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it seems like forever since I tore myself apart

Summary

Seems life forever,
Like forever
Since I tore myself apart
And left my friends in the wake
Of countless tears and fading life.
When I couldn't seem to grasp the life I lead
And the lives I touch
Its one year on now
One year on, one year on
Still I struggle with the same demons
I shed as I laid there lost in my head
Lost in my head

(Lost in this goddamn hospital bed)
I'm not the same man
And I don't dare try
(Try to uncover all the darkness I hide)
Its like my demons are my lovers
But I've got friends by my side
I've got hope in my eyes
And dreams to aspire too
And the whole wide world to watch below
(And death won't be my lover
I've got so much left to give
And take my life with subtle steps
Instead of not wanting all that is left)

Instead of trying to take my own life
Its one year on
And I'm stronger, I want to live much longer
Not grow old and bitter
And not jaded
And not hate what life gave me
Let the fear wash away
Let the demons blunt their claws
On a life that's full of mistakes
But always searching for much more
I won't die defeated
I won't die defeated
I won't die defeated
I won't die

Cause I've got friends by my side
I've got hope in my eyes
And dreams to aspire too
And the whole wide world to watch below
(and death won't be my lover
I've got so much left to give
And take my life with subtle steps
Instead of not wanting all that is left
No death won't be my lover
I've got so much left to give
And take my life with subtle steps
Instead of not wanting all that is left)

Characters

Ahren Stringer

the really outgoing music teacher that really cares about his student's well being and their mental state. Him, Joel and Nydia have a special and unusual relationship.

Joel Birch

Really ackward and has anxiety. But once you get to know the big Birch tree, he is really loving and caring. Is the English teacher at Clairmont. Him, Nydia and Ahren have a special relationship.

Nydia Ried

her and her father, spencer, moved from Tokyo for his job. They own a car shop and although Nydia has finished highschool her father makes her go back because she needs friends and people to count on this year. After her mother left 4 years ago, Nydia and her father have trust issues

Spencer Ried

As he trains to be a FBI Profiler, he was a Lawyer back in Tokyo. After his wife left, he has a lot more attention to Nydia. He is having trouble with trusting people and even though he love shis daughter, he has his ways to show it. funny, out going and really shy. He has a eidetic memory. He is 23 but ages through out the story. He has minor autism, but not enough to keep him from having three degrees. He is so upset about his wife leaving because his father left, in account of his mother's schizophrenia. Through out his career of a profiler, things happen that affect them as a whole.