“You did what ?!”
“I kissed him.”

I’ve been over Tino’s place for an hour or so. He called me earlier to ask me if I wanted to hang out with him this afternoon.

“This is what you wanted dickhead, so don’t act all surprised.” I snapped at him angrily
“Wow there Carlile, no need to get all bitchy, I just, I never thought you’d go that far with Alan”

I sighed at his stupidity

“So.. If you kissed him already, you wouldn’t mind , you know, doing something else, would you ?” He asked me with a smug grin. How god, I hate that kid. I knew exactly what that fucker was thinking about.

“I’m not having sex with him, Tino” I hissed at him through my teeth
“Come on, why not ? It will be fun ! Just imagine his face when you will «dumb» him in front of the whole school”

I sighed for the hundred time today and got up.
“ I have to go now, see you later”

I heard Tino called my name but I ignored him. I put my shoes on and left his house, slamming the door behind me.
I breathed in through my nostril and began to walk, thinking about the kiss Alan and I shared. It was soft and full of emotion.

But it’s wrong ! You don’t like him, you’re doing this for the money, remember ?

I hate myself for agreeing on this bet and the worse of it all is that it’s my fault... I have no one to blame but myself. I could have said no, I should have said no... I don't want to hurt Alan, he will never forgive me.
I'd never forgive myself

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I enter my house, hoping it’d be empty

“ Hi honey ! How was y-”
“Not today, Mom” I snapped at her
“What’s wrong, sweetheart ?”
“You want to know what’s wrong , huh ? Everything ! Everything is wrong and it’s all because of me” The last part of the sentence came out as a whimper. I felt my mother wrapped her arm around me. I broke down in her embrace. I cried until there was no tears left.

"Baby, do you want to talk about it ?" My mother asked me while wipping my cheek. I couldn't tell her, I couldn't tell her that her son was heartless prick that toy with other people feelings. I shook my head no and got up.

"Okay then, but if you want to talk about it later, I'm here for you"
"Thank you , mom" I hugged her one more time before heading to my room.

Notes

Hey guys ! so first of all, sorry for not uploading for almost 3 months. I really am sorry, I have no excuses. So yeah...
I don't know if I should end the story now or not. I have a few ideas here and there, but nothing really special, so if you have any suggestions , tell me about, okay ? :D