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Sharpen Your Teeth And Bite As Hard As You Want

She Could Make Hell Feel Just Like Home

"Okay, Jeremy I hope you're okay soon, see you soon" I smiled down into my the phone as I hung up. Taylor, Justin and Ilan were looking at me intently. I put my phone in my pocket. "Okay so what's happening with Jeremy?" Taylor spoke up. "He's okay. It's definitely broken. He's with Kat at the moment. So he's not alone, which is good. He'll be allowed to leave in 3 days and meet us in Utah. So that is 2 more shows without him" I told them. They nodded. "Okay, is he still in pain?" Justin asked with sympathy. "Yeah. He says it's painful to walk on but he said he'll play shows even if he has to sit on the amps" I smiled. "Good old Jeremy" Ilan laughed. "We have to ask Vic to play bass again" Taylor grinned and jumped up and down. I smiled. "I'll go let him know" I said getting up and climbing off the bus.

I looked around for the PTV bus. I spotted the moustache and smiled. I was about to climb onto the bus when I heard Jaime talking to someone. "I want you to tell me the truth Vic. Have you been..." Jaime whispered. I didn't hear the last word. "No okay just leave it, Jaime it's over man" Vic said calmly. "Fine Vic. Just be careful" Jaime said and then it went silent. I pretended I was just walking towards him and almost bumped into Jaime. "Oh, Hayley" He said and looked behind him. "Hime-Time!" I smiled hugged him. "Is Vic around?" I asked biting my lip. He studied me for a moment. "Yeah... he's on the bus" Jaime sighed and walked away. Okay that was weird.

I walked onto the bus and seen Tony. He smiled then looked at the TV screen again, playing Fifa with Mike. "Vic in the back?" I asked. They nodded. I thanked them and walked to the back of the bus where the kitchen area was. Vic was standing infront of the counter, leaning on it with his two hands. His back was facing me. He didn't notice me so I decided to get his attention. "Hey Mr bass man" I sang to him. He didn't react, move or anything. I frowned and walked over to him. I put my hand on his shoulder and he shrugged me off. "Hey, what's wrong?" I asked carefully. He didn't say anything. "Vic?" I asked again. He turned around so fast I jumped back. "WHAT?" He screamed. I got such a fright I fell backwards onto the floor and hit my head. I grabbed my head and then felt wetness. I pulled my hand back and seen red. My eyes widened in shock and I looked up at Vic. His face was emotionless and I scrambled to my feet and stumbled backwards until I hit a wall. He finally snapped out of a daze and seen how scared I looked. "Hayley I" He started to say but I cut him off. "Jeremy needs you for the next two shows. We would appreciate it if you could play bass again. Thanks" I rushed and walked out the kitchen. I heard him call after me and I ignored it. I rushed by the guys and off the bus.

I ran and ran. I didn't know where but I ended up off-site. Portland wasn't the biggest place we had been but I didn't know where I was going. I found a Starbucks and decided to call Jenna. I dialed her number and waited. "Hello?" Jennas strong Australian accent boomed through the phone. "Hey, um are you busy?" I asked her. "No we already played today actually, what's up?" She said. "Can you come meet me?" I asked defeated. "Sure, where are you?" She asked me happily. "Starbucks, it's three blocks from the entrance" I told her. "Be there in a few" She said. "Thanks" I smiled and hung up.

15 minutes passed and I looked up and seen Jenna walk in. She seen me and walked over. "Hey, I got you a frap" I smiled as she sat down. "Thanks Hayley" She grinned and took a drink of her frap. "This is great. So why are you here?" She smiled. I put my head in my hands. "I'm so confused. I went to tell Vic about Jeremy being unable to play bass for two more shows and that we needed him but he wouldn't talk. He just stood there, ignoring me. I touched his shoulder and he turned around and screamed at me. I got scared and fell backwards and hit my head off the table. He didn't react... just looked at me with no expression. Then snapped out of it and tried to talk to me. I just ran and ended up here" I finished. I had my head in my hands and tears were flowing down my face. "Hayley, it's okay. Vic has a lot of problems okay. Sometimes he gets alittle overwhelmed. Just don't get too upset okay" She smiled and grabbed my hand. "What do I do?" I asked, looking up. "Talk to him... maybe try to let him explain and if he doesn't then just don't bother with him. He'll come running back eventually" She grinned. I smiled finally. I wiped my tears away and she smiled even more. "Jenna you're the best. We need to hang out more" I laughed. "Yeah man!" She said and high fived me. "So I forgot to ask... how did it go with Tony?" I raised raising my eyebrows. She went a shade of red and I grinned. "We kissed... and he asked me to be his girlfriend" She smiled. "Oh my god... that's so amazing" I beamed. She grinned and we both decided to leave and go back to the site. We said our goodbyes and went seperate ways.

Me and Taylor done our signing as usual with one man down. We apologized to fans for Jeremys absence. They understood and wished him a quick recovery. We finished the signing and made our way back to the bus. Before we got to our bus Kellin came running towards us and told me I had to come with him. I said okay and Taylor told me he was going to play guitar and hang with his brother. I followed Kellin and took me towards the PTV bus. Oh great. We walked on the bus and everyone was there. "Found her, okay it's time! I'm so excited" Kellin said bounding over to the couch. I sat down next to Tony and Mike. "What?" I asked.

Jaime was jumping up and down. Vic picked up his guitar and Kellin sat next to him. He had a massive grin on his face. Vic began to strum the guitar and Kellin had an even bigger smile on his face. Kellin opened his mouth and began to sing. "Oh my stomachs tied in knots, I'm afraid of what I find if you wanna talk to me tonight. Ooh ooh, see the problem isn't you, it's me I know, I can tell I've seen it time after time. I push you away, I get so afraid. Oh no. I can't live without you now. Oh oh, I can't even live with myself. Oh oh, I can't live without you now and I don't want nobody else. No no. I only have myself to blame, do you think we could start again? Cause I can't live without you" Kellin finished. Vic strummed and then he opened his mouth to sing. "Oh, my stomach’s tied in knots I’m afraid of what I’ll find if I can see you with him tonight Oooo oooo See problem isn’t you, it’s me I know I do this every single time I’ll push you away, ohh I get so afraid, oh no. And I can't live without you now Oh-oh I can't even live with myself Oh-oh-oh I can't live without you now Oh-oh And I don’t want nobody else Oh-oh-oh. I only have myself to blame But do you think we can start again I only have myself to blame" Vic finished. I had been trying to avoid eyecontact but his voice was so perfect and pleading. Kellin began again "But do you think we can start again, I only have myself to blame but do you think we can start again, I only have myself to blame, let's start again, let's start again, I can't live without you" Kellin Finished and then everyone began singing and clapping. "Oh-oh oh-oh oh-oh, Oh-oh oh-oh oh-oh, Oh-oh oh-oh oh-oh, Oh-oh oh-oh oh-oh" I grinned at everyone and couldn't stop smiling. "And I can't live without you now Oh-oh I can't even live with myself Oh-oh-oh I can't live without you now Oh-oh and I don’t want nobody else Oh-oh-oh" Kellin sang out. He winked at me and kneeled infront of me. "Cause I can't live without you now, Oh-oh I can't even live with myself Oh-oh and I can't live without you now Oh-oh" Vic sang and pointed at me and quickly grabbed the guitar neck again and sang. "Cause I don't want nobody else" He smiled. "Nobody else" Kellin cut in. "Nobody else I can't live without you Oh-oh-oh" Vic sang finsing the song and kneeling infront of me with Kellin. They both had big grins on .

I just looked at them shocked and surprised. I looked at Jaime, Mike and Tony. They all had big grins on their faces. I couldn't believe they had all done this. "Guys... that was amazing... why though?" I asked with the biggest smile ever. "You were sad yesterday about Jeremy so we all thought you could do with cheering up" Jaime said, hugging into me. I grabbed Kellin and Vic and hugged them. "Thanks" I whispered. I pulled back and hugged everyone else. We all chatted for awhile but I tried to avoid Vic. Just because he sung me a little song doesn't mean he is forgiven. I need an apology and an explaination. "Guys I gotta go. I try and come see your set" I said getting up and hugging everyone except Vic. I think everyone noticed it.

"Hayley!" I heard a voice shout after me once I got off the bus. "What?" I asked spinning around. Vic was closer than I thought and I stepped back. He looked hurt that I moved away from him. "Hayley, why are you angry at me?" He asked, looking hurt. "What? You're seriously asking that?" I said angrily. "yeah, you were happy after I sung that song" He frowned. "Oh you can sing a little song to me Vic but that doesn't erase the way you acted with me. You were horrible to me today" I almost shouted. "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry I shouted at you" He pleaded. I looked at him and nodded. "Why did you act like that to me?" I asked, my voice starting to go croaky. He looked at me and sighed. "Hayley, please forgive me and leave it" He begged. "No, I can't forgive you until you're honest with me... I thought we were friends" I sighed. He put his head in his hands and groaned. Tears started to form in my eyes. "Aren't we?" I asked again. He looked at me and nodded. "Then tell me" I whispered. He just looked and me and bit his lip. Nothing. He said nothing. "I thought I would mean at least something to you. You know to be honest to me" I said letting the tears fall. I turned and ran to my bus. He didn't follow which was good. I climbed into my bunk and cried. I cried until it was show time.

I stood sidestage waiting to go on and my sadness illuminated from me. Taylor didn't understand. Vic was standing next to Taylor and I was standing on my own. I held my mic close to my chest waiting for our queue. We got it and I plastered a smile on my face. Showtime. I tried to pretend that I was okay. Not show a thing. Vic had his usual stage presence. Taylor also. I tried to keep up with them. I cried when we played Let the Flames Begin. I never usually cried during our sets but I was so emotional today. We finished the set and I dropped my mic and ran offstage before I broke down.

As I was running down the stairs and through people to get to the bus area I cried. I cried so much. I got near our bus and I just stopped and fell on the ground. I couldn't take it anymore. Everything had been building up and I just broke down. I sat crying when suddenly I felt arms around me. I knew that smell. I just hugged him back. I felt myself being picked up and I just let him. He took me onto his bus and through to the bunk area. He put me in his bunk, wrapped his sheets on me and kissed my forehead. I cried and cried.

Eventually he came back and climbed in. He didn't say a word. Just held me as I cried. "I told Taylor you're here. You can sleep in my bunk tonight and I'll sleep on the couch" Vic whispered. I didn't say anything. I sat up andlooked at him. He followed my actions and we sat infront of each other. "You're sad because of me, aren't you" He whispered. I didn't say anything. "I'm sorry" He sighed. I wiped the tears away and whispered. "I just don't like seeing something wrong with you... it was like you weren't you today". He looked at me with sad eyes. He held his arm out to me. I scrunched up my eyebrows and frowed. He slipped his wrist bands off and that's when I seen the last thing I ever wanted to see. He had scars all over his wrist. Then I noticed there were fresh ones. Every other one looked years old except 4, which looked like they had been done today. I grabbed his hand and kissed it. "Why?" I asked with tears in my eyes. "I don't know, I can't explain it" He sighed. "I used to do it a lot when I was younger. For every reason you could think of. Then the band helped me through it you know. Then I got that feeling again today. Jaime found me acting all weird like I used to. Guilty" He told me. I nodded and waited for him to continue. "I don't know why, I just needed something. I feel, empty right now" He choked. My heart ached for him. The tears began to flow. "When you came in I heard how happy you were and I felt so guilty, so stupid. Why do this to myself when I have awesome friends and you" He said looking up. "Vic... please don't do it again" I begged. He nodded. I held my pink out to him. He raised an eyebrow. "We gotta do it right" I laughed, trying to be serious. He nodded and linked pinkys with me. He then put his wrist bands back on. I don't know why but I leaned in and kissed his lips. He kissed me back and then kissed my head. "Here..." he said handing me one of his shirts. "Sleep in that" I nodded and he left the bunk to let me change. I told him he could come back and we both laid together talking. I cuddled into him and fell asleep, blissfully in his arms.

Notes

This is a big one guys :D

Comments

Ogsquidgy Ogsquidgy
11/29/13
@VicKellinTonyMikeJaime

Sequel and the follow up is on my page :)
WHAT YOU CANT JUST END IT LIKE THAT!!!!!!
lol just letting you know kellins eyes are blue not green.....