Great Fun at Belmont High.
Is this really what you needed
A/N: okay just quickly saying this is a trigger warning and its an incredibly long chapter you are free to continue :D
I woke up feeling lonely today I don’t know why yesterday was amazing I spent a day at the beach with my amazing boyfriend and two of my best friends, why was I like this?
I laid down for about an hour just doing nothing then I dragged myself out of bed and looked in the mirror. To be honest I didn’t like what I saw my legs were fat, my stomach was fat I was just fat. My hair wasn’t as nice as others it was dead from bleaching it all the time, my face wasn’t smooth I had the worst skin It would break out if you touched it. I was the opposite of perfect why was Tony even with me? That’s why he cheated on me last time because I wasn’t pretty or skinny enough isn’t it.
By now I was freaking out I didn’t know what to do, so I did the what I know works every time I almost ran over to my bathroom. “I’m sorry Mike…” I said just before I grabbed my little silver blade of ecstasy, the first second it hurt but then It didn’t and I just kept on going from arm to other arm to leg to other leg.
I started to get lightheaded and well I almost passed out so I cleaned up everything and hopped in the shower it stung like a bitch but I didn’t mind.
After I got out the shower I realised how badly I had relapsed my arms were covers from my elbow down to my wrist and my legs from the top of my thigh above my knee. Fuck what if people see there going to be mad, oh my god and Billie she will be pissed at me.
About 10 minuted later I calmed myself down and got dressed into some black jeans and an old grandpa jumper which I was obsessed with, I put my long white hair in a messy bun and spent time actually doing my makeup for once.
This day had been pretty shit and I was kind of determined to make it better so that’s what I did, I grabbed my bag and stated to walk to Tony’s house even just the thought of him made me smile. He didn’t live too far away it was only a fifteen-minute walk so it was fine, I got there and looked and saw that Vic’s car was here and Mike’s car was here too so I wouldn’t just be with my boyfriend but it’s okay. I went over and knocked on the door
“oh hey Liv, wasn’t expecting you. You alright?” fuck Tony could read me like a book.
“yeah I’m fine and sorry for just showing up I was bored” I explained
“it’s okay baby” he said and pulled me in for a kiss which was quickly interrupted by Mike.
“aye you too lovebirds’ your needed in the kitchen” he said walking away, Tony then grabbed my hand and walked into the kitchen with me.
When we entered the kitchen Mike, Vic, Billie, Jaimie and Alysha were there was I just not invited or something I’m right he doesn’t like me great his going to cheat on me again because he doesn’t like me, by now I was already freaking out I was hyperventilating and everyone was looking at me. Someone ran over to me as I was already on the floor
“it’s okay Liv just breathe, 1 2 3 in 1 2 3 out” and I followed their words and I was soon brought outside to realise it was Jaimie and I was happy it was him.
“I-I- ‘m so sorry I-I didn’t mean it it’s just s-s-o hard “
“Liv it’s okay you need to remember I’m always going to be here if you need me I don’t judge okay?” Jaimie was so nice.
“if I tell you something w-will you n-not tell anyone?” I trust him I told him last time about what happened when Tony cheated and I went to hospital and I can’t disappoint Billie and Mike even more than I already do so.
“Liv you can tell me anything” he said looking at me worriedly
“you can’t tell anyone and I mean anyone okay?”
“okay Liv I promise” I then took his hand and ran him to the bathroom dodging everyone else.
“don’t judge me” I said getting a reassuring nod from Jaimie. I then started to unbutton my jeans.
“a-ah Liv what are you doing” he questioned then I realised how weird this must be to him.
“oh ah just wait it will make sense” I said which got me a weird look from him, but I continued with my pants then my shirt his face when he saw it was miserable.
“L-L-Liv how you said you wouldn’t” he was crying and it’s my fault.
“It helps me I don’t know what else to do” I started crying and he hugged me.
“you need help Liv” did he just tell me I need help that’s kind of rude but it’s true I need help.
“I know but I don’t w-want people to know” I said then he moved away from me and his eyes lightened.
“it can be our little secret I can take you we won’t tell anyone and you’ll get better and no one has to know about it. But you have to promise that you will try and that you will not be stubborn and do nothing. Okay, you have to promise?” holy shit he was really serious by now I was crying more than human still in my underwear but felt comfortable and I need help I might not want it but I need it.
“I-I-I promise you Jaimie I will” then he hugged me and I got dressed and we walked out and everyone hugged me and asked if I was okay I said I was fine and walked over and hugged Tony putting my face into his chest.
“anyway guys, did you want to have another movie day or…” Vic said running to the other half of Tony’s house and grabbing a box.
“no Vic stop we are not play- “Mike was soon cut off my Vic yelling.
“DUNGEONS AND DRAGONS!” oh my god this made me laugh and my inner nerd had a heart attack, when I was 13 I had a slight obsession with this game and world of war craft which to be honest I still love.
“YESS” Billie and I yelled at the same time which I find hilarious.
“it’s a terrible game” Alysha said which got her a death stare from Jaimie.
“agreed” Mike said cuddling Alysha I mean he never liked out nerdy stuff, but we don’t go around bagging his little weed obsession all the time.
“fine than you two leave” Jaimie said with the most sass I have ever heard and with that Mike and Alysha left.
“I mean I really like dungeons and dragons so…” I trailed of which got me two big eyes stares from Tony and Jaimie.
“I did not expect that” Jaimie said almost blinded from the fact
“I have an awesome girlfriend” Tony said kissing my nose, then we all played dungeons and dragons for the rest of the day and when I say rest of the day I mean rest of the day.
I woke up feeling lonely today I don’t know why yesterday was amazing I spent a day at the beach with my amazing boyfriend and two of my best friends, why was I like this?
I laid down for about an hour just doing nothing then I dragged myself out of bed and looked in the mirror. To be honest I didn’t like what I saw my legs were fat, my stomach was fat I was just fat. My hair wasn’t as nice as others it was dead from bleaching it all the time, my face wasn’t smooth I had the worst skin It would break out if you touched it. I was the opposite of perfect why was Tony even with me? That’s why he cheated on me last time because I wasn’t pretty or skinny enough isn’t it.
By now I was freaking out I didn’t know what to do, so I did the what I know works every time I almost ran over to my bathroom. “I’m sorry Mike…” I said just before I grabbed my little silver blade of ecstasy, the first second it hurt but then It didn’t and I just kept on going from arm to other arm to leg to other leg.
I started to get lightheaded and well I almost passed out so I cleaned up everything and hopped in the shower it stung like a bitch but I didn’t mind.
After I got out the shower I realised how badly I had relapsed my arms were covers from my elbow down to my wrist and my legs from the top of my thigh above my knee. Fuck what if people see there going to be mad, oh my god and Billie she will be pissed at me.
About 10 minuted later I calmed myself down and got dressed into some black jeans and an old grandpa jumper which I was obsessed with, I put my long white hair in a messy bun and spent time actually doing my makeup for once.
This day had been pretty shit and I was kind of determined to make it better so that’s what I did, I grabbed my bag and stated to walk to Tony’s house even just the thought of him made me smile. He didn’t live too far away it was only a fifteen-minute walk so it was fine, I got there and looked and saw that Vic’s car was here and Mike’s car was here too so I wouldn’t just be with my boyfriend but it’s okay. I went over and knocked on the door
“oh hey Liv, wasn’t expecting you. You alright?” fuck Tony could read me like a book.
“yeah I’m fine and sorry for just showing up I was bored” I explained
“it’s okay baby” he said and pulled me in for a kiss which was quickly interrupted by Mike.
“aye you too lovebirds’ your needed in the kitchen” he said walking away, Tony then grabbed my hand and walked into the kitchen with me.
When we entered the kitchen Mike, Vic, Billie, Jaimie and Alysha were there was I just not invited or something I’m right he doesn’t like me great his going to cheat on me again because he doesn’t like me, by now I was already freaking out I was hyperventilating and everyone was looking at me. Someone ran over to me as I was already on the floor
“it’s okay Liv just breathe, 1 2 3 in 1 2 3 out” and I followed their words and I was soon brought outside to realise it was Jaimie and I was happy it was him.
“I-I- ‘m so sorry I-I didn’t mean it it’s just s-s-o hard “
“Liv it’s okay you need to remember I’m always going to be here if you need me I don’t judge okay?” Jaimie was so nice.
“if I tell you something w-will you n-not tell anyone?” I trust him I told him last time about what happened when Tony cheated and I went to hospital and I can’t disappoint Billie and Mike even more than I already do so.
“Liv you can tell me anything” he said looking at me worriedly
“you can’t tell anyone and I mean anyone okay?”
“okay Liv I promise” I then took his hand and ran him to the bathroom dodging everyone else.
“don’t judge me” I said getting a reassuring nod from Jaimie. I then started to unbutton my jeans.
“a-ah Liv what are you doing” he questioned then I realised how weird this must be to him.
“oh ah just wait it will make sense” I said which got me a weird look from him, but I continued with my pants then my shirt his face when he saw it was miserable.
“L-L-Liv how you said you wouldn’t” he was crying and it’s my fault.
“It helps me I don’t know what else to do” I started crying and he hugged me.
“you need help Liv” did he just tell me I need help that’s kind of rude but it’s true I need help.
“I know but I don’t w-want people to know” I said then he moved away from me and his eyes lightened.
“it can be our little secret I can take you we won’t tell anyone and you’ll get better and no one has to know about it. But you have to promise that you will try and that you will not be stubborn and do nothing. Okay, you have to promise?” holy shit he was really serious by now I was crying more than human still in my underwear but felt comfortable and I need help I might not want it but I need it.
“I-I-I promise you Jaimie I will” then he hugged me and I got dressed and we walked out and everyone hugged me and asked if I was okay I said I was fine and walked over and hugged Tony putting my face into his chest.
“anyway guys, did you want to have another movie day or…” Vic said running to the other half of Tony’s house and grabbing a box.
“no Vic stop we are not play- “Mike was soon cut off my Vic yelling.
“DUNGEONS AND DRAGONS!” oh my god this made me laugh and my inner nerd had a heart attack, when I was 13 I had a slight obsession with this game and world of war craft which to be honest I still love.
“YESS” Billie and I yelled at the same time which I find hilarious.
“it’s a terrible game” Alysha said which got her a death stare from Jaimie.
“agreed” Mike said cuddling Alysha I mean he never liked out nerdy stuff, but we don’t go around bagging his little weed obsession all the time.
“fine than you two leave” Jaimie said with the most sass I have ever heard and with that Mike and Alysha left.
“I mean I really like dungeons and dragons so…” I trailed of which got me two big eyes stares from Tony and Jaimie.
“I did not expect that” Jaimie said almost blinded from the fact
“I have an awesome girlfriend” Tony said kissing my nose, then we all played dungeons and dragons for the rest of the day and when I say rest of the day I mean rest of the day.
Notes
sorry this was long but oh wells i wrote it a while ago and haven't been writing as much these last couple of days and i want sure i was going to use this chapter or not so... rate comment and subscribe<3
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