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Selfish Machines

Chapter eighteen:

I woke up and looked at my phone 4 AM

I glance over beside me and Mikes gone. I rub my eyes a little and crawl out of his bed, I stretch a little before opening the door and slowly walking down the hallway. I’m still half asleep. Where could he have gone? As I’m trudging down the stairs I can see a glimpse of light near the bottom. I follow the light as it glistens in the pitch dark; it leads me to the back porch. I open the door to see Mike leaning against the railing with a lit cigarette in his hand. I grab the cigarette from him and take a drag.

“You know smoking kills right?” I say leaning my head against his shoulder.

“Not quick enough” Mike smirked wrapping his arm around, me pulling me in closer to his side.

“Can’t sleep?” I asked passing the smoke back to him.

“No, I’ve just got a lot on my mind” He said taking another drag.

“If you wanna talk about it I’m here” I stated reassuringly “I’ll always be here”

“It just kind of seems like everything is throwing me for a loop, first there was the roller coaster with you, and then fighting with Vic now my Abuela. I’ll be okay I’m just having a hard time but I’ll get through it I always do.” Mike said flicking his cigarette butt into the darkness. For the first time since I’ve known Mike he was honest about how he feels, he didn’t try to act tough or push me away. He actually pulled me closer. I could get use to this side of him, it’s definitely something I’m not use to.

“Can I be honest with you?” I asked him.

“Of course Spence, that’s all I’ll ever ask of you.” He said while looking down at me with a slight smile, I can see the water marks beneath his bloodshot eyes. Even when he looks like shit, he’s still hot.

“I’m scared.” I nervously stated looking down at the ground. “I don’t want this to be a roller coaster of emotions but that’s how I feel, I want you but then I don’t want to, but I really like you. I’m just scared I’m going to get hurt, I’ve seen the things you’ve done and I don’t want to just be another notch on your belt.”

“Spencer. When I told you I think I’m falling in love with you it wasn’t just a line to get you in bed. It really is how I feel.” Mike said wrapping both arms around me bringing me into a warming hug. “I can’t promise that I won’t hurt you. I just want you to give me a chance to show you the way I feel about you is different from anything I‘ve ever felt before”

“I don’t want to hurt you either and I just feel like no matter the outcome in this situation someone will end up being hurt, whether it be you, me or Vic” I said letting go of the hug. “I am sorry about your Abuela I hope she’s okay.”

“Me too” Mike said walking towards the door and holding it open for me “Come on let’s go back to bed.” We both walked inside, he shut the door behind him locking it. As were walking towards the bottom of the staircase Mike stops me, turns me around and our lips collide. I like this Mike, why hasn’t he always been like this. After our kiss breaks he picks me up and throws me over his shoulder.

“Mike” I said between laughs “Put me down!” But he continues climbing up the stairs as if I weigh nothing, he’s so strong. He doesn’t reply instead he slaps my ass a few times. “Ow! Mike that actually hurts” I say while returning the favour.

“Hey cut it out!” Mike says laughing when he reaches the top of the staircase. “Or else”
“Or else what? What are you gonna do?” I reply doing it again.

“Oh that’s it you’re gonna get it.” But before he can do anything I hop down and run into his bedroom at the end of the hallway. He runs behind me and as I shut the door he wedges his foot in.

“Mike you better back off.” I say a little too soon, before I know it he pushes the door open and I fall to the ground. Mike falls on top me and plays dead. “Mike get of you’re heavy” I jokingly play as I try to push him off.

“Nope not till you do something for me” Mike grabs my arms and pins them above my head.

“And what would that be?” I say staring at his big chocolate eyes.

“I think you know what I want.” Mike does his adorable little side smile smirk.

“I thought you said you’ve had ‘better’ and I wasn’t even ‘that good’?” I say rolling my eyes.

“You know I like to bug you.” Mike gives me a short little kiss on the lips.

“Wasn’t bad for my first time hey?” I say giving a little awkward laugh.

“Wait what?” Mike says letting go of my arms and standing up. “You were a fucking virgin!?”




Updated :) and much more to come

I really like this you should keep going. Hope you update soon