Glass Hearts
Bulletproof Love
The bell rung and I couldn't wait to get back home and meet him again! I couldn't wait to kiss those lips and tracing the tattoos on his chest , my head was in the cloud and I bumped into an unknown guy with long dark hair, deep blue eyes , nose ring and lip ring, who was carrying some cardboard boxes.
I have to admit he was handsome and when he rose his left eyebrow up he was even better.
-I'm so sorry- I blushed
-no problem- he smiled back and I turned away.
-Austiiiinnn- I called as I stepped in his house
-hey! I'm upstairs-
I run to his bedroom and into his arms, it was so nice to see him! And smell his cologne, I kissed him,but that wasn't enough to me, I moved to his neck started to suck his skin, he moaned a bit as I left a great hickey just up his rose tattoo.
We continued kissing , when suddenly the door opened and his dad walked in.
I froze I could feel his eyes looking at me even if I wasn't looking, Austin pushed me away badly , I felt guilty, his father was staring at us, shock in his eyes.
-Can... Can you come with me a minute Austin... Excuse us- he cleared his throat looking at me and faking a smile.
Austin's Pov
I followed my father out of the room and to the kitchen, I was scared, I knew I should've told him, it will be surely harder for him finding out I'm gay in this way, I really hoped he would accept me anyway.
-dad I'm sorry, I should've told you, I know it, but please don't hate me, and just know that if you tell me I have to stop seeing him, I won't- I said bravely but feeling the needing to cry.
-I don't hate you, I can't hate you, you're my only son and I'd never leave you or stop you from being happy, yes sure, I preferred a girl , but he's okay , as soon as he makes you feeling good- he said quietly,
-thank you dad, I was really scared that I could upset you after all you've been through, we've been through, when mom passed .- I said and felt my eyes getting wet as a tear run down my face , I had been crying a lot lately, this made me laugh a bit if I thought that just a few months ago I was considered heartless.
-Just a question- he said hugging me
-sure- I said wiping away my tears
-do you really love him?-
-I really do- I couldn't help but smile thinking how much he means for me.
-be good with him, and don't leave him, not even when you'll go to college this summer, he seems a nice guy, and you have to be a gentleman as I taught you- his eyes were full of happiness despite of what I was thinking.
-what about let him stay for dinner-he winked
-It'd be perfect-
Alan's Pov
I could hear them talking, I was worried,I didn't mean to 'cause trouble to Austin and surely I didn't want to cause trouble with his father who Austin looks up the most.
I was walking around his bedroom playing with my hand I felt very nervous.
-Alan come here- Austin called me, his voice didn't sound broken or something like that.
-coming- I answered quietly I felt a bit calmer as I heard his voice
-hi, I'm Perry,Austin's father, so you're the lucky one!- he was smiling and seemed so kind
-nice to meet you, yes, I guess so... I'm Alan- I was embarrassed, I mean my father would've freaked out if he had caught me kissing a guy.
-So, you're part of the family now! Wanna stay for dinner?-
I looked at Austin who has nodding in the background so his dad couldn't see him.
-it would be great, thank you, thank you a lot, Mr Carlile- I blushed, he was treating me in the most normal way, he didn't even look bothered, he was as caring as Austin, maybe a little more if it was possible.
-You're always welcome here!-
Austin took my hand , we stayed in the living room watching tv and talking until
his dad called us.
-so Alan what are you planning for next year? Will you go to college here or move?-
-Actually I'll graduate next year-
-oh, I see you're a year younger, but have you already got any idea?-
-well, I'd like to work with music, you know... I'm not that good in studying-
-don't worry Austin wasn't, but he'll go to college in Florida anyway!- he said smiling at Austin.
What? Austin was going to leave? What!? I can't go on without him! Oh god, I was panicking.
-Ah- I spitted out quite angrily.
-haven't you told him yet ,Austin?- his father said looking sorry
Austin cleared his throat as he was chocking on what he was eating.
-ooooh, I guess I have to go now, I've forgotten I have to finish a thing- he literally run away, leaving me and Austin alone.
Austin's Pov
Shit. What was I supposed to say? Sorry? I couldn't apologies, it was my future.
-when will you leave?-
-in June -
-Alan, don't get angry please-
-But austin! You're going to leave and you hadn't told me anything! I know we might not last 'till next year, but i think it is just fair telling me that- I hoped he wasn't angry, I thought he wanted the best for me, I was scared.
-You're right Alan, I don't blame you, but I couldn't find the right moment, I didn't want to upset you after what happened, but I swear we'll work everything out, I'll come here every weekend, I won't forget you or leave you behind me.-
He cried a bit,as i told him,all these things, I wasn't joking,I was just determinate, he meant too much for me.
Alan's Pov.
I cried a little, while he was talking, I trusted him, he saved me after all, he was "the reason why" he was my everything and I was sure we could handle a long distance.
-I'm taking you back home now- he said kissing my forehead
-but I don't want to, Aus!-I squitted
-can I stay here tonight, pleaseeeee- I was begging him, he laughed.
-oh well, if you really want to...- he mocked me.
-I really want to!-
He hugged me tightly and we headed to his bedroom.
-put this on- he said, throwing a slipknot t-shirt to me while I was texting my mother to say I wouldn't come back home.
Once I put his t-shirt on I giggled as it was almost 3rd size more than mine, I crashed to the bed and he followed me.
-you know what, my little ginger princess? I've missed your baggy clothes- he seductively whispered.
I felt shivers running down my whole body, I couldn't resist it anymore, I connected our lips and our tongues too, I couldn't have enough of it.
The kiss was becoming deeper and deeper, he moved to my neck giving me back the hickey I left him that afternoon, I moaned.
I could feel my jeans turning tight and his too,he started taking my shirt off,but I suddenly pushed him away
I didn't felt ready, I was scared.
I've never had sex before or made love, because with Austin was making love not having sex,I knew he did it before he had told me,but I wasn't feeling it, it was too early for me.
I didn't know if I was experienced enough ,"big" enough or everythingcrossyourmind enough.
-I'm sorry Austin, I don't... I'm not ready for this...- I babbled
-It's not your fault... I'd love to...but I just .... I can't right now-I carried on
-I'm not forcing you in anyway Alan, I want your first time to be perfect,just don't feel sorry about it okay? You have to decide when, I won't be the one who make you do it against your willing.-
he said placing his lips on my nose tip, I couldn't believe he was still so calm and understanding, I knew I was complicated and I was surprised that he didn't freak out, he would've had all the rights,making love was the minimum after all he did for me it.
We cuddled for a while,I felt so good staying in his arms and listening to his breath getting deeper , counting his heartbeats while he was falling asleep, I slowly closed my eyes and fall with my head buried in his chest.
I have to admit he was handsome and when he rose his left eyebrow up he was even better.
-I'm so sorry- I blushed
-no problem- he smiled back and I turned away.
-Austiiiinnn- I called as I stepped in his house
-hey! I'm upstairs-
I run to his bedroom and into his arms, it was so nice to see him! And smell his cologne, I kissed him,but that wasn't enough to me, I moved to his neck started to suck his skin, he moaned a bit as I left a great hickey just up his rose tattoo.
We continued kissing , when suddenly the door opened and his dad walked in.
I froze I could feel his eyes looking at me even if I wasn't looking, Austin pushed me away badly , I felt guilty, his father was staring at us, shock in his eyes.
-Can... Can you come with me a minute Austin... Excuse us- he cleared his throat looking at me and faking a smile.
Austin's Pov
I followed my father out of the room and to the kitchen, I was scared, I knew I should've told him, it will be surely harder for him finding out I'm gay in this way, I really hoped he would accept me anyway.
-dad I'm sorry, I should've told you, I know it, but please don't hate me, and just know that if you tell me I have to stop seeing him, I won't- I said bravely but feeling the needing to cry.
-I don't hate you, I can't hate you, you're my only son and I'd never leave you or stop you from being happy, yes sure, I preferred a girl , but he's okay , as soon as he makes you feeling good- he said quietly,
-thank you dad, I was really scared that I could upset you after all you've been through, we've been through, when mom passed .- I said and felt my eyes getting wet as a tear run down my face , I had been crying a lot lately, this made me laugh a bit if I thought that just a few months ago I was considered heartless.
-Just a question- he said hugging me
-sure- I said wiping away my tears
-do you really love him?-
-I really do- I couldn't help but smile thinking how much he means for me.
-be good with him, and don't leave him, not even when you'll go to college this summer, he seems a nice guy, and you have to be a gentleman as I taught you- his eyes were full of happiness despite of what I was thinking.
-what about let him stay for dinner-he winked
-It'd be perfect-
Alan's Pov
I could hear them talking, I was worried,I didn't mean to 'cause trouble to Austin and surely I didn't want to cause trouble with his father who Austin looks up the most.
I was walking around his bedroom playing with my hand I felt very nervous.
-Alan come here- Austin called me, his voice didn't sound broken or something like that.
-coming- I answered quietly I felt a bit calmer as I heard his voice
-hi, I'm Perry,Austin's father, so you're the lucky one!- he was smiling and seemed so kind
-nice to meet you, yes, I guess so... I'm Alan- I was embarrassed, I mean my father would've freaked out if he had caught me kissing a guy.
-So, you're part of the family now! Wanna stay for dinner?-
I looked at Austin who has nodding in the background so his dad couldn't see him.
-it would be great, thank you, thank you a lot, Mr Carlile- I blushed, he was treating me in the most normal way, he didn't even look bothered, he was as caring as Austin, maybe a little more if it was possible.
-You're always welcome here!-
Austin took my hand , we stayed in the living room watching tv and talking until
his dad called us.
-so Alan what are you planning for next year? Will you go to college here or move?-
-Actually I'll graduate next year-
-oh, I see you're a year younger, but have you already got any idea?-
-well, I'd like to work with music, you know... I'm not that good in studying-
-don't worry Austin wasn't, but he'll go to college in Florida anyway!- he said smiling at Austin.
What? Austin was going to leave? What!? I can't go on without him! Oh god, I was panicking.
-Ah- I spitted out quite angrily.
-haven't you told him yet ,Austin?- his father said looking sorry
Austin cleared his throat as he was chocking on what he was eating.
-ooooh, I guess I have to go now, I've forgotten I have to finish a thing- he literally run away, leaving me and Austin alone.
Austin's Pov
Shit. What was I supposed to say? Sorry? I couldn't apologies, it was my future.
-when will you leave?-
-in June -
-Alan, don't get angry please-
-But austin! You're going to leave and you hadn't told me anything! I know we might not last 'till next year, but i think it is just fair telling me that- I hoped he wasn't angry, I thought he wanted the best for me, I was scared.
-You're right Alan, I don't blame you, but I couldn't find the right moment, I didn't want to upset you after what happened, but I swear we'll work everything out, I'll come here every weekend, I won't forget you or leave you behind me.-
He cried a bit,as i told him,all these things, I wasn't joking,I was just determinate, he meant too much for me.
Alan's Pov.
I cried a little, while he was talking, I trusted him, he saved me after all, he was "the reason why" he was my everything and I was sure we could handle a long distance.
-I'm taking you back home now- he said kissing my forehead
-but I don't want to, Aus!-I squitted
-can I stay here tonight, pleaseeeee- I was begging him, he laughed.
-oh well, if you really want to...- he mocked me.
-I really want to!-
He hugged me tightly and we headed to his bedroom.
-put this on- he said, throwing a slipknot t-shirt to me while I was texting my mother to say I wouldn't come back home.
Once I put his t-shirt on I giggled as it was almost 3rd size more than mine, I crashed to the bed and he followed me.
-you know what, my little ginger princess? I've missed your baggy clothes- he seductively whispered.
I felt shivers running down my whole body, I couldn't resist it anymore, I connected our lips and our tongues too, I couldn't have enough of it.
The kiss was becoming deeper and deeper, he moved to my neck giving me back the hickey I left him that afternoon, I moaned.
I could feel my jeans turning tight and his too,he started taking my shirt off,but I suddenly pushed him away
I didn't felt ready, I was scared.
I've never had sex before or made love, because with Austin was making love not having sex,I knew he did it before he had told me,but I wasn't feeling it, it was too early for me.
I didn't know if I was experienced enough ,"big" enough or everythingcrossyourmind enough.
-I'm sorry Austin, I don't... I'm not ready for this...- I babbled
-It's not your fault... I'd love to...but I just .... I can't right now-I carried on
-I'm not forcing you in anyway Alan, I want your first time to be perfect,just don't feel sorry about it okay? You have to decide when, I won't be the one who make you do it against your willing.-
he said placing his lips on my nose tip, I couldn't believe he was still so calm and understanding, I knew I was complicated and I was surprised that he didn't freak out, he would've had all the rights,making love was the minimum after all he did for me it.
We cuddled for a while,I felt so good staying in his arms and listening to his breath getting deeper , counting his heartbeats while he was falling asleep, I slowly closed my eyes and fall with my head buried in his chest.
Notes
Perry seems so kind ,even though he left the cat out of the bag ? Alan's too naive maybe . ^.^
I'm sorry it took me a few days to upload the new chapters , but my wifi was down :(
Title Credit : Bulletproof Love - Pierce the veil
@Itsgettinhardtobreathe
Very Very True! xD
7/28/15