This One's For You
I Used To Have A Best Friend
After Phil so politely walked in on us I kicked Austin out of my bed and took a nap for a few hours. When I woke up it was dark out so I decided to not getting out of bed. "You awake?" Alan popped his head out from his bunk across from mine,
"No, I'm dead." I could see him smiling at me, his shoulders shaking just the slightest bit. He got out of his bunk, and I sat up giving him some space next to me in the bunk. He settled in next to me and looked up at the glow in the dark stars that Austin put up for me,
"You know, I told him, I told him to put the stars on the ceiling of your bunk. I thought you would like it." I reached out to put my hand on his shoulder, Alan, he was the one behind Austin's big gesture. All the stars, everything was Alan, I bet Austin even had him write up some script for him, things to say to me. I pulled my hand away.
"I, thank-" Before I could finish what I was going to say Alan's lips were crashing into mine and his hands were resting on my hips, I started kissing him back, everything just felt so right. Alan pulled away and looked back up and my make-shift night sky.
"Alan, just tell me this, did you help him out with other things, give him any other suggestions?" I looked at me and nodded. I knew it. I knew it was all too good. Before I knew it I was crying, my mascara smearing down my face.
"I'm, I'm just the girl who got raped twice at warped tour and has a boyfriend who doesn't really love me. Why me, I can't catch a goddam break! Why me, why me?" He pulled me into his arms and shushed me,
"I know it's not going to seem like it, but you're going to be okay. Maybe not today, maybe not next week, but you'll be okay. I promise. You'll be fine." I pulled away and looked up at him, it was him. It wasn't really Austin, it was Alan. I leaned in and kissed him, soft, then hard, this felt so right. Well, it felt right until Austin walked and saw my face on Alan's face.
"Shit, Austin. It's not what it looks like, I mean it is but it's not." He just stood there staring at me. Shaking his head at me.
"Ciara, I, what happened? I thought we loved each other, we never really said it but I thought we had something real. I guess I was wrong. You're just the girl who makes out with her boyfriend's best friend. I was wrong I was so, so wrong about you." He turned away and walked off the bus, Alan immediately followed him running off the bus to catch him. I stared at my night sky, I messed up. I messed up. I did more than mess up. I fucked up big time. I need to talk to someone, I need someone other than Austin to yell at me. Someone to tell me how badly I fucked up. I need to talk to Vic. I walked off the bus and made my way to the PTV bus.
When I got to the bus I knocked and sat on the ground, waiting for someone to answer. Tony opened the door and saw me sitting on the ground. "I'll get Vic, I hope your okay." When Vic came out he sat on the ground next to me,
"I heard what happened. And what you did was wrong, doing that to Austin, you killed him. And Alan, you killed him too. And they're both pissed at each other, and to be honest I'm surprised someone didn't get their head ripped off. This isn't just going to go away. They aren't just forget the fact that they betrayed each other, and Austin isn't going to just forgive you either. They both love you. And when everything gets back to normal you're going to have to make a decision."
"No, I'm dead." I could see him smiling at me, his shoulders shaking just the slightest bit. He got out of his bunk, and I sat up giving him some space next to me in the bunk. He settled in next to me and looked up at the glow in the dark stars that Austin put up for me,
"You know, I told him, I told him to put the stars on the ceiling of your bunk. I thought you would like it." I reached out to put my hand on his shoulder, Alan, he was the one behind Austin's big gesture. All the stars, everything was Alan, I bet Austin even had him write up some script for him, things to say to me. I pulled my hand away.
"I, thank-" Before I could finish what I was going to say Alan's lips were crashing into mine and his hands were resting on my hips, I started kissing him back, everything just felt so right. Alan pulled away and looked back up and my make-shift night sky.
"Alan, just tell me this, did you help him out with other things, give him any other suggestions?" I looked at me and nodded. I knew it. I knew it was all too good. Before I knew it I was crying, my mascara smearing down my face.
"I'm, I'm just the girl who got raped twice at warped tour and has a boyfriend who doesn't really love me. Why me, I can't catch a goddam break! Why me, why me?" He pulled me into his arms and shushed me,
"I know it's not going to seem like it, but you're going to be okay. Maybe not today, maybe not next week, but you'll be okay. I promise. You'll be fine." I pulled away and looked up at him, it was him. It wasn't really Austin, it was Alan. I leaned in and kissed him, soft, then hard, this felt so right. Well, it felt right until Austin walked and saw my face on Alan's face.
"Shit, Austin. It's not what it looks like, I mean it is but it's not." He just stood there staring at me. Shaking his head at me.
"Ciara, I, what happened? I thought we loved each other, we never really said it but I thought we had something real. I guess I was wrong. You're just the girl who makes out with her boyfriend's best friend. I was wrong I was so, so wrong about you." He turned away and walked off the bus, Alan immediately followed him running off the bus to catch him. I stared at my night sky, I messed up. I messed up. I did more than mess up. I fucked up big time. I need to talk to someone, I need someone other than Austin to yell at me. Someone to tell me how badly I fucked up. I need to talk to Vic. I walked off the bus and made my way to the PTV bus.
When I got to the bus I knocked and sat on the ground, waiting for someone to answer. Tony opened the door and saw me sitting on the ground. "I'll get Vic, I hope your okay." When Vic came out he sat on the ground next to me,
"I heard what happened. And what you did was wrong, doing that to Austin, you killed him. And Alan, you killed him too. And they're both pissed at each other, and to be honest I'm surprised someone didn't get their head ripped off. This isn't just going to go away. They aren't just forget the fact that they betrayed each other, and Austin isn't going to just forgive you either. They both love you. And when everything gets back to normal you're going to have to make a decision."
Notes
DRAMAAAA. Alright well, I'm trying to pick the story back up again so yeah. My laptop is about to die, so I must go now.TITLE CREDIT- Asking Alexandria - I Used To Have A Best Friend (But Then He Gave Me An STD)
10/25/13