. I mean, I like you too but he likes you so much more. Don't worry okay?" We sat like that for awhile until I stopped crying then turned the movie back on. Not soon after Austin walked in and sat down pulling me into his lap. I leaned back into him and kissed him on the cheek.
~~~ALAN'S POV~~~
When we got back from our set Ciara was on the couch watching another Disney movie. I love Disney movies. She looked so beautiful sitting there, laughing at the tv screen, I wish I could be the reason for that smile. She looked up and called me over to the back lounge.
"Hey Alan, come watch The Princess and The Frog with me?" I walked over and sat next to her, trying to be as close to her as possible but not too close.
"Hey, Alan?" I told her to hold on, not because I didn't want to miss the movie but because I knew she was going to talk to me about Austin. She likes him. I already know that, but I wish I was the one she liked. I guess it's time for the inevitable.
"Sorry. I just really like Disney movies. So what'd you need?"
"I, I don't really know anyone, and I was wondering if I could just talk to you. If you're not cool with that, that's okay too." Here it is. the part where she confesses how much she likes Austin and how she wants to be with him. She paused the movie, she must've really believed me when I said I didn't want to miss the movie, I mean I don't but still.
"Okay well. I'm just extremely confused. I like Austin, well at least I think I do. He's been sweet and kind, but I don't know if he really likes me or if this is just some game to get into my pants. Because if it is I'm not okay with that. I'm not just some girl who he can sleep with and never talk to. I'm not like that, I'm not like that..." She started crying, I hate seeing her cry. I pulled her close to me holding her in my arms and started to smooth down her hair. I loved having her in my arms, I wish I was the person she wanted in her arms, but I'm not Austin.
"You aren't just some girl to him I promise. He really does like you. He never shuts up about you. I mean, I like you too but he likes you so much more. Don't worry okay?" She isn't some girl to me either. Austin doesn't like her more than I do. I know that. After she stopped crying I let her go and we started to watch the movie again. Eventually Austin came back and pulled Ciara into his lap. She looked so happy. She kissed him on the cheek and turned back to the tv. I want to be the one she sits with, and kisses, and trusts and loves.
After thinking and going back and forth with myself, I eventually went to the back lounge and started watching The Princess and the Frog. Eventually the boys were all back except for Austin they said he was helping someone out. "Hey Alan, come watch The Princess and The Frog with me?" He smiled and walked over to the couch and plopped down next to me.
"Hey, Alan?" He held his hand up, signaling for me to be quiet. He looked so into the movie, it was cute actually. He finally turned to me after a few minutes,
"Sorry. I just really like Disney movies. So what'd you need?"
"I, I don't really know anyone, and I was wondering if I could just talk to you. If you're not cool with that, that's okay too." He turned towards me, giving me his full attention. I paused the movie, not wanting him to miss anything.
"Okay well. I'm just extremely confused. I like Austin, well at least I think I do. He's been sweet and kind, but I don't know if he really likes me or if this is just some game to get into my pants. Because if it is I'm not okay with that. I'm not just some girl who he can sleep with and never talk to. I'm not like that, I'm not like that..." I started to cry, I don't even know why I'm crying. Alan pulled me into him smoothing down my hair.
"You aren't just some girl to him I promise. He really does like you. He never shuts up about you. I mean, I like you too but he likes you so much more. Don't worry okay?" We sat like that for awhile until I stopped crying then turned the movie back on. Not soon after Austin walked in and sat down pulling me into his lap. I leaned back into him and kissed him on the cheek.
~~~ALAN'S POV~~~
When we got back from our set Ciara was on the couch watching another Disney movie. I love Disney movies. She looked so beautiful sitting there, laughing at the tv screen, I wish I could be the reason for that smile. She looked up and called me over to the back lounge.
"Hey Alan, come watch The Princess and The Frog with me?" I walked over and sat next to her, trying to be as close to her as possible but not too close.
"Hey, Alan?" I told her to hold on, not because I didn't want to miss the movie but because I knew she was going to talk to me about Austin. She likes him. I already know that, but I wish I was the one she liked. I guess it's time for the inevitable.
"Sorry. I just really like Disney movies. So what'd you need?"
"I, I don't really know anyone, and I was wondering if I could just talk to you. If you're not cool with that, that's okay too." Here it is. the part where she confesses how much she likes Austin and how she wants to be with him. She paused the movie, she must've really believed me when I said I didn't want to miss the movie, I mean I don't but still.
"Okay well. I'm just extremely confused. I like Austin, well at least I think I do. He's been sweet and kind, but I don't know if he really likes me or if this is just some game to get into my pants. Because if it is I'm not okay with that. I'm not just some girl who he can sleep with and never talk to. I'm not like that, I'm not like that..." She started crying, I hate seeing her cry. I pulled her close to me holding her in my arms and started to smooth down her hair. I loved having her in my arms, I wish I was the person she wanted in her arms, but I'm not Austin.
"You aren't just some girl to him I promise. He really does like you. He never shuts up about you. I mean, I like you too but he likes you so much more. Don't worry okay?" She isn't some girl to me either. Austin doesn't like her more than I do. I know that. After she stopped crying I let her go and we started to watch the movie again. Eventually Austin came back and pulled Ciara into his lap. She looked so happy. She kissed him on the cheek and turned back to the tv. I want to be the one she sits with, and kisses, and trusts and loves.
Notes
Thank you guys for reading. It means a lot to me. It really does. Let me know what guys thought about the Alan POV thing. Was it okay? I've never written from a guys POV before.TITLE CREDIT- Paramore - All I Wanted
10/25/13