This Heart; it beats, beats for only you.
Dinner
Kali’s POV:
Austin and I sat down to dinner. He had a satisfied look on his face. I can usually tell what he’s thinking and by his expression the food was good. I haven’t really tried it yet. I was always so self-conscious about eating in front of people, it’s even worse eating in front of Austin. I guess he picked up on the fact that I hadn’t eaten, only that I played around with the pasta. But every time I try to take a bite, those girl’s comments flashed through my mind. Maybe, I am ugly, maybe I am fat.. Austin looks upset. He shouldn’t be upset. I’ve never really had an issue with food or anything like that before, well not till tonight. I stare at the wall to my right, avoiding Austin’s cold and hard gaze.
“Kali, why aren’t you eating?” He demanded softly but sternly.
“No reason.” I breathed and twirled the pasta around my fork and took a bite, flashing Austin a smile.
I hate moments like this, awkward and accusatory. He can’t help it though, he must be really tired and worried about his next tour. The rest of dinner was just as awkward as it started. We didn’t talk all that much, except for him telling me that it’s really good, every few minutes. Truthfully, I’m not used to him being home. I know as soon as we get back into our normal routine he’ll have to leave for another tour. I feel like I barged into his life.
I heard dishes clinking together, snapping me back into reality. Austin had started cleaning the table. I look down at my barely eaten food and contemplate whether or not to eat it or save it for later. I took a small bite and grabbed my plate and walked into the kitchen and placed it on the counter. I was looking for a container when I saw the look on Austin’s face. He looks disappointed that I didn’t eat, but instead of scolding me like a child he wraps his muscular arms around my waist and bent down, placing his chin on my shoulder, squeezing me tight. I smiled and shed a single tear. He noticed and turned me around to face him. He trails his long slender fingers along my cheek, wiping away my silly tear.
“Kali, you have no idea how much you mean to me. I hope I can spend the rest of my life convincing you. If you’ll let me..” He said quietly, as if it was a whisper.
“Of course I’ll let you, Austin. I’d love nothing more than to be with you for as long as I live.” I said blushing.
He gently kissed my forehead as I placed my hands on his chest. Softly, I kiss him along his jawline. I felt him shiver against me as he pulled me closer to him. I kiss his chest gently, and pulled away.
“I’m so happy to have you in my life, Austin.”
“I’m happy too, Kali. You make me happy.”
“Do you have any clothes you need washed?”
“Umm, yeah babe. I have a ton of clothes. Why?” he asked curiously
“No reason.”
There is a reason though.. I could tell that he probably wanted to be intimate with me. But we haven’t done anything like that before. We never really talked about it. He’s either too busy or I’m tired from work. Working at a tattoo parlor and being a low grade concert photographer was a lot to handle sometimes. Austin always wonders why I won’t take photos of him and the guys. I want to, believe me. But everyone would think I got the job because I’m his girlfriend and not for my talents as a photographer. So, I just leave Adam to shoot their shows when he can. I tend to avoid sex altogether. What if he thinks I’m just another fangirl wanting to get in his pants. I love Austin, with all my heart and soul. I’m so afraid I’ll lose him.
Austin walked towards the front door.. Is he walking out on me? Did I say something wrong? I turn away, I cannot bare to see him leave too..
“So, are we gonna wash my clothes tonight or tomorrow?” he asked as he was walking towards me with his bags.
“Well I could so them while you’re sleeping..”
“How about we do them together tomorrow?” he sweetly suggested
I nodded and grabbed one of his bags and tossed it on the couch. He did the same and swept me into his arms to kiss the top of my head.
“I love you, princess.”
“And I love you, prince.”
Austin and I sat down to dinner. He had a satisfied look on his face. I can usually tell what he’s thinking and by his expression the food was good. I haven’t really tried it yet. I was always so self-conscious about eating in front of people, it’s even worse eating in front of Austin. I guess he picked up on the fact that I hadn’t eaten, only that I played around with the pasta. But every time I try to take a bite, those girl’s comments flashed through my mind. Maybe, I am ugly, maybe I am fat.. Austin looks upset. He shouldn’t be upset. I’ve never really had an issue with food or anything like that before, well not till tonight. I stare at the wall to my right, avoiding Austin’s cold and hard gaze.
“Kali, why aren’t you eating?” He demanded softly but sternly.
“No reason.” I breathed and twirled the pasta around my fork and took a bite, flashing Austin a smile.
I hate moments like this, awkward and accusatory. He can’t help it though, he must be really tired and worried about his next tour. The rest of dinner was just as awkward as it started. We didn’t talk all that much, except for him telling me that it’s really good, every few minutes. Truthfully, I’m not used to him being home. I know as soon as we get back into our normal routine he’ll have to leave for another tour. I feel like I barged into his life.
I heard dishes clinking together, snapping me back into reality. Austin had started cleaning the table. I look down at my barely eaten food and contemplate whether or not to eat it or save it for later. I took a small bite and grabbed my plate and walked into the kitchen and placed it on the counter. I was looking for a container when I saw the look on Austin’s face. He looks disappointed that I didn’t eat, but instead of scolding me like a child he wraps his muscular arms around my waist and bent down, placing his chin on my shoulder, squeezing me tight. I smiled and shed a single tear. He noticed and turned me around to face him. He trails his long slender fingers along my cheek, wiping away my silly tear.
“Kali, you have no idea how much you mean to me. I hope I can spend the rest of my life convincing you. If you’ll let me..” He said quietly, as if it was a whisper.
“Of course I’ll let you, Austin. I’d love nothing more than to be with you for as long as I live.” I said blushing.
He gently kissed my forehead as I placed my hands on his chest. Softly, I kiss him along his jawline. I felt him shiver against me as he pulled me closer to him. I kiss his chest gently, and pulled away.
“I’m so happy to have you in my life, Austin.”
“I’m happy too, Kali. You make me happy.”
“Do you have any clothes you need washed?”
“Umm, yeah babe. I have a ton of clothes. Why?” he asked curiously
“No reason.”
There is a reason though.. I could tell that he probably wanted to be intimate with me. But we haven’t done anything like that before. We never really talked about it. He’s either too busy or I’m tired from work. Working at a tattoo parlor and being a low grade concert photographer was a lot to handle sometimes. Austin always wonders why I won’t take photos of him and the guys. I want to, believe me. But everyone would think I got the job because I’m his girlfriend and not for my talents as a photographer. So, I just leave Adam to shoot their shows when he can. I tend to avoid sex altogether. What if he thinks I’m just another fangirl wanting to get in his pants. I love Austin, with all my heart and soul. I’m so afraid I’ll lose him.
Austin walked towards the front door.. Is he walking out on me? Did I say something wrong? I turn away, I cannot bare to see him leave too..
“So, are we gonna wash my clothes tonight or tomorrow?” he asked as he was walking towards me with his bags.
“Well I could so them while you’re sleeping..”
“How about we do them together tomorrow?” he sweetly suggested
I nodded and grabbed one of his bags and tossed it on the couch. He did the same and swept me into his arms to kiss the top of my head.
“I love you, princess.”
“And I love you, prince.”
Notes
Decided to put up chapter 3!
