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Glass Hearts

A Party Song (The walk of Shame).

Aaron will arrive in 10 and I don't know how to wear, I mean first impression count and I hadn't any idea of who I could met so after hours of changing I went for grey skinny and my slipknot tank top with a black hoodie on, the scars on my arms were healing slowly so you could still see those red marks, my phone buzzed, Aaron arrived, I hurried out feeling a bit nervous.

-Alan, nice to see ya man! So are you ready?- he asked tapping his fingers on the wheel, I nodded shyly while he turned up the volume.

-Aaron! How you doing man?- a long dark haired guy hugged Aaron

-oh hey! I'm Tino nice to meet you- he said with a huge smile

-I'm Alan,thanks for inviting me !-

-nothing,so you've moved from somewhere or you've just changed school?-

-just changed- I answered as we started laying the table and moving stuff around.

People started arriving at 9pm, at first I was scared and felt uncomfy but Aaron handed me a drink and then another one and I took drinking games too far, midnight arrive straight away I was drunk and feeling dizzy, the doorbell rung and guess who came in? Austin.

He was even more gorgeous than the first day I saw him, his fringe was perfectly on point and the sadness in eyes had disappeared a guy was with him, he stumbled a bit and headed to the kitchen where I was still drinking

-Alan!- he mumbled with a drunken voice

-he's Shayley he's my best friend he came from Florida just for me- he said pointing at a plump guy who seemed embarrassed, I was staring at them, my head was spinning around and I didn't understand a word of what austin said, I smiled and he took my hand leaving Shayley with a bitchy girl who looked interested in him what was Austin doing? We were both drunk as hell but I followed him ,we sat in Tino's garden beer in the hand.

-Alan, I've heard Mike beat you up again, are you okay? - he was so caring I was melting.

-yes, Aus don't worry okay?-

-Wanna play truth or dare? I know it's kind of childish,but I'd like to get to know you-
he's drunken voice sounded amazing I have no words to describe it,it was deep and a bit rough,It made me crazy.

-why not! I'd like to- I should drink more often I've never felt so confident

-okay so you start, truth or dare?-

-truth-

-so...why you've changed school?-I looked at my feet not sure what to say

-Bullies,you know...bad marks, assholes teachers...now it's your turn! Truth or dare?-

-truth

-have you got a girlfriend or something?-

-no I don't , what about you?-

I was waiting for this question , I knew that it was going to come, what was I supposed to say? I was too drunk to control myself.

-I'm gay- I spitted out, immediately regretting it

-I see,well you're not the first to tell me- he said he didn't seem shocked, i was embarrassed anyway, I opened out to a bully.

-so.. Truth or dare?-

-truth-

-what do you want more?-

-changes- He said, the sadness returned in his eyes, did I say something wrong?

-truth or dare-

This time I went for dare

-I dare you to give me your number- what the heck? He was daring me to give him my number? Was it a sick joke or something ?

I gave it to him, and we stood up, deciding that we hadn't drunk enough, I was looking for Aaron but In vain, we ended up on the coach in a kind of cuddling way and after a few drinks, I leaned forward to him, I just didn't know what was going on ,but i pressed my lips onto his,what was I doing? He didn't push me back , he continued the kiss,and for god's sakes his lips were soft, that was the best kiss I've ever had! but it finished soon and I felt guilty for unknown reasons, I stood up and run away, stumbling to my house, it was 4am and my head was so fucked up,I opened the door crawled to the bedroom and stared crying.

AUSTIN'S POV

Have I just kissed Alan back? What the fuck? If I was already questioning my sexuality now I'm completely confused! I needed to figure out what I was feeling for him and what he was feeling, I had been honest to him, I apologized for what Mike did, I showed him a part of the real me,I even kissed him back,why did he run away?

-Alan,why did you run away?
Austin.-


I waited for an answer for a while, what was I waiting for? It was 5 in the morning he was drunk, he was probably asleep, I stood up, looking for Shayley , tripping on drunken people, I finally found him,he was asleep on the coach with the girl I left him with,I woke him up

-Shay,we need to go back home- I mumbled, my head was spinning around so bad and my eyes stung,I really hoped he wasn't drunk at all 'cause I didn't have the strength to drive home.

-Uhm , hey Aus, where have you been? I looked for you all night- he said with a sleeping voice


-Can we talk about this tomorrow ? Can you just drive us home?- I felt sick, I knew I shouldn't have drunk that much because of my heart, but I've been feeling so down this week I needed to not to think.

-sure man just give me a minute to find my jacket-

he didn't ask me if I was okay, he knew I wasn't, he's always been like that, he's always known when something wasn't okay,but he never says a word about it, he just smiles and helps me out.
We arrived at home and went straight to bed, hoping that the morning will come soon so I could talk about what happened.

-'morning sleepyhead-

-'morning- I groaned

-do you want to talk about him?- how did he know it?

-him?-I asked acting naive

-the ginger one- he said looking me in the eyes

-oh... Well, I don't really know him, he's new at school, my friend Mike beat him up a few time, I didn't stop him, even if I knew I should have, I said sorry to him and felt guilty for about the rest of the week, yesterday I was so drunk and he was there, I wanted to know more about him I don't know why, but when I see him I feel butterflies in my belly and all that cheesy things, so we played truth or dare, he told me he was gay and after a while he kissed me, I didn't push him away,but eventually he run back home, I don't know why, I think I'm in love with him.-

Shayley was thoughtful,he was looking for the right thing to say, he didn't know that any word could be okay for me now

-Austin, I think you're too, but you need to find out what happened and maybe ask him out or something-

I hugged him,thanked him for always be there for me and asked if He wanted me to take him to the airport, he nodded and pick his bag up as he was leaving.

ALAN'S POV

woke up , my head hurt , yesterday I kissed Austin right? He kissed me back, so why did I run away? I was too scared, everything is going too well, I'm not use to it , I was and I am sure he's messing around with me,I took my phone out from my pocket as yesterday I fall asleep with my jeans on , there was a text

-Alan why did you run away?
Austin.-


What? Austin texted me? Was he into me or something? I looked the screen for a good 5 minutes than I threw my phone away and went to the bathroom and started to cry, it was too much for me , I couldn't handled it, I took my blade out and pressed it to my skin, I felt the blood running down my wrist and tears running down my checks, what was I doing? I wasn't even sure that Austin was joking , the thing was: I didn't want to feel happy, I needed to hurt me, I deserve it.

Notes

So Cashby's first kiss and a doubting Austin!


Title Credit : A party song (the walk of shame) - All time low

Comments

@Itsgettinhardtobreathe
Very Very True! xD

Gem_Jar93 Gem_Jar93
7/28/15

@Suki_Mizu93


No drama , No fanfic ! ahahah

Drama, Drama everywhere! xD hehe

They are too cute though :3

Gem_Jar93 Gem_Jar93
6/11/15

@Suki_Mizu93
as promised , two more chapters ;)

xx

@Itsgettinhardtobreathe
It's good. I'm enjoying it ^^ So if you don't mind, please carry on writing <3

Gem_Jar93 Gem_Jar93
6/10/15