A Life Worth Living

It’s been three days since I really talked to Austin. When I went home that day after work I tried to confront Austin. But he kept dodging the questions and I knew he was lying to me. We ended up having a huge fight and he stormed of the house. All I could do was cry and hold my sweet baby Sunny. After a couple of hours I ran up the stairs and packed up as much clothes as I could and some essentials and some art supplies for work. I packed up most of Sunny’s stuff as well and took it out to my car. I wrote and left it on Austin’s pillow.

“Austin,
I’m sorry but I cannot handle this right now. I don’t even know if we can work this one out. Sunny and I will hopefully be staying with Alan for a little while. I may be pissed at you but she is still your child. You can come see her when you want. Just let me know in advance.

-Charlotte

P.S
This is was harder than you think because I really do love you… What happened?”

Alan understood my reasoning and is letting me stay with him for a bit. His place was actually pretty cool and Sunny seemed to like it. Even though she missed Austin so much. She won’t even sleep unless I put on one of his songs but, Austin is coming by today to see her. I texted him and asked if he wanted to spend time with her while I went to work. Alan was playing with her and the kitten he just got. I could hear them both giggling from downstairs. I brushed my hair and did my makeup. As I was getting dressed I found one of Austin’s old beanies at the bottom of my suitcase. I picked it up and engulfed my senses in it and it smelled just like Austin. I missed him so much. I threw on his beanie as I heard a car pull up. I ran down the hall to see out the window, and as I suspected it was Austin. He really looks kind of awful. He looks like he hasn’t slept at all and he certainly hasn’t shaved.. I watched his as he walked up the door and knocked. I heard Alan sigh and get up. I heard an awkward exchange of words followed by Sunny squealing and Austin laughing “Hi, babygirl. Daddy loves you so much. I missed you.”

“Where’s Charlotte?” I heard Austin ask sheepishly.

“I think she’s still getting ready to go to work. She’s gonna be late.” “Charlotte you better not be late for work, dude!!”

“I’m coming” I yelled as I jogged down the stairs. My eyes met with Austin’s and his eyes widened and softened as I smiled. He looked at me for a second as I stepped off the stairs and he noticed his beanie on my head. I looked up at him and couldn’t help but smile. As he reached out to touch my arm my smile faded and I had to look away. I’m still upset by what happened and he never told me the whole truth. I walked over to Alan and hugged him goodbye and as I walked out the door I turned to wave at Austin. He looked so hurt and broken and I just couldn’t look at him any longer. I ran to my car and got in and drove down the block. I pulled over and started bawling my eyes out. All I wanted to do was jump into his arms and tell him how much he means to me and to forgive him. But I just couldn’t.

Notes

I've been feeling motivated to write! Second update in one week. Thanks to those who have read my story so far!