Glass Hearts

Austin's Pov

-I'm sorry- I whispered as he entered his house and I drove away.
What he said pulled my under fuck, should I leave him? I never meant to make him feel weak or a failure.
I didn't want to go back home I was feeling so lonely, but I couldn't drive all night because i knew that if I did I would end up the next day saying "I should've crashed my car the night I drove alone."

I stopped by the beach I needed to clear my mind, i didn't know what I was feeling, I was angry,sad,sorry all in the same time.
I looked for the pack of cigarette I've left in the car a year ago when we moved and I quit smoking , as I found it, I light a cig up and took a drag of smoke looking forward and slowly calming down when my phone buzzed.

-can you come over? Please.
Alan.-

At first I put it back in my pocket, he said he didn't need me, I won't save his ass this time.
I took a second look of the screen,I remembered how I felt a year before, I fought with everyone because I was feeling like they're treating me like an idiot, however the once that hadn't given up on me, were the one who saved me.
I threw away the stub and rushed to the car, I was worried, if he has restarted the cutting thing I swear I would freak out.

-What happened?
Austin.-

-just come.
Alan-

I run to his door that he left open, I walked in as quietly as I could.

-Aus- he stumbled to me with a bottle of vodka in his hand

-I'm sorry, I didn't mean to say what I've said can you please forgive me ? I'm stupid and I don't blame you if you wanna break up... I've treated you in the most selfish way ever, I cheated on you and even blame it on you, I'm such an asshole.- he had a drunken voice and smelled of alcohol , but he was clear-minded.

-Alan,I'm not angry anymore, I didn't want to come here at first, but I remembered all we've been through,how I acted and how you've changed me so don't worry, you're right, I'm a bit overprotective, but i am because every time I look into your eyes I feel the needing to save you from all the bad things that could happen to you;and I don't mind if you cheated on me, because you were being you, and you're so naive like you live in a perfect world but then you crash onto reality and that fuco you up- I smiled.

-Austin don't you ever leave me, even if I say that I hate you and I don't want you around me, promise me you won't leave me.- he munched heavily.
His eyes were red and wet because of alcohol and he was making a giant effort to telling me that, he had probably threw up a few minutes ago and he was standing there in the middle of the night in the dark for me.

-I won't, I've already promised you, and I'm still here, I love you.
Now we're going upstairs and getting changed okay?-

He nodded, I took the bottle from his hand and put it in the kitchen,we walked up heading to the bathroom and changed him, he threw up another time, I didn't mind it I was there for him , I cleaned the mess up and carried him to the bed, remembering that afternoon scene of a few days before.
I kissed his forehead and made my way to the door.

-can't you stay the night- he muttered half asleep

-I'd really love to, but what about your parents?

-I don't give a shit about them- he carried on with his head buried in the pillow

-but Alan...-

-stay, please-

I walked back leaving my jacket on the table and lied on the bed embracing him.


Alan's Pov

I woke up feeling austin's lips on mine, the sun was raising.

-good morning little ginger- he whispered as he was leaving.

-'morning- I groaned

-where are you going?- I said putting the blanket over my head

-back home, I don't wanna get caught by your parents in this way and I wasn't supposed to be here so I need to go home before my father wakes up- he squeezed his eyes because of the sun.

-hmmm... Okay, I'll miss ya ,you know- I murmured.

-me too, see you tomorrow at school- he kissed me again


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From that day everything have slightly changed, Justin,after some really bad days,left school in order to make music seriously,according to what he said.

Mike changed school,Aaron and Amanda became a couple and they sometimes hang with austin and me,finally Austin got officially accepted to college,but he told me he wasn't sure about what he has chosen.
My grades got better, my parents are divorcing, and it's my birthday soon!

Austin's Pov

dad, can I ask you something?- I asked quietly, I wasn't sure about what I was going to do, I mean, I don't know if he had already got used to have a gay son.

-tell me-

-well it's hard to say...so it will be Alan's b-day in two days and I want to organize something special you know, because I'll leave this summer, so I'd really like to
do something he will remember...-

-get to the point, son- he raised his eyebrows and I started to panicking a bit

-...can I take him to Florida...in our house-

He stared at me for a while he looked thoughtful and I lost all my sureness.

-uhm... Yeah no problem, just look for a cheap flight because I'm not going to pay for both of you- he laughed.

I couldn't believe it was a dream, like i could imagine Alan's face when I'd tell him, I could imagine his smile and all that cheesy things that you can see in films.

Notes

Hei Babes, I'm sorry! it took me ages to upload these new chapters ! But Firstly I was on holiday and then my Wifi fucked up!
Anyway I hope you liked this chapter! we've got a drunken Alan and a Lovely Austin (as usual)

Title Credit: Where are you now- Skrillex and Diplo