Pregnant 5-8 Weeks

A gasp followed by a gut wrenching sob escapes from my mouth. Pregnant? Of course I knew that I had a feeling, but I never expected the test to come back positive. I fell down to the floor and put my head in my hands as I continued to cry. No way was I ready to be a mother and how would I tell Austin?

A knocking on the bathroom door startled me and stopped my crying. "Jordan? What are you doing in there?" My friend Megan questions. "I feel like you've been in there forever!"

Quickly, I stood up and wiped away the tears and threw the pregnancy test in the trash. I braced myself before opening the door to find Megan on the other side.

"Finally!" She exclaims before walking into the bathroom, but then stops. "Oh! Austin called you by the way. Said he misses you and wants to get together soon. You should really stop avoiding him, Jordan."

And with that, she shut the door leaving me still upset and frustrated.

Sighing heavily, I made my way to my bedroom and laid down on the bed to cry once again. My thoughts were jumbled between my pregnancy, mine and Austin's relationship, and what I was going to do. Between my over thinking and continued crying, I soon tired myself out and fell asleep.

***

Waking up the next morning, I found myself emotionally exhausted and knew that feeling was not going to end anytime soon. After laying in bed for awhile, I decided to finally get up and try to eat something even though I would most likely throw it up soon after. Tiredly, I walked into the kitchen and started making myself some toast, not knowing that someone else was sitting at the bar.

“Jordan.”

A loud shriek came out of my mouth at the sound of the deep voice calling my name. I whipped around to see Austin sitting at the bar and silently cursed myself. Of course he would just show up unannounced after I found out this huge news.

“What the fuck Austin?!” I spat, “You not only show up here unannounced, but you also scare the shit out of me as well.”

He rolled his eyes, probably thinking that I was being dramatic 'Like Always.' “Well, maybe if you would answer my calls I wouldn't show up unannounced and 'scare you.”

This time, I rolled my eyes and decided to ignore him by fetching some fruit and milk out of the fridge to go along with my breakfast. “So, you're just going to act like I'm not here?” He asks and I shrug. He was starting to get frustrated, but I wasn't ready to talk to him right now. “Okay, what the fuck did I do, Jordan?!” He shouts.

I popped a blueberry in my mouth and shook my head at him. “Nothing, you didn't do anything.” That was a total lie, you hurt me badly by getting a girlfriend and you got me pregnant.

“You can't lie to me. I know when you are lying.” He pushed, “Are you mad that I ended things with you because I met Pamela?”

“God, no!” I exclaimed, but really I was upset.

“Then what is it? What could I have done to make you want to avoid me so badly? I thought we were friends and could tell each other anything?”

You certainly do not want to know what I'm keeping a secret, Austin. I wasn't ready to tell him that I'm pregnant. I haven't fully processed it myself, so how could I tell him and help him process it as well?

“I told you it was nothing!”

My frustration was growing and I had no idea how much longer I could deal with him at the moment.

“Jordan-”

“Fuck you, Austin! Just leave me alone!”

Hormones must be hitting me because I had never been so rude or mean to Austin during our friendship. I scowled before leaving the kitchen and heading back into my bedroom to get away from Austin. I slammed my door shut behind me and slid down to the floor and cried once again. When did everything become such a mess?

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