This One's For You

Doctors visits were always a bit uncomfortable, but being at the gynecologist wearing only a paper gown really tops it. A few days after finding out that I was pregnant, I made an appointment with my OBGYN to confirm my pregnancy and now here I was waiting for her.

Being pregnant still hasn't processed in my mind. I close my eyes and try to pretend this is all a dream, but then reality hits me and I can't ignore the fact that I have a child growing inside of me. A child that is half of me and half of Austin which made my heart ache. I had no idea how Austin would react to this news when I tell him. Who knows if he would want to be involved now that he has a girlfriend? And how would she feel about all of this? I've never met her before, so I had no idea what she is like and I don't want her to view me in a harsh way once she found out about all of this.

The situation was a complete mess and I had no way of coming about to fix it.

Abrupt knocking on the door interrupted my thoughts. "Hi, Jordan!" My doctor cheerfully greets. "So, we looked over your urine sample and we're able to confirm the pregnancy." She explains and nodded, expecting that. "Now we'll do an ultrasound to check on the baby, to see how far along you are and give an estimate on the due date."

She asks me to lie back on the bed while she sets up the equipment for the ultrasound. For once, not a thought is running through my mind, but my stomach is a bundle of nerves. "Can you pull up the gown?" My stomach is exposed and I'm left in my underwear. She places warm gel on my stomach before moving the probe around.

"Do you see that?" She asks, pointing at a tiny peanut looking thing. "That's your baby."

My mouth drops open as I look at the screen. Seeing the baby now really put things into prospective for me now. There was my child, teeny tiny but still there.

"I would say you're around seven weeks which places you being due around November 16th." She explains. "Baby looks perfectly healthy!"

In seven short months, this little baby will be here and that sounds insane. I'm going to be a mom soon, something I thought wouldn't happen in my life. But here I was, looking at my unborn child on the ultrasound screen. Even if Austin didn't want to stick around, I would keep it together for this little peanut because I'm already starting to love it.

"Would you like some pictures?"

"Yes." I replied with no hesitation.

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