Glass Hearts
All of my love.
Alan's Pov
I followed him upstairs, his room was full of band posters.
he listens to the same bands as me! I was daydreaming about us with "Snuff" in the background.
We talked a lot about music, time literally flown away.
-so do you play guitar -
-yes, but I don't think I'm really good at it-
-I bet you are!- he stood up and looked for something in his room
-what about you? Do you play something?-
-I sing, well I scream- he handed me the acoustic guitar he was looking for
-I'd like to here ya scream-
-I'd like to here you play something, haven't you said that you write songs?- he said giving me a pick.
I was embarrassed but I eventually strummed a tune,I was completely disconnected, when suddenly he pressed his lips onto mine, his tongue begged for an entrance, I just let it go, I haven't kissed a lot of people, but he was surely the best kisser ever.
-you're not just good at playing guitar- he winked seductively .
I blushed heavily, that felt so good, I loved staying with him,he made my thoughts go away, I felt so free to be me that I took my hoodie off without thinking,leaving my arms uncovered,well done Alan!, fresh cuts everywhere.
Austin glanced at my wrists, I could see he was worried ,I could feel it , he tensed his forehead and pushed his fringe back.
-Alan, why? Was it for me?- I could see his eye turning red as If he was trying not to cry
-I...I don't know why, I needed to do it okay? I've told you, I don't deserve to be happy,and no,it's not your fault- my eye stung so bad one more minute and I would break down
-Austin,please, don't leave me , not now, I... I need you to be happy- I couldn't resist it anymore , I covered my face with my hands and started to sigh. Austin took my hands and hold them strongly
-I will never leave you,not now,not tomorrow, never. I need you to be happy, I need your hair,the sadness in your hazel eyes, your pale skin with red scars on it and all the baggy hoodies you wear even when it's 29 degrees and the sun is shining, I love you Alan, i really do.-
I was speechless, Austin said that he loved me and that he needed me to be happy, he didn't care of all my flaws and of my weakness he loves me exactly for what i am, but what does it mean that he needed me to be happy? Wasn't he happy? What was in his past, we've never talked about that.
-I love you too Austin, I've been in love with you since the first day, and I'm sorry if I'm not perfect and if I bring my self down- I said feeling shivers down my spine.
Austin's Pov
When I saw the cuts on his skin, I understood that I've always loved him, I've never believed in love at first sight, but that happened to me tough, I felt like I must save him, I didn't know from what I have to save him,but I needed to do it, he reminds me of the "a year ago" me : I was the weaker one, I was the broken one, and I suffered because I was almost alone, I restarted to live because Shayley was by my side, but I didn't want to be a Shayley to Alan, I wanted to be something more.
-Austin, why did you say you needed me to be happy? Aren't you?- Alan asked me with questioning eyes
I realized I've never told him anything about me or my past, and how I changed through the years.
-I wasn't, now I am, you know, I've never told you about who I used to be, so :a year ago my mum, passed away and I fucked my life up: bad marks, cutting and bullies , I felt so bad that my father and I needed to move from Florida, I wasn't completely healed when I started school,I was scared that everything could go bad as it was before, eventually Mike took me under his wings and I was untouchable, but it took me a bit to find out why, I ended up being what I've never wanted to be and I couldn't escape from it, I felt worst everyday, I was on the edge, no one , not even Shayley knew how sick I was feeling, but then you arrived and everything has changed-
I felt a tear rushing down my cheek, was I crying? I haven't talk about my mother for a whole year and talking about her made me letting out all my feelings.
Alan hugged my tightly I swear if I could I would never leave.
Alan's Pov
I was literally melting down, I had and I have no words to describe how much I loved Austin, he said I kind of saved him, and that was ironical because he was my savior,I wanted to kiss him,to make out with him,to get away with him, to get wasted with him, I felt like I could do everything with him on my side.
It was already 8pm, I had to leave, I didn't want to, he kissed me , I tasted his lips one last time before heading back home, I swear I would never forget that feeling.
for the first time I couldn't wait to go to school just to see him, I felt invincible.
I walked home, every second of that afternoon was permanently impressed in my mind,I really hoped We would last forever.
As my head hit the pillow I fall asleep and dreamed for the first time since years.
I followed him upstairs, his room was full of band posters.
he listens to the same bands as me! I was daydreaming about us with "Snuff" in the background.
We talked a lot about music, time literally flown away.
-so do you play guitar -
-yes, but I don't think I'm really good at it-
-I bet you are!- he stood up and looked for something in his room
-what about you? Do you play something?-
-I sing, well I scream- he handed me the acoustic guitar he was looking for
-I'd like to here ya scream-
-I'd like to here you play something, haven't you said that you write songs?- he said giving me a pick.
I was embarrassed but I eventually strummed a tune,I was completely disconnected, when suddenly he pressed his lips onto mine, his tongue begged for an entrance, I just let it go, I haven't kissed a lot of people, but he was surely the best kisser ever.
-you're not just good at playing guitar- he winked seductively .
I blushed heavily, that felt so good, I loved staying with him,he made my thoughts go away, I felt so free to be me that I took my hoodie off without thinking,leaving my arms uncovered,well done Alan!, fresh cuts everywhere.
Austin glanced at my wrists, I could see he was worried ,I could feel it , he tensed his forehead and pushed his fringe back.
-Alan, why? Was it for me?- I could see his eye turning red as If he was trying not to cry
-I...I don't know why, I needed to do it okay? I've told you, I don't deserve to be happy,and no,it's not your fault- my eye stung so bad one more minute and I would break down
-Austin,please, don't leave me , not now, I... I need you to be happy- I couldn't resist it anymore , I covered my face with my hands and started to sigh. Austin took my hands and hold them strongly
-I will never leave you,not now,not tomorrow, never. I need you to be happy, I need your hair,the sadness in your hazel eyes, your pale skin with red scars on it and all the baggy hoodies you wear even when it's 29 degrees and the sun is shining, I love you Alan, i really do.-
I was speechless, Austin said that he loved me and that he needed me to be happy, he didn't care of all my flaws and of my weakness he loves me exactly for what i am, but what does it mean that he needed me to be happy? Wasn't he happy? What was in his past, we've never talked about that.
-I love you too Austin, I've been in love with you since the first day, and I'm sorry if I'm not perfect and if I bring my self down- I said feeling shivers down my spine.
Austin's Pov
When I saw the cuts on his skin, I understood that I've always loved him, I've never believed in love at first sight, but that happened to me tough, I felt like I must save him, I didn't know from what I have to save him,but I needed to do it, he reminds me of the "a year ago" me : I was the weaker one, I was the broken one, and I suffered because I was almost alone, I restarted to live because Shayley was by my side, but I didn't want to be a Shayley to Alan, I wanted to be something more.
-Austin, why did you say you needed me to be happy? Aren't you?- Alan asked me with questioning eyes
I realized I've never told him anything about me or my past, and how I changed through the years.
-I wasn't, now I am, you know, I've never told you about who I used to be, so :a year ago my mum, passed away and I fucked my life up: bad marks, cutting and bullies , I felt so bad that my father and I needed to move from Florida, I wasn't completely healed when I started school,I was scared that everything could go bad as it was before, eventually Mike took me under his wings and I was untouchable, but it took me a bit to find out why, I ended up being what I've never wanted to be and I couldn't escape from it, I felt worst everyday, I was on the edge, no one , not even Shayley knew how sick I was feeling, but then you arrived and everything has changed-
I felt a tear rushing down my cheek, was I crying? I haven't talk about my mother for a whole year and talking about her made me letting out all my feelings.
Alan hugged my tightly I swear if I could I would never leave.
Alan's Pov
I was literally melting down, I had and I have no words to describe how much I loved Austin, he said I kind of saved him, and that was ironical because he was my savior,I wanted to kiss him,to make out with him,to get away with him, to get wasted with him, I felt like I could do everything with him on my side.
It was already 8pm, I had to leave, I didn't want to, he kissed me , I tasted his lips one last time before heading back home, I swear I would never forget that feeling.
for the first time I couldn't wait to go to school just to see him, I felt invincible.
I walked home, every second of that afternoon was permanently impressed in my mind,I really hoped We would last forever.
As my head hit the pillow I fall asleep and dreamed for the first time since years.
Notes
well , Austin cleared his mind, he's really in love with Alan, but loads of things are going to happen babes ^.^
Title Credit : All of my love - Led Zeppelin
@Itsgettinhardtobreathe
Very Very True! xD
7/28/15