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Repeating Apologies

Chapter IX

Austin POV
So, I had a lot of thinking to do. In my heart, I felt like I belonged with Alan. When i'm with him, everything is okay, hell, it could be the end of the world but it would still all be okay because im with him. But Shay. We've been together more than three years, I was in a deep state of depression and he helped me. He made me okay again, I owe him everything I just, I don't feel the same about him as I did before. Because, well now, Alans back. Its like getting two dogs and getting rid of the original dog because the new dog doesn't like him. But yet its not, because I knew Alan and was with him before Shay.
"Babe?" Shay shouted through the apartment we shared, I was in our room, packing my bag. I decided to go spend a couple of days at my friends, a few hours away from here. To sort through my head, I needed to decide what I was going to do because it just wasnt right bouncing between the two of them. "I'm in the bedroom" I shouted back nervously. I wasnt sure on telling Shay but I couldnt just disappear for a couple of days, as nervous as I was, I had to tell him I was leaving for a while.
Once he stepped into the room he looked at my bag and back at me, he looked like he was going to tear up. "Woah- its not what you think baby" I cooed. "I'm just going to spend a few days with Lacy and Dave." He took a deep breath and swallowed whatever emotion he was about to show. "Oh, wh-why?" He squeaked softly. "I- I just need to clear my head is all. I've not been myself lately."
"Oh- Austin you know i'm not the fastest packe-"
"On my own Shay" I interrupted.
His face dropped, he looked over to the bed and sat down, sniffled slightly. He was upset, I knew it. I walked over to him and knelt before his knees. "Its just for a couple of days, I'll be back before you know it" I ensured.
He was silent until he finally looked at me "Its because of him, isnt it?"
I sighed. It was kind of. Shay too but he didn't need to know that. "No baby, no"
"Then why are you going?"
I sighed yet again. "I- I just, I need to get out of this town for a bit" I placed my hand on his face gently and slowly caressed his cheek. "It wont be long"
He swallowed and nodded his head. "Okay then, just. Call me when you get there" I nodded my head in reply and went back to packing my bags. I don't know how long I planned on staying there but I knew it wasnt going to be pretty coming back home. Someone was going to be annoyed or upset.
I was done. Finally done. My bag was at the door waiting for me. I laid down on the bed. It made me happy to finally of packed my bag, I took a look at my watch. I was to leave in an hour. The taxi was booked for 5pm.
Shay had left me alone to pack, he was in the living room but as soon as he heard me sigh in relief he made his way to the room and looked at me laying on the bed, my eyes were closed but I could feel his eyes on me but I said nothing.
He didnt speak but I felt him out of the blue jump on me. He was placing small kisses on my neck, hovering over the top of me. I smiled, he knew me so well, he knew exactly where my favourite place to be kissed was. "I have to leave soon Shay" I felt him smile "We've got time" he giggled.
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Alan POV
"DUDE get the fuck up" Aaron shouted in my ear. I rubbed my eyes open and saw him standing by the side of my bed. "What?" I croaked.
"Phil's here"
My eyes snapped open "What?" I sat up straight away, the fastest i had even woken/got up. I threw the covers off my pale body and stood up, I nearly fell over though, i guess my body wasnt quite as woken up as my brain. We walked out into the living room and Phil was sure enough here. Sat on the sofa. Aaron went to the kitchen, most likely to make my breakfast as he always did. "Whats up?" I asked as I threw myself on the couch "Band practise is earlier today, Shay just rang me and Tino" I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion. "Why didn't he call me?"
Phil looked at the floor. "Well, you guys aren't exactly friends are you?"
"Aren't we?"
"Oh- Well he says not"
"Oh- uh, thats weird" I guess he really didnt like me
"Well you did fuck his boyfriend" Aaron shouted from the kitchen which made me chuckle. He and Phil were laughing too. "Yeah I guess I did" I replied biting my lip. I could just remember that day. I dont think they knew it was twice that day.
About 10 minutes later Aaron handed me a homemade sausage and egg mcmuffin, lemme tell you. He makes the best ones ever. "We should go" Phil suggested. I nodded my head, thanked Aaron for breakfast and we headed out. I ate my breakfast in the car whilst Phil was swearing at everyone who 'was driving like a twat'.
We walked straight into the building once we got there, Tino was already there, sat at his drums and Shay was in the kitchen getting a drink. I decided not to confront Shay about the whole 'not calling me' thing, its best to just let it be and not cause more drama.
"Wheres Austin?" Phil asked. I hadnt noticed but he wasnt around, he usually comes with Shay and they're normally being all coupley. Gross really. Shay shot me an evil look which surprised me, I hadnt even said anything or even looked at him and he was already being hateful towards me. "Hes away for a few days"
"How come?" Phil asked further
"Because of Alan." He growled. My head shot up and back with shock. "What did I do?"
"What did he say Shay?" Tino joined in
Shay ignored my comment and answered Tino and Phil. "He didn't say it was because of him but I know it is." he then turned to me and walked up close "You fucked with his head ging. He said he cant stand being around you, it makes him sick. He just needed to get away from being anywhere near you."
"Woah Woah" Phil interrupted before Shay went on further. I stepped back from Shay and my mouth went dry. I know I shouldnt believe a thing he says, he just hates me for being with Austin that one time and for well.. yknow. But there was something about it that really got to me. I looked around the room, Shay was talking quietly to Tino and Phil. I think they were trying to calm him down.
I pulled out my phone. No new messages, no missed calls. Why would he go and not tell me? I heard in the background "Hes fucking obsessed with him!" It was Shays voice. My phone had then been yanked out of my hand, he was showing it to Phil and Tino.
"See, even his background is a picture of them two!" he then walked up to me and put his head uncomfortably close to mine. "There is nothing between you two. He told me he fucked you as a joke. Because he was bored. There is no Alan and Austin." and with that he pushed me back, throwing my phone on the floor.
His words cut me. What if it was true? I felt myself welling up, shaking and losing breath. Wa-Was I having a panic attack, over this? Oh god im so weak.
No, I wasnt doing this here. Not now, not with Shayley here. I picked up my phone and saw the screen had cracked. I didn't bother moping over it, I didnt even look at the guys I just walked out of the studio. I didnt pick up my guitar, i just left as soon as I could. My guitar would be fine there.
Do I call him? I didnt know what to do, on the way home I was just having a one man debate whether I call him or not but me being me, bumped into some random guy. "Oh shit, I-im so sorry" He apologized. It wasnt his fault, it was mine, as usual. As I looked up I noticed how damn gorgeous this guy was like holy shit. He was only slightly taller than me, he had dark brown hair, dark stubble and these gorgeous brown eyes. I couldnt help but melt over him. "N-No uh, its- its my fault" I managed to spit out. I was making a fool of myself infront of him. Good job Alan.
He seemed to stop and look at me before smiling and wow, his smile was amazing. "I'm Jack he said sticking out his hand for me to shake it and I did. It was a soft shake, his hands were soft too. "Alan" I said in reply. He stopped and thought for a moment and I stood awkwardly. "I know this sounds, really weird and possibly creepy, but, do you fancy going for a drink later?"
Woah, he was asking me out? Get in there Alan. Right now I had no thoughts of Austin, his name didn't even cross my mind. I nodded my head straight away, "Yeah sure!" I said a little bit too over enthusiastically. He laughed and smiled. "Meet at Jacobs at 7?" I nodded my head. And with that, we parted ways, grinning at each other.
That was weird yet awesome. Hes either going to show up or not, and if he didnt then i'll just have a couple of drinks on my own. No biggy right?

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Comments

Oh good that Austin is safe! I'm so glad that you're back to writing this story :)

Chaos'sWolf Chaos'sWolf
5/12/15

I seriously just read both the prequel and the sequel today and this is amazing.... I really want you to update

SnypperBVB16 SnypperBVB16
4/25/15

What happened to this story!? I'm still anxious for more!!

Chaos'sWolf Chaos'sWolf
4/3/15

YAAAAAAAS A SEQUEL!!! I'm addicted and gosh dang it, I need more!!

Chaos'sWolf Chaos'sWolf
1/5/15

@sir langdon my fish
Omg thank you so so so much! It means so much to me!

Vincent Vincent
1/5/15