Glass Hearts
Besitos.
Alan's Pov
As I woke up,I felt a warm breath on my neck, Austin was sleeping next to me, I was confused, everything in my mind was blurring, the last thing I remember was him crying while caring me on the bed,I wanted to end my life, I thought that ending my life was the best solution for both of us, I was wrong, he was there with me , he was STILL there ,he said he'd never leave me and he didn't.
I had been so selfish, he gave me his heart and I’ve almost threw it away.
-I love you Austin, I'm sorry- I said placing my lips on his, he groaned as I woke him up.
-Alan! How are you?- he said, I felt his heartbeat accelerating as he was still worried
-I'm okay Austin, I love you... You don't have to be so nice to me.-
-what are you talking about alan? I have to, I love you, I'll take care of you 'till you’ll be fully healed and even after, I will take care of you 'till the end of my life if it's needed, but you have to promise me that you will never do that again, please, I couldn't handle to see you in that way, if you don't love yourself enough to keep you alive, I will love it for you-
I saw a tear shining on his cheek as the raising sun was passing trough the window, I didn't want to say anything, I wasn't able to find the right thing to say, I wept away the tear with my thumb and kissed him, this time I was begging for an entrance, that kiss felt like forever,it wasn't just a kiss, it was a " thank you", an "I love you" a "please don't leave me" it meant everything to me.
We laid in bed cuddling for the rest of the morning, my parents left the house early , so they didn't know I was with Austin and that I wasn't at school.
After all I was feeling good, a cool breeze was coming trough the half opened window, Austin were half asleep next to me, and I was smiling into his arms.
-Austin- I said smoothly
-uhm- he answered with a morning voice
-what are we?- I asked moving away his fringe
-what do you mean?- he said kissing the tip of my nose
-I mean,we're boyfriends, friends,best friends?-
-I was waiting for this Alan- he said looking me in the eyes
-Will you be my boyfriend?-
-How can I say no?-
-We're official now, I guess-
He said as he kissed me.
The week without Austin passed faster than I thought it would, he came to my house every afternoon as my father thought he was my tutor or something as he was a year older than me, I spent lot of time with the guys lately and before I could realize it , it was already Friday.
-we're official! - I smiled to Aaron and Justin.
-good- Justin said roughly with a flash of angriness in his eyes, he had acted strangely since I've told them about Austin, but I thought that something was going on in his life and it wasn't related to me.
-congrats!- Aaron said, I've recently made a really strong bond with him, he's always so caring and kind.
-what about a 'lil celebration on Saturday ? Tino told me about this new pub and he invited us all!-
-oh... I don't know...you know my grades aren't so good and my parents are freaking out so ...I think I'd better stay at home- he said playing with his hands, he looked very nervous, it seemed impossible to calm down for him.
I felt that him was slowly fading away, but I didn't know what to do, I didn't know what was going wrong, he said to me he had started playing with a band recently, so I thought he was just a bit anxious because of that, but he hadn't say more.
As I woke up,I felt a warm breath on my neck, Austin was sleeping next to me, I was confused, everything in my mind was blurring, the last thing I remember was him crying while caring me on the bed,I wanted to end my life, I thought that ending my life was the best solution for both of us, I was wrong, he was there with me , he was STILL there ,he said he'd never leave me and he didn't.
I had been so selfish, he gave me his heart and I’ve almost threw it away.
-I love you Austin, I'm sorry- I said placing my lips on his, he groaned as I woke him up.
-Alan! How are you?- he said, I felt his heartbeat accelerating as he was still worried
-I'm okay Austin, I love you... You don't have to be so nice to me.-
-what are you talking about alan? I have to, I love you, I'll take care of you 'till you’ll be fully healed and even after, I will take care of you 'till the end of my life if it's needed, but you have to promise me that you will never do that again, please, I couldn't handle to see you in that way, if you don't love yourself enough to keep you alive, I will love it for you-
I saw a tear shining on his cheek as the raising sun was passing trough the window, I didn't want to say anything, I wasn't able to find the right thing to say, I wept away the tear with my thumb and kissed him, this time I was begging for an entrance, that kiss felt like forever,it wasn't just a kiss, it was a " thank you", an "I love you" a "please don't leave me" it meant everything to me.
We laid in bed cuddling for the rest of the morning, my parents left the house early , so they didn't know I was with Austin and that I wasn't at school.
After all I was feeling good, a cool breeze was coming trough the half opened window, Austin were half asleep next to me, and I was smiling into his arms.
-Austin- I said smoothly
-uhm- he answered with a morning voice
-what are we?- I asked moving away his fringe
-what do you mean?- he said kissing the tip of my nose
-I mean,we're boyfriends, friends,best friends?-
-I was waiting for this Alan- he said looking me in the eyes
-Will you be my boyfriend?-
-How can I say no?-
-We're official now, I guess-
He said as he kissed me.
The week without Austin passed faster than I thought it would, he came to my house every afternoon as my father thought he was my tutor or something as he was a year older than me, I spent lot of time with the guys lately and before I could realize it , it was already Friday.
-we're official! - I smiled to Aaron and Justin.
-good- Justin said roughly with a flash of angriness in his eyes, he had acted strangely since I've told them about Austin, but I thought that something was going on in his life and it wasn't related to me.
-congrats!- Aaron said, I've recently made a really strong bond with him, he's always so caring and kind.
-what about a 'lil celebration on Saturday ? Tino told me about this new pub and he invited us all!-
-oh... I don't know...you know my grades aren't so good and my parents are freaking out so ...I think I'd better stay at home- he said playing with his hands, he looked very nervous, it seemed impossible to calm down for him.
I felt that him was slowly fading away, but I didn't know what to do, I didn't know what was going wrong, he said to me he had started playing with a band recently, so I thought he was just a bit anxious because of that, but he hadn't say more.
Notes
We've got an official couple now *.*
What's Happening with justin though?
Title Credit : Besitos- Pierce the veil.
@Itsgettinhardtobreathe
Very Very True! xD
7/28/15